In the movie Brain Candy, there’ s character called ‘Cancer Boy’.
‘Hi Doctor, I’m Cancer Boy! No, there’s no hope for me’.
He’s in a wheelchair and shares all the details of his condition in a cheerful monotone, like: ‘Ow- that’s ok, my marrow is low.’ and ‘Each day is a gift!’
Apparently people were vastly offended.
Share shock. Imagine a world where we never hide.
Now just try to create it.
I’ve decided now I want people to feel sorry for me. Especially people in check out lines.
I’ve started joking bout playing the Cancer Card. What’s the use of being part of this Club if there aren’t benefits? I”m not collecting any frequent flier points every time I check into the Chemo Daycare Clubhouse. I get juice. I get warm blankets. I get liquid flush into the shadow life of my veins and I get to make little sounds that offend. Oh yeah: and I’m Blitzkrieging my way to Full Remission.
But these days I’m in the mood to negotiate. Maybe because my Yellow is getting stronger. Or maybe my container, my facade of control is liquifying along with my marrow. My body has betrayed me and I’m finally feeling it.
I want the best seat in the restaurant by flashing my membership: ‘I’ve got The Cancer, and and I like my bread basket warm.’ Or standing in line at the bank: tap, tap: ‘Hey I’ve got Cancer, give me your sandwich, I’m taking your spot.’ Or even: ‘You have to give me a puppy, a PUP-PY! I’ve got the Cancer!’
Best of all: ‘I can’t answer that question: I’ve got The Cancer!’.
I”m going to try that one during the Film Festival.
Sometimes things don’t change enough, even when everything has changed.
Sometimes you want the world to tilt with you.
Back to square one, I know. Ego. Still there after years of meditation on emptiness and enquiries into the ultimately reality.
And I know I’m not the body. I know I’m not The Cancer.
Blah blah.
But what I am is honest.
And it made me think of lobsters.
yeah. Lobsters.
They’re kinda sinister, aren’t they?
What sound do they make? How do they travel through the water? What electric traces do they leave after they have mated and gone.
I have no clue.
Like I cannot know what is going on in my bones.
The process going on inside my body is so silent I have moments when I want to be a Cancer Outlaw. There’s a shadow life in my marrow and that invisible graffiti needs to be seen, some how. It’s not polite what’s going on in my body. It’s offensive as Cancer Boy. I feel I want to rip the steri-strips off the wound and expose the covert operation going on. This encounter needs to be brought into the open.
I need to bring in some Yellow.
check.
The Yellow Diaries. Full Disclosure. I’ve done that.
Now a slow movement back to trust. I’m trying to learn how to trust my body again.
Sure, there’s a war going on, there’s nothing pretty about being under siege. But there are choices. The eastern tradition of Warriorship is about being courageous enough to be vulnerable and open- it’s not so much about aggression. I can actually step back and trust and allow the process of healing. And that’s another way to win this fight- scorched earth and rainstorm. Shrink and grow. Chemo and Love. Loving. Lots of it.
Maybe with a little Ayurveda and urine therapy on the side.
Yup. Put that in your Porta-cath. With some Saran wrap on it.
I guess I am still startled by the news of my latest protein work which shows near full remission. I should be ecstatic. I’m a little scared. I’m travelling back to trust. But the girl’s changed.
I’m not just talking bout a visual kidnapping here.
I remember an incident in the early days of my Membership after Bobcat- more resourceful than MacGyver- had brought home a collection of pamphlets on Myeloma from the PMH resource centre.
In the middle of the Multiple Myeloma Patient Handbook, tucked in amongst glittering new words (Basophil! Apoptosis! Waldenstrom’s macroglobulemia! Quiz in 20 minutes!) and the slightly less stimulating headlines of ‘Managing Complications and Side Effects’ I found this:
Other effects that can develop after long-term use of high dose steroids include the Cushingoid appearance (weight gain with a ‘moon face’)
Buh.
Here I come Key West.
It stopped me short. Not that I might die.
But that I might die with a ‘moon face‘.
ha.
Watching.
Travelling from out to in. This MM Marathon has sent me on the most treacherous of missions. It’s like going on assignment to a war zone. You cannot return the same when you meet yourself under trying conditions.
You cannot return the same.
Phew. I’m glad I’m off steroids now for the next four days. I think they’re making me a bit, you know, intense. Roid-tensity.
I met lovely Dannielle my manager today. She’s in town for TIFF but we had an off-site brunch. Most of the Film Festival activity and ‘happenings’ take place in a circuit around the Bay-Bloor area of Toronto. In previous festival years we have both put up at hotels in the middle of that ‘Twitch’. But this year, my skin is a barrier no more. Besides I’ve already got an in-built twitch in my feet from the Valcade. Can you say: Peripheral Neuropathy? Don’t need more twitch. I’m listening in on my marrow and I need to be far from people who are mainly concentrating on the out, circling profits and losses. I’m moving in the opposite direction.
So we sat at Over Easy and over eggs and lox spoke about the biz. We talked openly about the wide spread dysfunction in the industry amongst actressses to be unaturally thin, the poor body image, the eating disorders and the size zero. All the self-hatred, all the doubt.
There used to be a time when designers made clothes to fit an actress. Now an actress in Hollywood has to alter her body to fit the garment. A insult to flesh. A denial of lusciousness.
And I remembered. I was like that.
I used to care about being thin. Squeezing my proportions into the latest idea of fit. It was a part of my work as a model and actress but at some point it became part of my life. Anti-life. Denial.
Tap, tap, tap: ‘Hey, I’ve got the Cancer and thanks to MM I have a chance to be healthy again. Now give me your fork’
Is that another message from the marrow? Journey back to trust. To a new relationship with my body. With myself.
And I’m gonna say it. I’M GONNA SAY IT!
With. My. Soul.
Oye veh.
Each day may be a gift, but enough thinking for today, already!
How bout some action: www.mm5kwalk.ca
Here’s another thought. I’m gonna wear my Myeloma Bracelet on the Red Carpet on Wednesday.
http://www.myelomacanada.ca/en/order_bracelet.htm
Tomorrow an interview with Canada AM. Fitting at NADA (still need a name for the dress) and the beginning of Press and Promotions for ‘Cooking with Stella’. And for the first time since my Cancer Club Membership, I changed the date for my chemo to clear Wednesday for the Film’s Premiere. It’s time to pull out my wetsuit and celebrate lusciousness. Stitching it all together. And then let it hang free.
‘Hey, I’ve got the Cancer. I’m cancelling my membership cause each day is a gift!.’
E….N….D… is Effort Never Die. NO is not denial… N…O… is Next Opportunity….. Always be positive…!!
got the first place! love you.
Hi Lisa,
You are amazing!
Hey Lisa, I love you and support you.
不知道寫什麼,只希望妳一直都好好的,就是相信妳可以戰勝,每天都會來這裡給妳打氣加油!!
hey lisa… i am so glad that you have achieved almost full remission… i really like reading your blogs… you come across as someone so deep and highly intelligent… i can almost imagine how much’s going on your mind all the time… you are an amazing person – really gifted and unique… i wish you all the best from the very bottom of my heart and hope you are able to deal with all the intensity and chaos going on inside you well… keep smiling
Girl , flaunt your Myeloma Bracelet.
This particular post of yours feels so real. I always thought that there will be a cap to what you admit , what you come out with. But you have proved me wrong.
You have taken me in , completely.
Bravo !
Khudi ko kar buland itna, ke har takdeer se pehlay
Khuda bande se khud puche, bata teri raza kiya hai
Google the meaning .
hey lisa… u sound so senti in ur blog… maam.. ur gona b fine soon.. ur d 1 i love since i saw u. i love u.i hv seen ma grnd pa in ths bulshit cancer. i knw ur gona b well soon… love..
Watch this film.(The Guitat,2008)
Love
We support you.
Don’t be sad.
I like your denial of actions but dislike repeating the same effort of recital of the keyword cancer. I pray that it does not act on your nerves in the times to come.
I wish you get out of it with a healthy and beautiful smile.
Lisa,
You make me smile and laugh…and sometimes want to cry…hearing the words” near full remission” are insanely exciting. I knew you’d make it. Thanks be to god.
You look beautiful by the way. Not puffy – no way. Just beautiful.
Ruby
Gulshan ki fakat phoolon se nahi,katon se v zeenat hoti hai
jine ke liye is duniya me gham ki v zaroorat hoti hai
aye Waiz-e-nadan tu ek qayamat ki baat karta hai
yahan roz aaina dekhte hein,yahan roz qayamat hoti hai…
Ahaha..might die with a moon face..no worries a cute moon face never killed n e one..:)
-the yellow room is looking good..just like u..toodles~
Sorry.The Guitar(2008)
I’m tired : )
So while reading your latest yellow offering I decided I’m going to help you with brainstorming more ideas of how to exploit the cancer some more.
– while chastising a slow waiter “the cancer waits for no one you sluggard!”
– brushing off pesky panhandlers “I’d like to help you out seriously, just not today. Today the cancer says no”
– when you’re stuck inhaling the second hand fumes of a smoker “I don’t like what you’re doing but I suddenly have a good feeling in my bones, the cancer approves!”
bam
Hello there…you still up? so late … you must have post your blog few hours ago…hehehe
Just want to say your room is bright and cheery – like you and yes, go wear the Myeloma Bracelet on the Red Carpet on Wednesday.
Your post is as every witty as it is – and you are ‘notti’ for making me laugh out loud in my office…soon, I be ‘outted’ by my boss that I have been reading rather than working – hahahaha – what the heck, life is beautiful to care about office politics….
Til the next blog update…BB, BG, B ALWAYS 😀
MF
Hi Lisa,
You have a good sense of humor. You made me laugh out loud at around midnight. Well, actually, I do think you have a good point in this article – treat yourself nice and to be honest with your body.
You were beautiful and sexy when you were thin and now you are still beautiful and way too cute with your “moon face”. People love you for who you are, not how you look. To me and to many other people, knowing that you are still here, working, reading, eating, sleeping or doing whatever you like somewhere out there is much more important than whether you can return the same.
Dear Lisa,
Marry me!
I do love you!
Yes,I do!
WEII,Taiwan
Oh Lisa, I love you so deeply. You’re pure light. Thanks for writing, thank you for sharing your life and thoughts with us. Te amo, desde México.
You are beautiful anyways – the old lisa or the moon faced lisa…God give you the strength…Good luck!
Take care!
Lisa,
I have been reading , spamming your blog for some time now. I am handicapped when it comes to advice , I am tongue tied when it comes to prayers.
This particular post is different from the rest . You don’t sound upbeat. All I want to say it is okay. It is okay to feel down, it is okay to feel scared. Don’t lionize yourself , don’t stress yourself . You have already followed a brave path . We are all vulnerable at different points in our life , to different situations.
I don’t come to this blog expecting a super woman . I come here to find a person just like all others who has her ups and downs , who is strong yet has her weak moments.
I love this post as much as I loved the others. I have no speck of doubt you will come out of these gloomy days in an exemplarily manner. To share few thoughts, to hear few heartbeats , to see some rays of unconventional bravery and to weep a few tears ..You have given me all.
And after this fraught with nonsense comment of mine…
You have a delightful bong /hindi ..maybe bihari mixed line ..
Tumhaar is yours in Hindi .. well in the modified Hindi spoken in Bihar
the rest pure Bong .. But even if you had written in French I would have understood and echoed back !
“Each line is a tear , memorized. “
先留言,再看啊。。。love !
I have had Psoriasis for almost 20 years….Chronic, Extensive Psoriasis. And that seriously affects quality of life.
I have tuberculosis for past 6 months – tuberculosis of Sternum.
But I don’t cry like you.
I must say that you are making a big deal of your cancer.
You may say that it is cancer. But is that such a big deal?
After all you will certainly live for atleast 5 years.
You could possibly live for 10 years.
And with luck you could live for 25 years.
I don’t why you are complaining now, when death is atleast 5-10 years away.
Get a life, Move On.
Fall in Love, Get Married!!!
each blink is a gift (o:
love…..
Hi Lisa
I like your spirit…..reminds me kind of of Jonathan Livingstone Seagull.
Anamika
Botswana
I have had Psoriasis for almost 20 years – Chronic, Extensive Psoriasis. And that seriously affects quality of life.
I have tuberculosis for past 6 months – tuberculosis of Sternum.
But I don’t cry like you.
I must say that you are making a big deal of your cancer.
You may say that it is cancer. But is that such a big deal?
After all you will certainly live for atleast 5 years.
You could possibly live for 10 years.
And with luck you could live for 25 years.
I don’t why you are complaining now, when death is atleast 5-10 years away.
Get a life, Move On.
Fall in Love, Get Married!!!
Hi Lisa,
I wanna say “anti jamila”.. It means “you are beautiful” in Arabic. I know what u mean by Cushing Syndrome I was also on steroids at some point of my life and I had the moon face.. but guess what I thought it was sexy and everyone was complimenting me. Your cheeks are simple amazing and to me you look more beautiful this way. Theres a Lebanese singer called Nancy Ajram who purposely “blew up” her cheeks; people are obsessed with her look here in the middle east!
My prayers are with you.
Love you.
Sasha
Hi Lisa,
Regardless of the shape or the size of your body you will still be beautiful. Your beautiful spirit shines through. Ofcourse you know that every body eventually disintegrates, our spirit is all that truely counts.
You’re blessed with enormous amout of beauty and it will take alot for it to go away…regardless if your body alters in any way you have the opportunity to empower your spirit and know the only thing that actually matters.
Best Wishes
Cushingoid?! That picture?! Oh dear girl, give me a break! You look GORGEOUS!! If that’s moon face, good gawd, I should send you a picture of myself — with absolutely no excuse! You do not look poofy!!
I love your bit about playing the cancer card. I’m going to have to tell my brother about it. Perhaps he could use that one too. Keep up the positive attitude. So important!
Lisa,
The more you talk about it, the more you will think that you are sick. Its best that you stay conscious that you can’t be the normal Lisa again and make lifestyle changes, get your medication and treatments regularly and get lot of time to rest and think what you would want to do in next 5 years.
A while back I wrote a comment in your previous article that I moved back to India from Canada with chronic renal problem. I run a Software company and I don’t hide from my employees about my situation.
I just work from home as much as as per my timings when my body allows me. This has not stopped from my company growing. But what is dear to me and what I want to do is to make affordable and instant healthcare affordable to everyone and that’s why I started Kosansh – http://www.kosansh.com
Take a look at it. I think we should talk on how you can get involved in kosansh and help many others like you and me. You can drop me an email or leave a message on 604-630-4292.
Roshan
cashin the c-card,good going.I did that too..Tell me more what u did
Take care!
Hey Lisa,
I have been reading your blogs and think you are a very BRAVE woman. I salute your tenacity to deal with this dreadedness with such panache and verve.
All the best to you!!!!
Keep writing!! Keep inspiring.
love n hugs
Shalz
Lisa,
Although english is not my mother tongue, I have to say that reading your Diaries is as delightful as eating a rare and delicious dish, not because of the subjects you’re talking about (“Big C” is never a pleasure to read about, although you manage to make me smile and even laugh), but because of the way you’re writing. I used to consider you as a very good actress, but I’m really starting to enjoy your writing as well as your acting.
“Oy Veh”, you said…Well, maidele, we have a saying that goes like this: “The wise one, even when he remains silent, says more than the fool when the fool speaks” (or something like that, remember that french IS my mother tongue and please forgive my english).
Well you’re definitely wise, miss Lisa.
Big hug from Paris, France, and thank you.
Dear Lisa,
My mom has just been diagnosed with Multiple Myeloma, I have never heard abt this thing b4 in my life but now its a part of my everyday life, She keeps asking me whats wrong with her but I never get courage to tell her abt her condition n illness, I see her in pain everyday, every second, Sometimes it feels so helpless that you feel like…….., It feels so disgusting to see ur loved ones in pain n so much pain n you just cant do anything abt it. I pray for her everyday in Namaaz (just started praying cuz I think when there is nothing we can do, HE is the one who can do everything). I heard abt u yesterday, now I will pray for u too..
Always Take Care
Get Well Soon.
I’ll follow ur blog daily,plz keep on updating.
Dear LISA..
KIROM ACHOO TUMI…hope u still remember a few words of Bangla…lol dont worry…maa durga is kind…justice is delayed ,never denied….ur cancer will go into remission ..mark my words…i know ur mother had an accident all those years ago…u came to india etc…have faith in god …he tests us in mysterious ways…am glad u have publicized yer sickness and raised awareness about it….a journey of a 1000 miles begins with but one step…confucious …
regards vic
Dear Lisa,
Please get well soon, we all love you….
May God Bless You…!!
Hi Lisa,
I’m plesantly surprised with your energy levels. Specially that expended on your blog. Its really nice to know your getting there. I hope to catch up with you sometime.
Your image in my mind has gone through a radical transformation ever since you started blogging. Never knew this side of you at all !!! And you sure have taken the world by storm in more ways than one !!!
Love
Vinay
Warm hugs and blessings. I read your blog everyday, feel connected to your thought process like the hundreds of other readers who meet you here.
How is it on the other side? Do you feel the connect with your readers? If yes, then may be you can feel “the Yellow” spreading your way.
Dear Lisa,
Smile, it may be the ray of sunshine that some one needs in an otherwise stormy day…….!!
And get that Puppy if you want it. I have learnt the hard way that you should not put off things for tomorrow. Your post has inspired me to do a few things for myself immediately. Things I have been putting off because funds were limited, because the money could be put to better use. What’s the point anyway, if don’t live life.
Dear Lisa,
Following are the few lines from Holy Quraan…
” Blessed is He in whose hands is the Kingdom- who is powerful over everything- who has created death and life, so that He might test you as to which among you [proves that he] is good in conduct.”
(Quraan, al-Mulk 67: 1-2)
Tanzeem
Hi! Lisa
I’m reading your diary everyday
and more than ten time for a day
I want to know about your MM
>> Do you know ? I set you blog to my home page
and every time I see you dairy update
I’m feel glad..happy
” might die with a moon face ”
I love it….
sorry about my English (( T_T ))
I just try and and to talk with you
I’m your fan in THAILAND
love love love you “Moonface”
Hi Lisa,
I am so happy for you “verrrry happy ” that you are doin good and near full remission, I won’t ever take a single moment to miss a pray for you’re full remission, I knew that God is just beside you to take care and give you strength upon winning this journey 🙂
Eat Healthy and have enough sleep 🙂
We Love you 🙂
I’m so glad that God is answering my prayers for you, it gives me such a great inspiration 😉
Right from my college days, iv’e been a fan of yours – ’90’s ads for Garden Varelli sarees and then Nusrat Fateh Ali Khan’s Afreen song video – yes the green cat eyes of your are always something which said you are special. And as we all believe in the Almight GOD who loves all has the cure for you Lisa. The Holy Bible says : “Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid”. (St.John:14:27). So we are all praying and you are gona be back with full energy soon. And hey, your baby cheeks (new ones..) are cute !
Dear dear Lisa,
Don’t worry about “moon face”. I don’t take steroid, but I still got moon face. What do you think?
Now you start to listen to your body, trust your body again. It’s never too late. Yes, please tell the world, why models are always asked to be thin. That’s truly a insult to flesh. Anti-life.
“Tap, tap, tap: ‘Hey, I’ve got the Cancer and thanks to MM I have a chance to be healthy again. Now give me your fork’”
Ha, you are being so naughty. But I like that!! A true person like you is just what we need in today’s world.
Love
Sue
wow! I’m impressed… very inspiring blog you’ve got here.
I really like the idea of eastern tradition of Warriorship. You have to learn how to trust your body again, I have to do the same with my mind. And being courageous enough to be vulnerable seems to be the most effective way to get in touch with your inner voice, to switch off all the defence mechanisms (in Freudian meaning) and have a good look at whatever it is that turns your life upside down.
and one more thing… Darling, you’re gorgeous! – with moon face or without.
take care!
P.
PS: I wonder how good is your polish… 😉
There is a cure!:))
Go to http://www.leukemiabmtprogram.com
Read the Survivor Stories. I am one of them.
Hey Lisa,
Love the strength and courage inside you. Take care.
Lav you,
Saj
“Beauty is how you feel inside, and it reflects in your eyes.
It is not something physical.”
– Sophia Loren
Your eyes= wow (divine light)
Big hug
Hey Lisa,
Im from Toronto Too, Live in Pickering.
I actually read your blog everyday & check back on it to see if you’ve written anything because I really do love reading about how your feeling and what you did during the day ect. 🙂
Youre sooo jokess! “Or standing in line at the bank: tap, tap: ‘Hey I’ve got Cancer, give me your sandwich, I’m taking your spot.” hahah
Your a very sweet & inspirational person and im not just saying this because you are an actress, (that’s just you’re profession like any other persons profession) but because I admire the way you are coping with it all, I mean being so relaxed, calm & happy (that’s how I think I would have dealt with it too.) And after all you are a very positive person and it shows from the way you feel and write.
Overall we can say your just down to earth and yourself.
I just wanted to say that Don’t every let anything or anyone bring you down because its not worth it. Sometimes people just cant handle someone else coping and taking things so well, so they just Have To talk a bunch of (excuse my language) Shit.
Other than that I am confident that you will definitely recover with that kind of attitude 🙂
I wanted to drop by and give you flowers +get well soon card but I dont think they will allow us to do that 😦
Please Keep us Posted we are all waiting,wishing & most of all praying for your wellness Lisa.
Take care
Regards
Sumrana
good for you!
nothing can stop you!!
kepp on moving!
Sweetheart love you
and Say it in Chinese is 加油 O(∩_∩)O
i feel like you have decided to wear your cancer like it’s the latest couture.
if there is any truth to that statement, it’s probably not an unusual for a woman who has spent most of her life in the public eye.
i love your e.e. cummings quote on your website, but what does that really mean to you?
i’m only asking because i don’t understand;
how has a woman, who is embraced by our world for her stunning beauty and who has used that beauty for a lively-hood, had to face fighting the world to be herself?
i’d like to put you in-touch with a doctor, fritz smith.
he will not say he’s going to heal you, but he could help you through this transition, however it may play out.
he is the founder of zero balancing… zbfritz@aol.com.
remember, you are not your cancer or your beauty…
Dear Lisa,
Please read a book titiled ” Power of NOW”. It is very powerful book. It will help you cope with the problem better.
ashok
Hi Lisa,
Have you read Lance Armstrong’s book ‘Its not about my bike, my journey back to the life’?
Do read it sometime..highly inspiring..
aya, how to do, I do not see you one day. the feeling lackadaisical. Originally came to comfort you. The results of the opposite. You are strong and courageous than anyone else. Feel more and more of you is a small wizard has. Cute little wizard. . I love, I am too fond of. Every day to see everything about you every day to look. . . I found that I seem to poisoning, under you poison, or why am I so infatuated with you . . I can only say I’m so lucky, so happy. I want to thank all in all it was, let i know a lovely, brave, beautiful, confident, shy Lisa Ray, you are in my mind is the most beautiful, every smile, make people fascinated. Because of you, the world is so beautiful . . . . oh my god. The original star-chasing is really a very crazy thing. And I did. Will always support you, love you! I hope you early recovery. and ,To see you every day.
Best Wishes to you!
每天给你一个祝福,祝你快快好起来,我还等着你给我签名呐。。。哈哈,最后这句话希望你也要看。。。。。。
Dear Lisa,
Please if u ever get a chance then please read the following books… Power of sub conscious mind….by Joseph Murphy… and Creative visualisation,, by shakti Gwain..
Maybe u have already read these books,as ur very spiritual..
This books have helped me in my everyday life, and i wish it works for u too..specially Power of sub conscious mind.
I would like to see u fit and fresh..for the next 50 yrs.. ; )
cheers
ash
sorry to hear that you had to face all , as you might have felt it sometimes that life isn’t fair all the time.All i can tell you that you should give the book by lance armstrong “I’s not about the bike ” a try (may be you have alredy read it. one more suggestion if you like to read books with deeper meaning is “SIDDHARTHA” by herman hesse its an absolute awesome book.
wow
U have i guess the entire the world on ur side. Even MM must be getting scared. I guess if u keep on receiving comments in the same momentum than we can put it in Guniease book of world record ;). And who knows u might get cured automatically LOL
Surprisingly we all can connect to pain in our own way. No one can really understand what’s going on deep inside u. So many thoughts u r still scared to acknowledge forget blogging it down but strangely I know they are. Lisa life has never been simple for anyone.
If we cud ask a question what life wants from me? and if there is an answer to it than this is what life wud have said – “I dont want u to live long and die old on the contrary i want u to enjoy and create lovely momments……momments that can take ur breath away.
Baby live ur life do all that u want to do. Make a priority list of all the things u want to do b4 u go and do it. I can already see u smiling while reading this. It’s not how long u lived but how well u lived what matters.
I wish u all good things in Life
With all the love ur heart can hold
Jayati (Hyderabad, India)
LOL you can let everyone to feel sorry for you,ofcourse you can do that.It’s coz you get cancer so why not?But i don’t think you will feel happy after do that.You need to do is do something you want to do,but never done it.Life is so short,now i compelety understand that.I trust my body,but not everything we can expect.Soooooo don’t be sad,okay?
Please do not grab me, tomorrow, I would like the first reply. Today, a step slow, went to 50,
Dear GOD,
Please give my dearest friend the strength and courage to fight in this battle.
Dear Lisa,
I was shocked reading this blog of yours. Cant believe it. Will pray for u. Love u and please take good care of yourself. GOD BLESS.
Lisa,
Another Yellow Rose for you, it’ll suit ur yellow walls…… ; )
Good that u r beginning to trust ur body again this time it won’t betray ur trust…….
Be courageous till then U’ll come out as a winner….
God Bless!!!
Big Hugs to you
xoxo
Nice one !
Hello Lisa,
Hang on!!!
Life goes on
Life is on (for me),
It is still not gone (for me).
The innocent paper boats
Still decorate the monsoon puddles.
The ragged football,
Brings cheer to the battered street urchins.
Life is on,
It is still not gone.
It flutters open
With the nostalgic umbrella, the dear granny walks with.
You can read it still
At the back of an auto rickshaw, a truck
And outside a church.
Life is on,
It is still not gone.
One can drink it through a cup
At a rickety tea stall.
He performs for free, starry-eyed
At nariman point.
Life is on,
It is still not gone.
Come twilight, the radio fill my ears and
Uplifts my soul
The brown journal at my desk
Soaks it everyday.
Life was always on,
I sang a different song.
Love,
Paris McGrath
Dear Lisa,
Feeling down…………?????????!!!!!!!!!! Don’t be plz!! Well, I’m sure I would have done the same if it was me at your place…but remember the best medicine to cure any ailment is self confidence…!!
You are an arien and your date of birth naturally warrants you to think emotionally and make you feeling alone..!! But for this you have all your known thousands and unknown millions of people’s support emotinally!!
Look a kind of unheavel and it indicates you could not come to terms or able to digest this nightmare!!
Be brave and only braveness could play a major role besides medicine to cure the ailment…!! Feel as normal and keep doing meditation…!!
You are close to hear the word ‘FULL REMISSION’ soon..!! Our wishes and prayers won’t go in vain…!!
Have a great week ahead!!
Warm regards
Muted Mic
If one day you really really think “there’s no hope at all” then I INSIST – I DO INSIST ON YOU!!! Please come to see this young Chinese doctor who saved my friend’s dad from cancer. Please NEVER STOP FIGHTING!!!, I’m into something similar, I won’t stop fighting, never…
Hey Lisa!
The best wishes from the far north of Germany! Get well soon! You will make it. Sorry I want more to say but my english isn’t good enough 😉 I will wok on it 🙂
Greets
Katha
Goo morning from France Lisa
Another day on your blog, Lisa,and i know each moment is so precious, but i know that you have an impenetrable fortress around you, LOVE! Love of your family, love of your friends, love of your fans!
Love your yellow bedroom wall, the colour of the sun lol!
Take care Lisa
Sylvie
Lisa, I know with faith you will overcome this too. Never Give Up. With all of us praying and your spirit U will win. All the best. Take Care.
Hola Corazon (spanish)
-Hello sweety:
Just wanted to say, no matter what you say about your “moon face” your still beautiful and you have a beautiful smile. It’s ok to have ups and downs but remember to “becareful what you think because we are like magnets we attract what we think, we attract our most dominant thoughts and your thoughts are your feelings”-book the secret
By the way…girl, I am leaning a lot of medical terms here. Why they make them all so complicated? LOL!!!
Well, remember your not alone, we’re here with you all the way no matter if its 2am in California!!! 🙂
Lot’s of love,
Jackie
Hi Lisa,
So sorry to hear about you. but still there is some hope to revive. We have an ayurveda doctor practising specially on cancer patients and curing them from last 30 years. If you mail me your reports i will speak to him. I believe he will definitely cure you.
I hope u believe on me and send me the reports asap.
Take Care
Amit
lol!! Those are great ones to use. Mind if I use tem as well……lmao!!
Hey Lisa, u’re a very spirited girl!! Love your sense of humor!!
You mentioned ayurveda and urine therapy . . . i’ve heard that urine therapy works for cancer. if it’s worked for you, why not promote it?
u’re a beautiful person
“I’ve decided now I want people to feel sorry for me. ” u shud, coz it only means one thing, they do care. hello moonface! a friend was worried as well nt d thot of dyng but dying wiv a moonface, i said thers jst one solution to that. in her coffin, il ask her mum to show her foot instead instead of her moonface. dang!!!! now can u hv a shot of yer feet for us next time pls? lol! words arent just enaf, n so do actions. whats important is u hav faith , in urself & up there. its between u & him. n yer fmily, friends n fans, them are his ways to embrace u. do know, He gave u that trial bec He knows u can handle it- same with evrybdy… nw if u want my puppy coz uv got cancer, hell no! iv got one leg, beat that!!!! wiv all my love
lisa, can u please go infront of a mirror. point ur nose then give it a big push!!! now thats hell worst than havin a moonface!!! (‘o’,) with all my luv.
calm down dear, you sound like youre freaking out. i know how it feels.. my mom had cancer too.. u over used ‘….Journey back to trust.’ line too many times.. now they would have to tie up that phrase to your name.. personally why yellow?? i dunno.. guess it wouldn’t look good on that wall. but anyways. dont worry. they way it seems , you are gonna be just ok.. so calm down and trust that tis gonna be fine.. ask your doc wether you can go out and have drinks with you friends and go for it . have fun..
LOL. Lisa you are too funny playing the “C” card. I laughed because I TOO play the card, but mine is the lupus card. I don’t play it all the time but I figure, “well, if I’m going to have to deal with this, then I might as well use it to my advantage at times.”
But on a serious note, I know how you feel. having watched my Mom die of “C” when I was 17 (she was only 46), my Aunt die of it when I was 25 (she was only 53), my Dad die of it when I was ony 12, I have come to see a patternm and that pattern is you go through these stages of shock at learning of it, denial, and then acceptance and the “how can I use this to work for me” stage. I don’t say this to be morbid because I am CERTAIN you will be a survivor. I say it to remind you that you are human and you are not alone in what you’re going through. I’m sure the mental battle is as equally stressful as the physical battle. Therefore, I hope writing yourblogs and reading feedback from us helps you. It has helped me.
Lastly, when I first got lupus (in 2001), my doctor was telling me I could no longer go out into the sun ( love water activities), I couldn’t do anything physically stressful (as I play tennis & hike), I had to change my lifestyle completely. For a while, I did. Until I saw that movie “Man in the Iron Mask” where he stated “I wear the mask, it does not wear me.” I live my life that way, now. I have the lupus, it does not have me……and cancer does not have you.
As always, my prayers are directed towards you at all times.
Hi LR
I have read your blogs. You are a good blogger. Looks like you were blogging for quite sometime. If so, pl give us the link. Why don’t you change the topic. Otherwise, all the replies to your blogs will be centered around diseases only.
Leave your health problem to your doctors who are more experienced to tackle it and GOD is always there on your side.
Pl write on anything else viz your taste, career, modelling, love, hatred, yoga you have learnt, your experience in himalayas, etc.
Cheers
I feel the dark humor seeping through. I know it’s hard – emotional vicissitudes come concomitant with rough patches. Besides which, xenophobia in the face of a phantom enemy causes too much discomfiture and quandary alone. I’m amazed at your powers of introspection, your astute self-awareness and eloquence, your ability to paint the extrinsic world “yellow” with the mind’s eye and render its spirit tangible in the walls and fabric around us: in the diaries, the photos, your bedroom wall…
Hang in there, in the busy week ahead, and bring all your “swag” to upcoming events, head held high, MM bracelet blinging, and cancer excuses ablaze. We support you through the highs and lows.
A brief aside: As a medical student, I must say, you’re well versed in the “lingo.” Regarding the “Cushingoid moon facies,” trust me when I say you’re FAR-FROM-moon faced! On top of your gorgeous physique and beautiful face, you’ve got depth, personality, and spunk – a rare combination, indeed! A jewel in the rough 🙂
Hi Lisa,
I have read somewhere that you read each and every comment on your blogs, well I do hope that you read this.
I would just like to say that you are simply INSPIRATIONAL. In times like these when most of us are worried and complaining about jobs, career etc. thanks to the meltdown (Yeah I am one of them), its refreshing to see someone like you
I have not known/met a celebrity or a non celebrity who has taken on cancer in such a manner. Keep us posted, I hope you get well, I hope you keep smiling but more importantly I HOPE THAT YOU KEEP LIVING THE WAY YOU DO.
May Allah give you MORE strength to guide to through this phase of your life.
Regards,
Kashif
P.S:You still look amazing even with all chubbiness. ;))
I’m so glad to read about your near full remission! That is so great! You are amazing. And you’re right, I would feel the same in your position and would often like to play the cancer card…!
I hope I’ll get the chance to meet you once in Paris! Great restaurants here…! But you already know that, you’ve been here.
Feel better and take care of yourself. There are lots of people who love you and think about you. And I’m not just talking about us readers, but about your family and friends. You seem to have a close knit around you and that is wonderful. It is the key to healing, huge quantities of love!
Pascaline
Lisa
You are amazing! Don’t give up! I love you.
love you
T…(ur fan from Thailand)
“To be nobody but yourself in a world that’s doing its best to make you somebody else, is to fight the hardest battle you are never going to fight. Never stop fighting” That is the first note on your website and I shouldn’t add anything to that. It’s clear enough.
It will be difficult for sure but you will live greater moments too cause you know the beauty of life. You can find it in a smile in the street, in the stars in the sky, some rest in the treatment, the moon giving light to the night, steroids sensations, crazy food at crazy times, a meal with friends….
Within a moment of tiredness, walking with a friend or someone you don’t know and speaking small talks, politic speeches or deeply feelings sounds nice. There’s always someone hearing you and making the difference. And there’s always someone who wants to spare moments, crazy experiences, walks, holidays or whatever with you, even when you’re not sure about it. Don’t let them down !!! Some may be shy, some may be impressed but they like you the same. Sorry if what I say is not that clear, as you can imagine I’m not an English native speaker….
You can find the moment of perfection in you everydays’ life. Whatever you’re doing, it’s your choice and your perfection. The part of the film/journalist/fans’ industry which can’t see it, doesn’t worth it. The part which cares of your work does. Focuse on that ones and on you. You’re someone special and with your roles, speeches and acts, you give a lot and deserve a lot. And if you want to celebrate, I keep a good bottle for you and wonderful cheeses we’ve got here ! 😉
Well I’m no good at writing. So let’s resume, every day is great and you’re great. Cheers.
Ar mate Macgyver!! Old school! Rock on!!!! =D
EVERYTHING IS TEMPORARY!
And, in the knowing of this, you will embrace ironically, the permanancy of your utterly beautiful soul – the essential everything, if you will –
Lisa, the consciousness of your evolution is being raised owing to this revolution in “your world.” How wonderfully wonder-filled are these a-ha experiences!
Please NEVER EVER DOUBT HOW ABSOLUTELY STUNNING YOU ARE.
Thank you so much for revealing your true beauty to all of us who do and have come to care so much about you.
And, please know (that while I don’t like to speak for others), there isn’t a person on this planet that has any sense of you, who wouldn’t offer, if not exclaim, that YOU ARE ONLY BECOMING MORE UTTERLY BEAUTIFUL.
You are becoming more utterly beautiful, Lisa Ray.
Peace –
your fingers write from the heart, and it reaches the readers heart. And you write very well, indeed. I fell in love with you the first time I saw you, Recently i was in doctor’s office and you were on the cover of a woman’s magazine, i could not take my eyes away all the time, i was there. i wont write anything else except to say if you need bone marrow, i will be most willing to give mine. The truth of all mankind is that no one escapes this world alive, this world is an illusion and any grief or illness, makes our soul pure as the new born. I think
life is love, if you are loved and you love someone, it is bliss.
I love you everything about you, you are an angel with a
pristine soul, which is illuminated with ‘noor’ as we call it.
thanks for everything,
mohammad
Dear Miss.Lisa,
I am happy to know that chemotherapy is kindof working well with you. I know the determination you have and the pain you might be going through. Its become my daily routine to wait and eagerly read through your blog. You have the spirit. I just wanted to tell you about 24.24.24. Its been some years now but everytime I looked at my watch without thinking about it too much, the time would show on as 1:11, 4:44, 11:11, 3:03 and so on. I also felt that this was like a message and since it has been happening for years now. I have to find out what that means but there is some connection somewhere. I am meant for a purpose, I have similar feelings and am doing my mortal trials but I don’t know properly yet, what the Divine has in store for me. I’ll try and do as best as I can, but I know there is something to do with it, its not like the movie ’23’ done so well by Jim Carey, it’s definitely not. I also meditate and am into seek what the purpose of my life is. I am impressed its working well but I still have to go a long way, I hope. I intend to keep talking to you all along that way if you are connected sincerely. I know there are actors out there who are most bothered about either looks, status or rave about the money they have. There are very few people who are sensible enough and are doing the right things and have the right kind of spirit. Somehow when I hear you speak, I know you are a respectable contender of my time and so I see what you say each time. I want to let you know that being the person you are matters most to Earth, these days coz there are not many… I think. If I am not right, then that means I haven’t seen the world enough. You are definitely special anyways and I am sure about that. I hope you remember each time when I write to you, its difficult but I secretly hope so. Somehow, I know its not possible and it is not very right to hope like that at this moment but you are a start not only coz you are beautiful and coz u are an actress but that you have so many qualities I admire…..
I am 29 years old and starting my life now. All these years I kindof didn’t think of myself to the least. I lived mostly for responsibilities. Today I am on a better track and seeking as I continue to make life happier, mine and that of as many as I can. I am greedy coz I want that many to be as as many and am also working on the same-mentally, physically and spiritually. I have done my part of the work in smaller ways all through my life and now that I am a bit free, starting to do in a much better way. I learnt it from my Mother. My mortal mother is not there physically with me, she had bone cancer too but then I was not well equippped neither was the society to save her. I was thirteen… Now I derive the same inspiration and more from Her Holiness Mataji Shri Nirmala Devi and my Mother has given me a unique strength. I think I need the company of likes like you to be successful than success. See, I am greedy and thats why I want you to get well and guess what soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
You’ll see me very often on the comments zone and I hope youll read me each time. How I wish I had your mail and I could converse more so in a special way. Anyways I am not very greedy on that if it isn’t the best of the ideas. I am really happy to have reached you through this blog though. It’s just my concern that it is growing by the days and that I might not reach you in hundreds of these comments. I don’t expect to trouble you and ask you to put so much of your precious energy into reading all these comments but somehow, miss you and secretly want to be connected all the time, thats all and nothing more, wishing you to get well and all the best things in life………
– Deeps.
Yellow :)…..what IS yellow? :)….I like Yellow and white walls though ..so pretty and cheerful!
All the best for your movie and Chemo!
I think your NADA dress should call MM outpatient uniform, it will be very cute has designer logo MM on it… That’ll be special?
Drove around Dloor area yesterday notice TIFF culture, wonder why did I see that while I was a student in town years ago? Was me or TIFF culture? I have to see you play the cancer card, wonder people will believe you when most people very naive about it, think cancer patient should have certain looks, but most likely is not the beautiful stunning young health Lisa look… That’s awearness and educational. You are doing your “job” effectively.
he he!! i just want to tell you…eat a lot..and have loads of fun..
nobody knows when their journey of life is gonna end..
that way everybody is same..
a cancer patient = a normal human being….
so whats a big deal????
what say???
Lisa,
Neil stole the words right off my tongue, just as the message was on my figure tips ready to transfer it to the key board. I don’t know how he did it, just I don’t know.
Beautiful Lisa I would share my sandwich and you can have my spot in line any time you want, with or without cancer.
Be Well,
With Metta
Hi,
Am Dr. Balaji, Research Fellow, Tata Memorial Centre, Mumbai. I work with the palliative care unit. As you might be aware, The Wold Hospice day is on the 10th of October. We are arranging a program at the TMC Mumbai and we are inviting cancer survivors – many children – most of them poor, for the event. If you are around, we would love to have you with us. It would sure add a sparkle of joy in the lives of many cancer survivors and is definitely a very enriching experience.
Please do not hesitate to email / call us.
drbajji@gmail.com
+919920119161
+919820347802
022-24177000 extn 4536 – palliative care services.
Lisa,
You always look georg . . . and im loving the ‘moon face’ . . . .bring on the lusciousness .. …. !!
You are right, too much looking on the outside and not enough on the inside in not good for the soul …. Knocking us off balance! Keep feeding your soul ….
Soundz like you have a couple of busy days ahead, enjoy…. !!
Wish I was there in Toronto for the premiere – look forward to watching ‘CWS’ some point in the future .
Hang free . .
Sara 🙂
Hey girl, ive been followin ur blog very closely and i ve always seen HOPE and Energy to FIGHT for urself, for ur life, for ur existance and for ur well being but today i kinda missed that ENERGY in ur blog. You seem a lil disappointed, i know it happens esp in the phase you are goin thru. As ive told earlier im a doctor jus after hearin about ur MM case ive strated spendin ma extra time in Chemo Ward besides ma very tough schedule. This is jus for you Girl. n comin back to ur Energy cheer up girl you have to do a block buster masala hindi movie, you have to rule the hearts of alot many people and more over you have to work for many people suffrin from MM. You are there HOPE, there ENERGY dont let them down. Be strong and Be Happy cuz You are the HOPE.
Love and Prayers
Hina
Lisa
I know you strong and you’ll confronte people with courage
Good luck for your festival! I’ll will have a thought for you!
Kisses from France
Sylvie
Moon Face?
Some say that moon seems to be a woman’ face smiling.
let’s bring positive aspects, always!! 🙂
love.
Sabrina
You are a fighter, Jaja, and always will be.
We are so sure you will beat this, and the initial remission is excellent news.
God bless, and if there is anything you need, we will always be there.
Much love
J
live like a winner
give life all you’ve got
make your best shot
live like a winner
rock what you’ve got
just don’t get caught
live like a winner
try your best
put your mind to the test
live like a winner
and you will do great
Love and Prayers
Hina
BTW like the title “Each day is a gift!” IT IS but we don’t feel that way until we almost loss it or a possibility of almost loss it… thanks for remaining me of that… 🙂
A lire et à voir …..:
Le voyage de Téo
Les survivants
et à commenter
Hi Lisa,
Read your blog… and hey it doesnt matter what you write or how you behave infront of everyone… There is only one person who understands what you are going through and that is God !
He sees each tear that falls … and you know what ? He hears you when you call . The key is Do you listen ?
I know its hard to discern when you get around 600 + comments a day and being a celeb having to handle the pressure with the press, and all… (noot that I knw wht its like…but im sure its far from easy ! )
I know Jesus Christ can heal you … All you need to do is believe and it is yours.
You might think “oh ok another well wisher comment”…
Dont brush this off…. Honestly all I know abt you is that you used to come on star movies for movie previews long ago and once when I was in Dubai and I heard on the radio they announced that you were going to be there in Dehra City Center for some promo regarding Rado .
But there is one thing that I do know… God knows you in and out. You wrote about how no one can even cpmprhend whats going on actually inside of you with every second that passes by … every cell in your marrow….
God does ! He sees every cell ! He permits the movement of everything in your body Lisa.
There is a verse in the Bible that says the very hairs of your head are numbered . Every time you comb your hair , its God who permitted every hair to fall. Without His will nothing can happen.
Again Lisa you dont have to go around the world, climb a hundred mountains , say a zillion chants , or even go to extreme measures of doing crazy rituals or meet a bunch of other human beings like yourself thinking that they can give you answers or cures.
All it takes Lisa…All it takes is for you , in your room to just ask God to reveal Himself to you…
All it takes Lisa is for you to believe… for you to be willing.
Remember God knows all 🙂 Its not about challenging God and saying “hey if you are real prove it ! ” He is God whether you and I believe it or not.
Here is the truth … Jesus Christ paid the price for our sins Lisa on the cross years ago …
Every lie , every lustful thought or act , every arrogant word , pride , anger , every muderous thought , every time we dishonored our parents , … every immoral act ,….
God paid the price for it all !!! He took our shame on the cross !
Whether you love Him or not Lisa , Jesus Christ already paid the price for you on the cross. His blood was shed so that you and I might be saved.
Just call on His name… and ask Him to show you the way …
Sometimes we reach a stage where we dont even know what to feel anymore !! Rely on Him and watch as He makes the crooked ways straight …
Try Jesus Lisa !! He is the only way , the truth and the life.
And hey if you can try and get this book by Kathryn Khulman “God can Do it Again”
Here is a nice site
http://shyjumathew.com
There is a meeting coming in Kuala Lampur. Attend if you feel like. God Bless
If you like blogs here are two..
http://shyjumathew.com/blog/
http://sparksablaze.blogspot.com
Good morning Lisa.
Here In Brazil Sao 07:30 Am. I just arrived at work and came straight to the computer connect me to see your site.
She was eager to hear news from you
Believe me, after all I am not just said, you’re much more beautiful.
You’re a special person, just see their courage in the way it has faced his battle with MM. Have ups and downs are normal, after all you are human.
But, never, never give up the more difficult it is!
Here in Brazil, has a song that talk about the beauty of living, as well (if you could send the CD)
The song is called WHAT, WHAT, consisting of one of the great musical names here, Gonzaguinha.
I’m
The purity
Response of children
It’s life, is beautiful
And it’s beautiful …
Live!
And do not be ashamed
Be happy
Sing and sing and sing
The beauty of being
A lifelong learner …
Oh my God!
I know, I know
That life should be
Much better and will
But this does not prevent
I repeat
It’s beautiful, is beautiful
And it’s beautiful …
And life!
And what is life?
Tell us, my brother
She is the beat
A heart
She is a sweet illusion
Hei! Ho! …
And life
She is wonderful
Or is it suffering?
It is joy
Or regret?
What is it? What is it?
My brother …
Some talk
The life of the people
It is nothing in the world
It’s a drop, is a time
That not give a second …
Some talk
What is a divine
Profound mystery
It is the breath of the creator
An attitude full of love …
You say it’s luxury and
He says that life is to live
She says that it is better to die
For beloved is
And the verb is suffering …
I just know that I trust the girl
And the girl I put the power of faith
Are we doing life
How to give, or can, or want to …
When desired
However much is wrong
Nobody wants death
Only health and luck …
And the question wheel
And the head shake
I get the purity
Response of children
It’s life, is beautiful
And it’s beautiful …
If you want to listen, follow the link: http://www.gonzaguinha.com.br/videos/videos/02.wmv
Hi Lisa,
Just want to let you that today had been a ‘lousy’ day at work and was really feeling ‘crappy’ until I remember that nothing what I am going through compares with what you are going through and your blogs, keep me smiling every time I read and re-read it again.
You as I said earlier on, is an inspirational to all us.
I always said, Health is Wealth – to me I wish nothing better than GOOD & FULL HEALTH RESTORATION to you – in full remission you are going to have …. btw, your so-called ”
Cushingoid appearance (weight gain with a ‘moon face’)” – just want to say – you look gorgeous with that lovely smile…I tried to send you a Yellow smiley face…but I just could not 😀
Have a good day ahead….
MF
❤ Moonface
Lisa
Excuse the errors in the text, but my language is Portuguese, I use to write the translator google.
As in many parts of the world, here in Brazil I and your thousands of fans, we want and twist for your healing. We are praying for you!
Who knows when you get good and you will be! Not come here in Brazil,’d be flattered and happy to receive it.
God be today and always with you and eat your family, bless you!
Even with a moonface (which I totally cannot see!) you’re still gorgeous Lisa! Strut that red carpet! Woooooot!
..”I want to know what sustains you, from the inside, when all else falls away.
I want to know if you can be alone with yourself and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments”..
Oriah Mountain Dreamer
Dear Lisa,
It is amazing how you admire somebody, and never have the time and means to convey it to that person. I have admired you for around 10 years now, ever since your modelling days. You have amazing presence on the screen. And it takes this shock of your disclosure to convey our admiration for you.
I am sure that you know that you have thousands of fans; but I bet that you can never fully know that there are thousands of unknown admirers that you cant even imagine.
God Bless You.
“I have had Psoriasis for almost 20 years….Chronic, Extensive Psoriasis. And that seriously affects quality of life.
I have tuberculosis for past 6 months – tuberculosis of Sternum.
But I don’t cry like you.
I must say that you are making a big deal of your cancer.
You may say that it is cancer. But is that such a big deal?
After all you will certainly live for atleast 5 years.
You could possibly live for 10 years.
And with luck you could live for 25 years.
I don’t why you are complaining now, when death is atleast 5-10 years away.
Get a life, Move On.
Fall in Love, Get Married!!!”
You know I read that comment and felt it was one of those in your face kind, but seriously i agree with the last paragraph, start living life then think about your illness all the time, remember it is not life which is made up of moments but moments which last a lifetime
Take Care and love you always
Dear Lisa,
i dont know you, but loved your spirit.
Felt like praying for you, prayed and will pray whenever come across any reminder.
God bless you, and may He keep your mind, body and soul in His Divine healing, loving and blessed light forever.
………padmakar
hey lisa,
glad to hear again from you..i’ve been checking your blog everyday.
Don’t worry about your moon face.. YOU’RE 200% GORGEOUS…
TRUST ME;)
I’m praying for you.. Sending you lots of love , hugs and kisses from JAPAN…
xoxo
ayvee
Hi Lisa,
Lost for words.
Yes you can make me feel sorry for you.
I love your moon face too.
You always cracks me up.
Thank you..
Our human existence is filled shit a wide variety of
unpredictable occurrences.
Everybody learns by trial and error.
Lisa, Do it your own way and hang in there.
Appearances can be deceiving.
Outer beauty isn’t as important as inner beauty.
And iatrogenic Cushing’s syndrome caused by treatment
with corticosteroids. Most patients are effectively treated by
carefully tapering off. I hope you’ll get well soon.
Take care..
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Dear Lisa,
The first time I saw you was when I was staying in Taj Banjara at Hydrabad, this was just after your movie was released and I was a kid, maybe 10 years old or so.
Since the film city is situated in Hyderabad I used to see a lot of actors and staying there for a long time I thought this time I would probably get someone’s autograph. So when I saw you I got all excited and had to get your autograph.
You were wearing a black tee-shirt and black jeans and looked real pretty, obviously feeling conscious I decided I better change before I meet you [I had come down for breakfast OBVIOUSLY not dressed in my best].
Anyway, by the time I came back down you had already gone. 🙂
And I still haven’t ever got one autograph from anyone lol.
I wish you all the very best in what you are doing.
You have in the past and will keep touching millions of hearts all over the world.
Please take care.
Love,
Shivani Saxena
Hey Lisa,
I totally understand about being more concerned about the “Moon Face” than dying! 6 years I was diagnosed with Chrons but before that I was in and out of emergency with constant on and off doses of steroids! All I cared about much weight I’d gained and how I looked!
After a bowel resection and the surgeon telling me I was lucky to be alive (I was a real mess in there!), I’m in remission!
From your blog it sounds like you have the right attitude and the drive to get to remission (my prayers are with you), just remember when you’re feeling down and out….LIVE IN THE MOMENT. Just look at the moment you’re in and feel the way you’re feeling because in the next moment, it’s in the past and who knows what the future will hold, so live in the present – it truly is a gift!
Hi Lisa,
There is a IBM project called “World Community Grid” http://www.worldcommunitygrid.org/ that is helping research different diseases including a research called “Help Conquer Cancer” from Toronto university – http://www.cs.toronto.edu/~juris/WCG/wcg-hcc.html
“Our goal is to improve the results of protein X-Ray crystallography. Improving the protein crystallography pipeline will enable researchers to determine the structure of many cancer-related proteins faster.”
Basically you donate the time that your computer is turned on, but is idle, to creating a large system with massive computational power to help in the research.
I work for IBM and I can say that the results from this project are great,the reducing time from each research is considerable a result is available in 3 months where in the past took 1 year. The software is totally safe and doesn’t affect the computer performance.
God bless
Barbara.
Lisoooo!
you are amazing
best wishes from India!!
Hi Lisa,
saw your interview on tv this am, and right away went to your blog to see what you are going through….cause 3 yrs ago my husband at 42 went through the same thing you are. Long story of the short he had 2 stem cell transplants (the second one to clean up any left overs) and is now in remission. But looking back there is alot of hills to climb and sleepless nights and the list goes on, but very thankful of the outcome at this time, and just cherish everyday we have together. One day at a time..God Bless!
Lisa why don’t you create a section of Yellow Library where everyone can write only what makes him smile and think positive?
You know, when I am sad or loneliness it makes me soo good to think positive.
Think about a child’ smile, the sea, a juicy apple, a friend’ hug, the silent under the water while I’m swimming, the rhythmical raindrops over the roof….
It could be so inspirable for all of us and helpfull in everyone sad moments!
Sabrina
Hullo dear flower of light,
A question for you: Weren’t you pampered as a beautiful girl, as a loved model, and a successful actress? Weren’t guys throwing themselves off cliffs to build you bridges as you walked by? If they ever did, then did you mind it back then? All the overt/covert displays of love and affection?
Well, if you did mind it then, and if you denied it then, then yup, you can take my fork, stand in front of the line, take my sandwich, my biscuit, my bed, my keyboard and my cat’s pet food too. (No, I don’t have a cat and never did.) But if you didn’t mind it all back then, and you mind it now, then all I say is that you need to stand in line, luv. Yes, I’m being a miserable lout, and a heartless bastard, but why should you be treated any different? Like you’ve said, you feel good, you’re looking beautiful as ever (Chaand saa mukhdaa and all that), you’re back to writing (For the writing, yes, you can take my place in line – that much I can give you), but for the rest of it, nah. Cribbing is going to make you waste precious time. All of us have very little. I mean, everyday there’s people dying of swine-flu, accidents, food-poisoning, malnutrition and falling flower pots (okay, maybe not everyday because of the flower-pots). They don’t even know when they’ll be going, or why. So, why should anyone be treated differently? You’ve eliminated at least one reason that *could possibly* kill you. I think that’s a big relief too, since you can fight it for as long as you want, as long as you’re brave, and for as long as you’ve got all these people sending you their love and prayers. Not many people know what they’re living for. You do. That’s got to count for something, right?
So, did you get worked up? =) I hope that you did. Tell me that I didn’t risk Carpal Tunnel and RSI to type this out, if all it made you say was a “meh”.
On a serious note, I’m glad that you’ve won the first round. There’ll be more bouts to go, so keep on your toes. I can see you flitting across the ring in red. Damn. Red looks good on you. 🙂
Bless you.
Hi lisa !!!
It feels like you are a part of my life now. everyday as soon as i wake up I go to your blogpage to see how is our brave warrior doing on the front.
I feel so attached and so mush love for you that I can’t describe. it feels like some one I know very closely, some one of my family is in pain.
With this reply I send you my love and warmth and I pray to god to enrich your soul with peace and love.
lisa, its not you but your body that needs healing and I promise you that you are going to heal very soon so stop taking privilages on the name of membership club because that is for those who real need that and believe me you don’t belong to that privilage group as of yet and will never belong to that privilage group ever.
Luv u
KEEP WRITING !!!!
Lisa, you are inspiring.
CULTURAL DIFFERENCES
Dig up your Dead and dance with them —
they do in Madagascar — island of the Ancestors,
In musical celebration.
Here, it’s one ambivalent embrace after another —
shadowy hopes and fears partnered,
following a back beat of regret.
Dance as if you are damned.
Dance as if you are redeemed.
Stalk a rhythm. Take it by the throat
and shake it — until it follows your lead.
Go ahead and dance with death…
then leave it like a lover.
Hello Lisa
show them your Myeloma Bracelet!!
Show them How a really fighter you are!!
show them How Amazing you are!
No matter what size you are!!
you’re intelligent&talented,witty&Charming,gorgeous&stunning!
Love your Blog ,Love it,Love It. Love you!
and below is some of my suggestion for you…………………….
maybe you should consult your Dr. for twitch of your feet, as MM may cause hypercalcemia sometimes even cause bone fracture as the osteodystrophy to press the nerve.
and the Cushingoid moom face will fade away as you stop taking the steroid. but before that maybe you should having the pepperettes…less….coz too much sodium would enhance those side-effect of steroid.
Always back you up!
(yet, I’m too lazy&too far from the run…..so skip on the 5Km 😛 )
Love from Taiwan
Irene
I’m with you ….watching you. everyday.
My dear Lisa
By reading your blog, I began to weep at the first.
But now, the weeping turned into a smile, and then into tears of joy.
Sometimes your words will make me laugh like “moon face”
And most of the time your words always made me thinking and I like this words
‘I know I’m not the body. I know I’m not The Cancer.’
Every great achievement has come from the independent work of your independent mind.. You can shout with confidence.
Let’s ring the bell of hope with silent prayers.
Let’s keep failure away and always meet with success.
Things will happen in our life that we can’t stop. but that’s no reason to shut out the world.
Yes go celebrate your lusciousness.
Can’t wait to watch you ring the bell to open up the Toronto Stock Exchange on Sep 16 Fusion of the Arts and Finance worlds.
LOVE
Jeni
PS:I wonder that how many hours do you sleep a night?
“Set Me as a seal upon thine heart, as a seal upon thine arm:
for love is strong as death; jealousy is cruel as the grave:
the coals thereof are coals of fire, which hath a most vehement flame.
Many waters cannot quench love, neither can the floods drown it: if a man would give all the substance of his house for love, it would utterly be condemned.”
Song of Solomon 8:6-7
God confesses His love for you.
You’re beautiful in His sight & ours….moon face or not. 😛
Hi Lisa I don’t want to start telling you how beautiful you are, even though you are the most beautiful person I’ve ever seen in my life. I am sure you’ve heard enough of that already in your life. No matter what, I wish you could stay healthy and happy all the time. I am not religious but I went to a temple over the weekend to pray for you. I told the Gods that I love them cuz they can make you feel better. 🙂 I know I sound quite naive but I really don’t know what else I can do for you. I wish I had super natural powers that can cure people in an instant and i am willing to exercise that power even if it means I will shorten my life to do it. I’d be willing..
Lisa Lisa Lisa, stay strong, I know you will create a miracle and completely recover or be syntomps free SOOON and during the process I wish you could feel as least pain as possible. I know it’s very hard for you still because this memebership is very new, but I know you’ll pull through. There are thousands of people in the world that pray for your speedy recovery everyday. I think of you every morning I wake up and you are in my thoughts everyday. May all the gods bless you.
Lastly I must say you are an amazing writer!! If one day you don’t want to act anymore, you can become a successful journalist.
Back to work, I will write you again tomorrow even though its one-way communication 🙂
Take Care
Hang in Lisa.
Have no fear, you will stunning come Wednesday. Toronto will reverberate with SHUCKALUCKABABY.
Hello beautiful woman,
thank you for sharing.
Never forget you are beautiful and loved.
Hi Lisa,
A ‘Times of India’ poll had once named you the “ninth most beautiful woman of the millennium”. In my opinion, you are the ONLY beautiful woman of the millennium. And i say this because your beauty, unlike the others on the list, is not just skin deep. As i had mentioned last time, you are a gem at heart. And so, even if you are developing a Cushingoid habitus, it won’t decrease your beauty even by 0.1 percent. Please, just one request, never ever speak about death, even in joking sense, in any of your future blogs. Hope you have a great time at the Film Festival. Take care. God Bless.
It’s more than a little hard for me to read your diaries because my English is poor, haha! I can’t feel your emotion directly because there are so many words I don’t know. But I still like to try to read your words here because it can make me learn and practice my English. And make me feel close between you and me. I always believe that you can beat this cancer. What I should do is only let you know that I will always support you. Hope you have positive emotion and laugh often everyday. It’s the best medicine for you.
Haha!!Haha!!Hahaha!!!!!!
Love you!!!
接下來要寫中文了,我愛Lisa Ray,我是台灣人,
我支持Lisasasasasa~~~~啦!
Hi Lisa,
I am not a cancer survivor, but I have lived with it for the last five years. My father was diagnosed with ALL (another lymphoid malignancy with a poor prognosis) right when I got into college, and his condition brought perspective into my life.
I was the kind of person who took everything too seriously, planning every step ahead in my concocted path to “success.” Insecurity issues made me behave like an ass, and a fear of the unknown kept me well within my safe zone.
Thirty minutes changed it all. It was eight thirty at night, and just as I’d settled down to watch my evening movie, my mother burst into the house. She was inconsolable. She was crying too hard to talk. There was nothing else to do, so my brother, sister and I huddled around her and waited for her to speak. When she revealed details of our catastrophe, the room went dark. I didn’t cry…just felt numb. At nine that night, I went to bed without saying another word.
I was woken up early next morning by my mom, with the other two by her side. Before I could orient myself, she started to speak. We were to go meet my dad (he was admitted in a hospital in a neighbouring city), but not as helpless victims. My mom wasn’t crying anymore. She had a plan – live each day as it comes.
There has been no looking back since. Experiencing the immediacy of mortality, makes life so much easier. Looking back at my previous self, I have been more upset about so many things than my father getting cancer. It’s not because I don’t love him. In fact, his plight made me realize I owed it to him to live without fear. The real tragedy is that it takes an event of such proportions to make us realize the essence of existence: to just live.
Dear Lisa,
I wanted to tell you something. But after reading all these wonderful and encouraging replies from my fellow yellow-rists , I feel like I no need to add anything more.
My heart is with you. Love your moon face.Keep strong. Rest more.
Your courage is admirable. Keep fighting and we will keep praying that you come through this stronger.
All our prayers
PS: You look absolutely adorable with the moonface 🙂
please do Tonya! 🙂
bam
Lisa,
THANK YOU so much … it was very exciting reading your mention of the Multiple Myeloma 5K Walk in today’s blog …
“How about some action .. http://www.mm5kwalk.ca“.
It really will help to bring the much needed awareness for MM research to the forefront. It’s quite obvious just how much people really respect, love and care about you … and I think the way that they could really show their love, is by being able to support YOU. I would love to register you and put your picture up alongside the “dream team of MM physicians at the hospital” so that if people WANT to commit to the MM cause, all they have to do is click on your absolutely gorgeous face and support YOU in the very best way they can. Their funds will in turn support the much needed, cutting edge research for Multiple Myeloma.
Come on people …. let’s keep “M-Moving Together Toward the Cure” in support of Lisa’s complete remission AND in support of Multiple Myeloma research at the Princess Margaret Hospital. Click on http://www.mm5kwalk.ca and register now! If you can’t walk, just pick a dream team member whose picture is on our website and they’ll do the walking for you!!
With love, gratitude and blessings,
Cindy
Dear Lisa:
First,
Thanks Valcade, although it lets you “Peripheral Neuropathy.”
After knowing that you are injected with Valcade, I have read several articles about Valcade. I must say:“Full remission” can really be expected!
Second,
Please pay attention to N1H1 flu, when you go to the public place. Maybe you need to wear a mask.
Third,
Modlę się za ciebie!
Is Polish, it is mean “I pray for you.” right?I consult the online translation dictionary, it shows me “ Modlę się za ciebie.” so, I am not sure…..
Anyway, I pray for you, and always support you!:)
PS I am following you on Twitter!:)
your fan frome Taiwan
I love the way you talk about, the way you deal with the Myeloma, It reminds me the way my mother used to talk about her disease, I guess that everything is about the way we cope with every single thing around us and inside of us, not exactly what we´re going through but THE WAY WE COPE WITH IT!!!
you know that you in my prayers…
MUY BUENA SUERTE!!!
Hmmm… moonface huh? Still you though underneath; that’s what counts. Anyways you look lovely as ever. Chin up!!
Hi Lisa!
I found out about this blog a few days ago, but I haven’t written until now. I really love your way of facing your cancer because you talk about it naturally (by the way, I wish I could write like you!). I definitely think cancer is not a thing that should be taboo, I think it is very important to talk about it whether you have it or not, because it’s something that’s there and it affects all of us, even if we’re lucky not to have it but I think most of us have had a relative or a friend who has/had it, and even if we don’t. And I’m sure it is also a great way to express yourself because I can imagine it’s not an easy situation but sometimes just talking about the things that concern us helps a lot psicologicaly talking (and the brain and the body are highly conected too).
And also, I’m sure you’re also helping other people because sometimes it’s unbeliveble the repercussion a public person, and in this case I’m sure it is very positive because it can make the illness less taboo and more “human”.
There is a singer in my country (Spain), her name is Luz Casal, she had breast cancer-I think she’s ok now- and I remember reading in an interview that she said: “cancer is the best thing that has happened to me”. Well, I’m sure she didn’t really mean it literaly but, in a way, considering that the fact that you have it now is something you can’t change -I mean now, not in the future which of course can change- there is this perpective about it: that you are going to grow up as a person, and to see thing from a point of view you hadn’t thought about before: to value other things, to know yourself better… it’s a self-knoledge journey too.
Well, I’ll keep reading your blog cause I really love it, and I hope you keep telling us your progress getting better, which I’m sure.
And finally, I knew I admired Lisa Ray as an actress but now I can say I admire Lisa Ray as a person. I hope you can understand my message because, as you can see, my english is not perfect, but I did my best 😉 -by the way I learnt my English in Ontario :).
Bring your beatifull smile (with or without moonface 😉 ) and your new bracelet to the festival and above all ENJOY it on wednesday!!! 😀 (then you can show us pictures from the festival).
Lots of love from Spain!
Elena
Believe with no doubts, no second thoughts that you can win, then u will win. The mind is far more powerful than the body, the body looks for guidance from the mind, if mind is not willing to fight neither will it.
My Morrow is unknown and Each Day is a Gift
Dear Lisa,
I have to say I admire your courage. As a survivor myself I understand what you are going through, although each person deals with cancer in a different way…
When i was diagnosed life to me was black and white, i did not care whether i lived or died. To me death sounded more like a release than any form of torture, I mean i was only 14 and God desided to put me up against death itself..i didn’t stand a chance, or so i thought.
But what i didn’t realize was that i had my own little team of soldiers at home that would fight until the end for me :D, having cancer humbled me, it made me stop and think twice before taking a step forward, it made me adore life and be thankful for every new sunrise i saw.
I used to think God hated me because he put me through two years of hell, but now i realize he just wanted me to see the world with new eyes…with my new eyes i saw so much kindness, so much love just out there in the world waiting for me to notice. I remember i used to have my mom push me through the park on days when i felt down it served as therapy for me and sometimes strangers, people i had never seen before would just kneel in front of me and pray, it shocked me to see such a reaction. Eventually, i understood that i did have something to fight for. I had my mother who cried herself to sleep every night just watching her daughter slowly giving up, i had my little brother and sister who looked up to me and saw me as their hero, i knew then that if i didnt have the courage to fight for myself i had to do it for them. I owed it to them to atleast try. I am now 19 yrs old and 2 years cancer free :), i am an LVN and im currently attending UCLA as a major in medicine…im living proof that it can be done, you can beat this, but u must remain focused on what lies ahead, keep your faith strong and believe that things will be ok your not alone you have your family, your friends and you have us…your faithfull fans 😀 i believe u can overcome any obstacle sent your way but you must be patient something will give in soon…
Take good care of yourself and live each day to the fullest!
and pay no mind to that moon face of yours, its still beautiful.
p.s. i have a puppy you can have if itll make u feel better lol 😉
Dear Lisa,
There’s is not much more I can say about you that’s has already been said.
You are quite UNIQUE and to make it short, I think you have a beautiful mind and YOU ARE A BEAUTIFUL SOUL.
When there’s a WILL, there’s a WAY!
Very deep in my heart, I AM CONVINCED that you will WIN this battle against C. I just know it!!!
Yes please, keep it up and NEVER stop fighting!!!
We need you to be around here for a very very long time 🙂
And I just want to let you know that: “Je vous aime.”
CL
Hi Lisa,
May you always have the strength to walk just one more mile each day regardless of the terrain. This is a solitary journey and everything you feel is valid. There is no right or wrong in our individual challenges and pain when dealing with an illness. When your spirit is a little discouraged, live in the well wishes and love that others have for you and ignore the negative ones.
“Strength does not come from physical capacity. It comes from an indomitable will. ” Gandhi
Dear Lisa,
Please focus on recovering (use the secret).
My prayers are with you 🙂
an insult to flesh indeed.
“I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they’re right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.”
— Marilyn Monroe
Hi Lisa
I like reading your blog. I just want to see how you feeling. You are very possitive that is what you need. I have full faith that you will be free of this MM. You are brave and strong and you will be fine. I am sending my love to you
Big hug to you
Paramjit (Brampton)
Hi Lisa,
ALMOST FULL REMISSION!!! That’s fantastic….if there’s anyone that can beat this, its you…and you’re doing it!
I love reading your blog, its SO damn honest, funny, witty….and just puts it all out there, that unsexy side of it too…and thats part of why I think you’re such a hero 🙂
I saw Defendor with your special appearance on Saturday and the press screening of Cooking with Stella yesterday afternoon, you were great in both, and love the glasses on you! Cooking with Stella was a great film……then again what Mehta film isn’t!
Anyways, back to the yellow….the pic you posted, I don’t see ANY moon face, you look stunning as always….heck I don’t even have The Cancer and can’t look half as good! 🙂
You’re amazing and are going to be amazing and back to health……..but you have to keep blogging even when you are just cuz we love to hear your thoughts……I think a book should be in the works!
Take care, and hugs!
Meera
Hi Lisa,
I like your fighting spirit. Meditation will help you a lot. Kindly check out Sundarshan kriya taught by Art of Living:
http://us.artofliving.org/
It has cured lot of people of incurable diseases. I am sure it will help you as well.
Regards,
Ritu
Dear Lisa
All your fortresses go down in the night.
To the dawn I’ll see you through.
But if your heart is cold, my sheets are warm.
I will shelter you all through the storm.
The answers aren’t so easy to find,
The questions will have to do.
‘Cause I’ve lost myself deep in your life,
My only fix is you.
In the space between what’s wrong and right,
You will find me waiting for you…
Mabrook.. 🙂
Lots of love from Dubai.
P.S. : You do not look fat in the pic ! (thats a lie 🙂 )
Hi Lisa
Remember me…? I promised to write to you every day (from Spain). I read your coment on you page…and I smiled over the jelly fish picture comparing it to the loabster…I live at the coast, and we have both…ande the loabster is delicious…But the nicest thing to do…is to take a walk at the beach, when there is just about anybody there…Thank god all the tourist are gone…so I took a nice walk, letting the air clear my thoughts,walking over the humed sand and letting the waves splash against my legs…and listening to the waves…
Have a nice day Lisa…and enjoy every second of it…
Lisa,
Its touchy this time! I know how much these outcomes matters to you, for how you have been till now and your life style. Self-motivation is must which I can see in your writing. I also see little fear and pessimism. Its easy to say “you will be fine”, but I empathize with you. Its toughest for you to be the same as you were before.
I pray for you and your good health.
Don’t worry be happy. Give a big smile 🙂 and trust GOD!
Hey Blessed Soul,
Feel Healthy
Be Healthy
Heaven on this earth is ur
Shiva …
Pls U must watch “Om Namah Shivaha”
…Give me ur Pain
…Pleasure be mine
…Give me ur Cancer
…Cherrised moment be mine
Pray
So powerfully
So intensely
Creator of Unvierse has to listen to you
Hey there “Moonface Beautiful Lisa”. You look really beautiful with this “Moonface” chubby cheeks. so dont take any pressure, not that u take pressure. 🙂 U give my hubby wobbly knees girl wen u first came on n even now after all these years. 😛
Be strong, its ok to feel down at times but u have done the most bravest thing by being open about it. love ur blog.
U look more beautiful, ravishing now than u did before.
Tons of love, n hugs. 🙂
i read the news yesterday,i had it and got it straight from you.it said you were leaving,how can i believe its true ? when i looked at your face it seemed true.how am i supposed to live without you ?
i picked up the copy of Hindi Times and there i learnt about your suffering and the pain you are going through, so i decided to read your blog and leave a comment,that’s not so true.
Lisa Rani:
Chemotherapy, by its nature, destroys both good and bad cells in the body. You will need to strengthen your immune system in time for the (so-called) onset of H1N1. A good Naturopath can do that for you.
If you need the name of a fabulous one here in Toronto, have someone contact me. This naturopath saved my life. At the time, my immune system was running on empty and other things were falling apart as a result. It won’t hurt to try.
Tell Bobcat he needs to pamper you.
Love and best wishes
Read your blog, like to start my day with strong and funny..
It always astonishes me that no matter how devastatingly sharp a subject can be what keeps us as a people from taking ourselves too seriously is our humor- some better than others- you are witty and insightful and does not go unappreciated.
AfterEllen.com had a poll and you won the title “Women of the Week” for “Ray’s willingness to go public about her illness, and to blog about her hopes, frustrations, and treatment regiment, will bring inspiration to many others.”
Stay strong, funny and give yourself that time to deflate.. sending all my positive thoughts…
Veronica
Dear Lisa
Why do I keep coming back to your blog everyday? Apart from the fact that I did promise I would read your posts everyday. Because, you reach out so beautifully, you touch a life so effortlessly!
Each Day is indeed a gift – you have so hit the nail on the head. Every single day that I read your posts, I feel like a new person. I share your thoughts with my intimate circle of friends and family, and hope that I do my little bit to spread the good word and love around.
The suspense gets tough for me – waiting for the next post each day!
Chaitra
my dear lisa
It is difficult for me to read your diary,but i try try try my best.
Now i believe you are good at typewriting,using ten fingers.
Love your “moon face”(*^__^*)
FIGHTING!FIGHTING!FIGHTING!
Happy everyday!↖(^ω^)↗
Hey Lisa,
Its been a pleasure reading your blogs these past few days. And I must thank you – for the second time!
Many years back when I was starting out a career in journalism in India, you were uber nice to me.. and gave me one of the nicest interviews of my life.
And now I want to thank you for allowing me to overcome my brush with cancer with you. I was recently operated (fantastically enough by Dr. Raina) for a tumour in my kidney. And while I may not have same cancer or the symptoms, the fears/emotions are the same.
Today I can say that I have recovered completely and am totally cancer free… but the emotions are still raw. Reading your posts helps make each day easier.
And I want you to know that now I am saying a prayer for you every single day just like I did for myself.
I know you are going to come out of this brilliantly (AND I KNOW U WILL!!!) and then when you are in Bombay next, we both will sip on green tea and annoy the life out of Dr. Raina!!!
Loads of love x
Dear Lisa,
I have to say I admire your courage. As a survivor myself I understand what you are going through, although each person deals with cancer in a different way…
When i was diagnosed life to me was black and white, i did not care whether i lived or died. To me death sounded more like a release than any form of torture, I mean i was only 14 and God desided to put me up against death itself..i didn’t stand a chance, or so i thought.
But what i didn’t realize was that i had my own little team of soldiers at home that would fight until the end for me , having cancer humbled me, it made me stop and think twice before taking a step forward, it made me adore life and be thankful for every new sunrise i saw.
I used to think God hated me because he put me through two years of hell, but now i realize he just wanted me to see the world with new eyes…with my new eyes i saw so much kindness, so much love just out there in the world waiting for me to notice. I remember i used to have my mom push me through the park on days when i felt down it served as therapy for me and sometimes strangers, people i had never seen before would just kneel in front of me and pray, it shocked me to see such a reaction. Eventually, i understood that i did have something to fight for. I had my mother who cried herself to sleep every night just watching her daughter slowly giving up, i had my little brother and sister who looked up to me and saw me as their hero, i knew then that if i didnt have the courage to fight for myself i had to do it for them. I owed it to them to atleast try. I am now 19 yrs old and 2 years cancer free , i am an LVN and im currently attending UCLA as a major in medicine…im living proof that it can be done, you can beat this, but u must remain focused on what lies ahead, keep your faith strong and believe that things will be ok your not alone you have your family, your friends and you have us…your faithfull fans i believe u can overcome any obstacle sent your way but you must be patient something will give in soon…
Take good care of yourself and live each day to the fullest!
and pay no mind to that moon face of yours, its still beautiful.
p.s. i have a puppy you can have if itll make u feel better lol 😉
I feel that it is not by coincidence that your Diaries are the Yellow Diaries, your last name is Ray, as in Sun Ray….that you are focusing on the 3rd Chakra …..Hum….things that make you go hum….You have a lot out there working for you…..
My little 1 year old nephew has Hyperplastic Left Heart Syndrome…. Nasty Disease, prognosis death….My sister uses the “You know my son has a heart defect.” card all the time! Like when she is losing at a silly card game….”You know if you really cared you’d let me win because my son has a heart defect!” Or “You should really let me have the last piece of pie…because you know, my baby has a heart defect!” You have to laugh! I say you go for it and use that Cancer Card any way you can!…..Heck, you paid the price for it you may as well suck the living life out of it!! There is always an up side to everything. Laugh, and Laugh, and then Laugh some more!! But wait….remember that Fear and Faith can’t co-exist!! So, Laugh some more and Really Trust in the process….Question?? Do you really want to come back as the same person anyway? Really….Again, things that make you go….. Hum. Change is growth and your “soul” has gone out for a jog….you might want to catch up. You’re a True Yellow Ms. Sunshine Ray! Like the paint job…but you may not want to give up your day job…not quite yet….missed a few spots.
Take Care and Live Life, Laugh Often and Love Much! And just when you think that you can’t Love anymore….you’ll pull it out of ya. By-the-way….I hear that the “Moon Face” is the next Hot fad!! I have a friend on Roids for her Rhumetoid Arthritis that she has had since her youth….She is as round as they come! I love the Betty Boop Look! 🙂
Gotta’ Love ya,
Ginger
Ms. Shunshine Ray,
I feel that it is not by coincidence that your Diaries are the Yellow Diaries, your last name is Ray, as in Sun Ray….that you are focusing on the 3rd Chakra …..Hum….things that make you go hum….You have a lot out there working for you…..
My little 1 year old nephew has Hyperplastic Left Heart Syndrome…. Nasty Disease, prognosis death….My sister uses the “You know my son has a heart defect.” card all the time! Like when she is losing at a silly card game….”You know if you really cared you’d let me win because my son has a heart defect!” Or “You should really let me have the last piece of pie…because you know, my baby has a heart defect!” You have to laugh! I say you go for it and use that Cancer Card any way you can!…..Heck, you paid the price for it you may as well suck the living life out of it!! There is always an up side to everything. Laugh, and Laugh, and then Laugh some more!! But wait….remember that Fear and Faith can’t co-exist!! So, Laugh some more and Really Trust in the process….Question?? Do you really want to come back as the same person anyway? Really….Again, things that make you go….. Hum. Change is growth and your “soul” has gone out for a jog….you might want to catch up. You’re a True Yellow Ms. Sunshine Ray! Like the paint job…but you may not want to give up your day job…not quite yet….missed a few spots.
Take Care and Live Life, Laugh Often and Love Much! And just when you think that you can’t Love anymore….you’ll pull it out of ya. By-the-way….I hear that the “Moon Face” is the next Hot fad!! I have a friend on Roids for her Rhumetoid Arthritis that she has had since her youth….She is as round as they come! I love the Betty Boop Look!
Gotta’ Love ya,
Ginger
Gurrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrl, by reading your previous blogs I came to realize what a beautiful spirit you have. Today however, by reading about your admission of how you honestly feel (not quietly to your closest friends, but out here in a public forum) I began to understand your true strength of character!
Come Wed, put on that pretty frock, accessorize with your Myeloma Bracelet, tip back a Brandy (my Bobcha lived by the Napoleon) and own that Red Carpet!!
Know that we will be here supporting you each step of the way.
One love from Van-city
xo
Lisa –
What an incredible diary entry! I am mesmerized by your writing and your wholeness. You have an amazing ability to put your feelings and emotions into words – I am completely taken in by the story, the message, the feeling and the understanding of what a life should be about. I am taken in by you. The view of life, from your perspective, is like a beacon. I was so captivated by your out, and am now so priviledged to read about your in – you say you’ve changed – you’ve also changed all of us who are reading your posts.
Luci
We recently came to know of the distressing news that you have been diagnosed with Myeloma on June 23rd, but then we read your blog and our heart found new respect and admiration for the way you are handling it. It truly is an inspiration for all of us, and not just other for 1000s of cancer patients around the world.
We also read about your determination of shedding more light onto Myeloma and Cancer Awareness. We think you are doing an amazing job in finding troops and viewers online to stand beside you in this battle, and we would like to do our small bit in this.
Who are we? A bunch of young and dedicated mavericks who have just started their own New Media Venture. And who also believe in making a change in the world, however small that might be.
Besides our work with celebs (Lucky Ali, Pooja Bedi, Sanjay Nirupam) and some recent corporates (ICICI, Idea Cellular) we have been actively involved in the Social and Rural Infrastructure Sector to help manage their online presence and communications via social communities and technologies, which has always Most of us being fresh out of college, we have been involved with Source Pilani, a rural BPO in Rajasthan and also the Chirawa Chapter of NSS (National Service Scheme).
Without any further blabbering, let us go ahead and say that we would like to help you and any NGO’s or groups you might endorse in this cause to contribute our small bits and help spread the word on social media and other internet platforms. We truly believe that we can use internet communities to spread the good word.
Hoping for a positive reply from your side; and may God bless us all.
The Superchooha team
Love and Prayers :*
Hina
Dearest Lisa,
There is so much I would like to say to you but to make it short, I am just mesmirized by your wholesomeness. You have such a beautiful mind and you are a beautiful soul.
Indeed you are a quite UNIQUE character in this world of showbiz where the appearance has taken too much importance over what really matters!
You are an inspiration to me in every sense of the word.
Please keep your spirit high and yes please, never stop fighting!!!
If I ever got a chance to bump into you in Toronto one day, please allow me to buy you pepperettes and macaroon!
With much love and keeping you in my prayers and thoughts,
LC
Lisa – you are the female counterpart of Lance Armstrong. But you are way more beautiful – both inside and out. Thank you for your courage and inspiration. Please, please always keep your mojo intact. =P
Peace.
G-
x.s. I cannot wait for the novel you will be writing when all this business is done and you are well and happy.
Hello beautiful!! Lisa I love your sense of humor even after going through such a difficult time. Please note that no matter what you will always be beautiful with or without the moon face. We all love you for just being you and for providing us with your amazing talent. I know you will be back on stage entertain us again. Love and Prayers always!!
Dear Prabhakar,
I think you have misunderstood the purpose of Lisa’s blog. She is bringing hope and awareness to people living with cancer. She is not complaining, she is telling us about what she is going through. I have been personally touched by her blog. How dare you write something so mean and hateful. I feel sorry for you because obviously your ailments have made you a bitter person.
Didn’t your mother ever tell you, if you don’t have anything nice to say, then don’t say anything at all.
Querida Lisa
Gracias por “I can´t Think Straight” y “The World Unseen”, por todos los buenos momentos que nos regalas.
En mi familia hay muchos casos de cancer así que yo decidí adquirir habitos de vida más saludables.
He tenido la suerte de que nunca me gustara fumar.
Me he informado muchísimo sobre la alimentación que es algo fundamental para evitar y combatir la enfermedad.
Sólo quería recomendarte un libro magnífico sobre el tema, del doctor David Servan (superviviente del cancer)
http://www.anticancerways.com/
Espero que te sirva de ayuda.
Y animo, no hay nada incurable.
Abrazos desde España.
I dont speak english, sorry
hey lisa,
am not going to be cosmetic or made up coz i don’t really understand wht ur going through,i havnt remotly exp any thing like this around me.
all i can say is unimaginable things happen evryday evry single day ……
hang in there never never never never give up……
yeah i knw its nt easy,its nt fair…but such is lyf u know
may be u have to hit the rock bottom before rising again…to new heights………..
thnakx for ur efforts to reach out to ur fans……..
plzz remeber tht we love u ,we care about u
and our prayers r with u always and always………
hope..there is always hope…….
jai mata di
love
nibs
Lisa Ray on Canada AM talkin about Yellow Diaries and her movie Cooking with Stella
Watch, enjoy, appreciate and Pray.
http://watch.ctv.ca/news/tiff-09/cooking-with-stella/#clip213017
Love and Prayers
Hina
Hi Lisa, I have to tell you that I can’t believe that you are sick. I didn’t know your work until this weekend. I’m from Brazil and last friday I saw “I Can’t Think Straight” and I loved you in that movie. Today, I was surfing the web to find out more about you and read this awful news. I hope all the best for you and from the bottom of my heart wish you get well soon so people that love your work like me can see you on screen again.
kisses
Lisa,
I never knew you existed until yesterday. But the timing is exquisite. Oddly enough, I’m in isolation this week due to a radiation treatment, and to occupy my time I’ve been watching films. I stumbled upon “I Can’t Think Straight,” which led me to look you up on IMDB. I found out about your cancer, which I’m sure you will beat (my partner’s mother was diagnosed with MM 2 years ago, a stem cell transplant last January, and she’s doing very well). And I also found out that you were in “Kill Kill Faster Faster,” which I’m familiar with due to being good friends with Gareth’s sister. Strange coincidences, huh?
Anyhow, it seems like today you’re having a rough time. But I say pull out that cancer card. I sure do! And the moon face will go (even though you still look great with it).
My thoughts are with you,
Rachel
Hi Lisa,
Its funny sometimes the curveball life throws one. I remember the day in September 2006, I self admitted myself to what I now know is the best hospital in TO. I was misdiagnosed ten times by some of the best docs in the city, hah….life has its own plan and we cant do anything about it, but rather accept it and move forward with our spirits high.
So i got the crushing news, totally unsuspecting, totally oblivious. What do I do…just stare and ask the doc…so whats next, give me the meds so i can get back to work.
Funny thing, they want to do all these tests…and yes the marrow test is really painful (hear ya there) and the other biopsies etc….
All said and done, with tens of docs and endless residents and students all looking and examining and learning on me….Well at least I can proudly say I had a part in their ongoing education!
I went through Chemo and Radiation…it lasted for over 6 months….But here is the strange thing…
The meds – we both know suck. The treatment makes you feel like crap. But through it all I never for once believed that I was sick 🙂
I went to work everyday, except for the Chemo days every week. It kept me sane….
Ooops, I have to run..will continue tomorrow.
Keep smiling! It makes things easier!
dear lisa,
“moon face” or not, thick or thin, that’s all surface.
all what counts in the end is open heart and soul.
very good interview on ctv. you are so alive. keep going on.
love
elke (from germany)
Lisa,
I am following your blog for week now. But did not have courage to reply on your posts.
Lisa,
I can say only one thing, what ever happens we are with you. We are praying for you and I believe that you will overcome this and get well soon.
Lisa,
I love you..
–Rahul
HI Lisa,
Good to know that you are again reacquanting yourself and getting in sync with your body. That is the most negligible thing apparently anyone mistakes to put attention to. Now…you sound so delighted and the tone of your statements are sparklingly sending your nerves a wonderful message to your brain center, hopefully will perceive it entirely as a good stimulus, I must say.
I am just as completely ecstatic as you may be for seeing good results.
My all support and prayers for you!
Marijoe
Madrid, Spain
Saw you on one of the interviews…the new look suits you!! You look soooo cute!!! Keep smiling 🙂
Girl, if you feel sad and lonely try grabing a microphone and turn on your favorite karaoke song then start singing, believe me you will find comfort. Singing is indirect way of expressing what’s inside our heart & mind.
lisa
keep possitive thinking keep smiling there’s sunshine
Hey miss lisa,
youre inner strenght is very good, keep thinking possitive.
here we say;
Life is just lige a flash of lightning; La vie c’est comme unne eclaire.
an may I say, youre still looking verry lovely in the insight and the out sight and nothing is gone change that .
My mantra that I like is : OM MANI PE HUNG
greeting , orvoir
see you tomorrow, by by
emelie,
At breakfast with a friend , amidst the Dosas and Coffee she told me about the treatment she will undergo this month . Simply put it “Neil you know my ovaries might get affected , and possibly I cant give birth”. I looked up .. “And some other vital organs too …What the heck yaar you know what ..it’s worth living”.
(Need I tell you about the bloated face , the bulging eyes. I never noticed till date. All those superficial stuff are so negligible in front of her passion for living.)
And so we ordered another round of sinful Dosas.
I have no reference point when it comes to your business. Hell I have no reference point to a size zero Lisa. What was I doing all through the Garden Saree advertisements , the Bombay Dyeing shoots .. maybe busy watching Captain Kirk fly the Voyager 😛
Not even a month since I discovered you . Here I am, one guy who knows you only with moon face. And you look great , simply stunning .
After WE achieve full remission , after all the protocols, a time (not so distant) when you get back to your business , a size zero Lisa walking some red carpet .. I will wonder .. are you the mistress of the Yellow Diary .. What happened to you girl ? Bring me back my moon face .
Tomorrow .. oops already past midnight .. today my friend turns the wheel.. Somehow we all managed our way to the the 25 mark .Evening party.. will drink a toast to you. Some 10s of people , will shout it out … To The Yellow Diaries and her awe inspiring mistress!!
Dear Lisa and others,
Hope you all are having (had) a great day.
love and hugs from the land of Buddha
Thanks for posting the link.
Lisa, good interview.
Lisa, you are special. Since I first saw the “Aafreen Aafreen”
video, you have won my heart. Only to discover your prowess as an actor has furthered my tenderness for you. Listen, girl, you shall get through this, (I should know!), and when days seems to trail into an abyss of darkness, know that you are loved and esteemed by your family and friends. Our paths have crossed for a reason, only we should remain congisant of our reason. That you are a strong and a total Draconian and efficacious person and actor does not surprise me!
I enjoyed watching “The World Unseen”, and your talent is highly inspiring and am very proud of your achievement(S). Would like to see you direct a film, one day. I think with the melange of skills you have — as actor, writer — it would be absolutely thrilling to see what you come up with. But, for now, here is to YOU and being healthy. You are very beautiful, Lisa. Sure the world has tagged you as a “beauty”, I see through your heart and there is an abyss of beauty that the world shall see!
There is a thought expressed in Buddhist chant:
Nam myoho renge kyo
Meaning:
The lotus is a flower that grows in the mud.
The thicker and deeper the mud,
the more beautiful the lotus blooms.
As a gift — I shall paint you, one day.
Be well and shine on at the Red Carpet — you have depth and grace, beauty and intelligence! Go, Girl.
Love,
SSD
I saw your interview on CTV.ca, and I just felt really proud of you. It’s like you are no longer some actress I admire or like, you’ve become more than that to I think all of us here participating with you in your Yellow Diaries. It was kind of like seeing a member of your family on TV and then realizing yes, she is a member of my family, this human family of ours. I came away from it thinking of the whole flower of life thing – “The mind that sees unity. It sees the flower of life. It sees everything interconnected in all ways. It doesn’t see anything as separate.” And it’s like you were coming from this place in your heart, you were centered there and projecting Love.
Guess you know now how much I loved the interview! : )
You’re just an incredible being, Lisa Ray.
Hello lisa,
My dear MOON FACED DARLING, you look Drop Dead Gorgeous with a moon face too. how do u do it.
Its really very Excited to know that yo are nearing FULL REMISSION… Now i am actually feeling better from the day i heard that you were fighting cancer.
You know who made me laugh. Its you my dear. How can any one be so joval, funny during such times . Its only you. how do you manage to do it ?
You made me laugh aloud in the mid-night . The day when i heard it , I was completely shattered my whole world collapsed, I became so numb was sleepin whole 2 days without knowing what to do….I was just so…. leave i just cant explain it, the way how i felt in words because i am not as good you in writing, wel let me say that im no good at writing.
I am emphathising your every move dear, When i saw that photo of yours With a tiny syringe in your body , I Felt the pain, right there in the exact place.
Now after reading your blogs day by day I am actually feeling better seeing you improve.
Now that you cant actively take part in a comedy movie AND ENTERTAIN US for atleast some days (until your recovery) you are making us laugh by Such blogs….. and also giving us so much knowledge about life and death, Yoga, Cancer therapies. How to just go about it…..
Actually your effort to create awareness has already started long ago through your Blogs.
So, just keep going we do follow you evvvvvvvveryday and read it thrice atleast so keep Blogging..
Love you so soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
much
Muuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hey Lisa,
1. This is a blog I once wrote for World AIDS day. I believe the message here is very similar to what you say. Btw the TA was primarily British so some numbers are UK centric ( I did not want to change much) –
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At this point in Time, there are 40 million people living with HIV in the world and there are 60000 living with it in UK alone. We have 7000 diagnoses every year.
AIDS eradication is not just a worry. It is a cause we all need to work towards. Each and everything written on AIDS cannot dwell into the subject, to the extent required. HIV and AIDS is a huge global problem. In just over 20 years, the virus has killed more people than all the wars and disasters of the last 50 years put together AIDS is huge and it’s high time we realize it.
The best way to defeat AIDS is to be cautious and spread the word about AIDS awareness.
Don’t be ashamed of Talking about AIDS. There is nothing wrong in fighting an enemy.
We have done our bit; maybe you can do yours here. Do help; help is sometimes a much underestimated word.
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2. Please make sure that your English is simple enough for the Queen to understand. Else, we do have a problem.
3. English should always be the first language. Pride and passion will ensure that all other languages do well. If we work the opposite way, things will go haywire. Bongs at a micro and Indians at a macro level are the examples I quote. Do i already know your take on this?
4. I will watch Water soon. I have not seen it. Would you mind if I see it on a pirated DVD, now that the movie has earned all ( most of it ) its revenue.
These lines for your blog –
In lamhon ke daaman mein
Pakiza se riste hain
Koi kalma mohabat ka
Dohrate farishte hain
Lots of Luv,
Me
Hi Lisa,
Just found your blog. My husband was diagnosed with smoldering MM last summer at the age of 28… another Junior. He will begin treatment in a few weeks. Just wanted to say hello and let you know you’re in our thoughts.
Hello Lisa,
Ami tumhaar bhalo bhashi 🙂
I’m not an Indian, but I leanred it from your tweets. I hope it was in Hindi, or else I’d make a fool out of myself for saying that.
BTW, since you have fans all around the world. I see that you have some from Europe, Asia, and other continents. How about you learn how to say “I love you” in different languages and post it here or tweet it to your fans all over the world? Not a bad suggestion huh..XOXO!
You’re still looking lovely even with the “moon face”. BTW, that’s one SEXY moon face.
BlueMoon
Hey EVERYBODY!
(I RECOMMEND IT TO ALL CANCER PATIENTS)
In the morning half an hour before the breakfast and in the evening half an hour before the dinner it is necessary to drink a cup of Field Horsetail (Equisetum arvense) tea.Prepared from the mix of 300 grams of marigold (Calendula officinalis), 100 grams of milfoil (Achillea millefolium)and 100 grams of nettle (Urtica dioica) daytime it is necessary to drink tea in 2 litres of quantity.
If sudden intense liquid accumulation steps up then into it it is necessary to leave the input of the granted tea quantity .
Instead until 5 days daily it is necessary to drink 5-6 cups of horsetail(Equisetum arvense) tea daytime to sip.
200 gm. of Thyme for a full bath
Have a wonderful and painless day.
Ok, yeah…
I don’t know what just happened there but 10 minutes after reading today’s blog and I’m still trying to catch my breath…
You’ve a wicked sense of humor and we’re lovin’ it!
Now all I can do is shake my head and say… ‘damn’…
Each day with you, your thoughts and your sense of humour is a gift for all of us!
Definitely you will be the winner!
with warm hugs
Kati from Hungary
Hi Venus,
Who cares if you have a large moon face or a cushing-like face? Behind that face your beauty underneath always shines through.
Always keep your chin up Lisa, you are our eternally beautiful queen, inside and out.
As gently as you touch your moon face, treat it the way you’d treat your perfectly beaueutiful face. Moon face, beautiful face, every face tells a story: the Joy of Being Alive.
Let’s take a bite out of delicious autumn!
Much love & light,
Sabrina
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The Heart Sutra
Avalokiteshvara, the Bodhisattva of Compassion, meditating deeply on Perfection of Wisdom, saw clearly that the five aspects of human existence are empty*, and so released himself from suffering. Answering the monk Sariputra, he said this:
Body is nothing more than emptiness,
emptiness is nothing more than body.
The body is exactly empty,
and emptiness is exactly body.
The other four aspects of human existence —
feeling, thought, will, and consciousness —
are likewise nothing more than emptiness,
and emptiness nothing more than they.
All things are empty:
Nothing is born, nothing dies,
nothing is pure, nothing is stained,
nothing increases and nothing decreases.
So, in emptiness, there is no body,
no feeling, no thought,
no will, no consciousness.
There are no eyes, no ears,
no nose, no tongue,
no body, no mind.
There is no seeing, no hearing,
no smelling, no tasting,
no touching, no imagining.
There is nothing seen, nor heard,
nor smelled, nor tasted,
nor touched, nor imagined.
There is no ignorance,
and no end to ignorance.
There is no old age and death,
and no end to old age and death.
There is no suffering, no cause of suffering,
no end to suffering, no path to follow.
There is no attainment of wisdom,
and no wisdom to attain.
The Bodhisattvas rely on the Perfection of Wisdom,
and so with no delusions,
they feel no fear,
and have Nirvana here and now.
All the Buddhas,
past, present, and future,
rely on the Perfection of Wisdom,
and live in full enlightenment.
The Perfection of Wisdom is the greatest mantra.
It is the clearest mantra,
the highest mantra,
the mantra that removes all suffering.
This is truth that cannot be doubted.
Say it so:
Gaté,
gaté,
paragaté,
parasamgaté.
Bodhi!
Svaha!
Which means…
Gone,
gone,
gone over,
gone fully over.
Awakened!
So be it!
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* Emptiness is the usual translation for the Buddhist term Sunyata (or Shunyata). It refers to the fact that no thing — including human existence — has ultimate substantiality, which in turn means that no thing is permanent and no thing is totally independent of everything else. In other words, everything in this world is interconnected and in constant flux. A deep appreciation of this idea of emptiness thus saves us from the suffering caused by our egos, our attachments, and our resistance to change and loss.
The best place in the world for treatment of multiple myeloma is here in Little Rock, Arkansas. http://myeloma.uams.edu/
Hey Lisa,
I´m reading your blog, and I think, your are a very hopefully and positive person. There are a lot of words in your blog, I dont´t understand, so excuse me an my english. Reading from your cancer make me feel sad, but I think , we have to learn something during our life. but…..no one needs experiences like cancer in life. I send you all my love and my energy to win this fight. I believe in you, because the world needs more movies like “I can´t think straight” an “the world unseen.” :-))
with or without a moon face, I think your are an amazing person.
Best wishes
Andrea from Germany
Hi Lisa,
I really love reading your blog everyday,because you’re like a brave Knight in blue armor.
I’m sure that you’re smiling even if your last drop of blood is cryng,and that’s why I admire you so much.
About the ”moon face”,is not the moon who has inspired so many great artists?
So, think about it 🙂 !
I wisch you all the best!
Big hug from Germany!
P.S Sorry for my englisch but I’m teaching myself how to speack and how to write!
hey lisa ..you are a really good writer .. i got kinda kicked out of my speech communication class and i was glad …i never belonged there . i took human sexuality after dropping speech communication ( don’t think too much all other classes were closed)
hey you are not going to have a moon face …i know you are really really strong
and i feel that everything will be just fine ….
lisa when you write you are not the only one who is sharing something the people who read it can really feel it i think that’s a good writer rite there…
do doctors let you change the date for chemo?
i asked u last time but i guess you didn’t see it….how did the doctor order a biopsy did they do some test on you before ordering it?
HAVE A NICE DAY LISA
Dear Lisa,
You are a very very good writer. In your vivid words, I can see your true feelings. I bet you will be a great novelist if you eventually write a novel.
Love,
FT
When you want something with all your heart, all the universe conspires in helping you get it…no matter how impossible it may seem…BELIEVE in yourself and god…DONT ever lose ur faith…all of us are praying for u everyday…connect with god like u connect with your innerself…god is in u, talk to him…he will guide u…god makes good people suffer for awhile but he will NEVER let them down…..God bless you!…I have seen alot of miracles happen…just NEVER lose your faith in god…..Cheer up!…n u dont have a moonface…u have a sunshine face ;)…Love u!…btw Bobcat is cute! 🙂
I happen to think moon faces are sexy, dammit.
Lisa: you are a beautiful woman. A beautiful human being.
You can be scared. Don´t worry, because is normal… Why not?
But remember: all of us are praying for you, thinking about you, crying and laughing with you… We love you!!! Why not?
Thank you very much for reading our words. You are not alone. Never. And believe me: I’ll be with you in my thoughts always.
Yes, yes. Sorry for my english. I try. I try.
Best wishes,
Ximena (Argentina)
P.D.: FFF: FIGHT!! FIGHT!! FIGHT!!!!!! NEVER STOP FIGHTING!!!
If you can, or if you need, write to ximeavila78@hotmail.com
Will be an honour for me…
Prabhakar!
I think you got it wrong. Seriously!
Where in Lisa’s blog does she cry?
Please tell me, cause I can’t find it.
And so if she did cry?
Nothing wrong with that!
What is wrong, is your selfpity and egoism…
There’s many of us with diseases that affects
quality of life, you don’t see us complain here, do you?
Ok, maybe I’m barking up the wrong tree here…
I’m like a two-legged dog sometimes.
But, I didn’t agree with what you wrote.
Anyways, I just wanna say: let your love shine bigger than ever!
Lots of love, Katrine ❤
Hi L,
You know in that photo of you sitting with your (friend? / dad?) you look like an angel ; – )
Once you are in full remission, I trust that you will be back full force, healthy and at the weight you want to be at. I doubt that you will allow yourself to be complacent…nope, not possible ; -)
Your Blog reads rather sad today – please know that your readers are sending you prayers, and wrapping our collective arms around you with admiration, love and friendship. I admire you Lisa Rani Ray, with all my heart.
WOW!! Can you feel the love, Lisa?!?!?!
The Yellow Diaries Phenomenon — You are the conductor that gives this train traction.
And, if this doesn’t nudge you to get up and dance on those days when there’s barely any green left on that last blade of grass in your field (so to speak), I don’t know what does!
YoU rOCk, Lisa!
And about the 24.24.24 thingy…I have always believed in the power of numbers…..
Nice job with the paint 🙂
Tap, tap, tap. I want the fork too!!!!!
Alright, I like the yellow wall, it’s a little bit Van Gogh-ish. Cool, paint as much as you like, Christie’s is the sky, but… just don’t loose your ear, ok? They just look in right place, trust me.
You’ve made me laugh with the moon face line. Not that you don’t have things to be scared, but with your energy and your HUNGER to LIVE, I’m sorry, but that’s not gonna happen.
So you actresses talk about these things? That’s interesting. I mean, I thought the ‘she’s so skinny she could date a skeleton and make a nice couple according to Tim Burton’s standards’ was a comment only us, not famous people, would say. Aparently it’s not, and you don’t know how happy it makes me. Even happier to see that you are not worried about these things anymore. Never understood how women became less important than the dress and has to submit herself to a remnant of fabric. So what happens next? Are you gonna go back to that circus or will you stay out, healthy and curvy (i.e. a w-o-m-a-n)?
Losbters are scary. Totally agree. I remember one trip I did to PO, Maine. After a heavy jet lag from flying all night there, the first thing I saw when hooping out of the plane was… lobsters! I had to blink quite a few times before noticing that they were painted on the terminal walls. And then I laugh… but still… not a nice welcome after 15-18 hours travelling.
I was thinking about your blog yesterday, and I’m sorry but I must complain. Do you have any complaining forms? Cos I’m gonna need them. The thing is this: I have so many things I want to ask you and I want to say but I can’t because English is not my first language. Wordreference.com is a good allied, but not the best when it comes to these things. The damn dictionary doesn’t have questions, the right questions to make, so I have no choice but to keep reading you and declare war to the damn dictionary. Still… it’s been a pleasure, as usual. See you in the next post.
Hello again. I’ve just read your blog ( don’t know if I understood all the contents :-). There are many things that struck me, but one thing that struck me most was the part in your 24.24.24 entry which says, Seinfeild-esque episodes that are too juicy to share…. a bleed in your spirit after a day when you need support but don’t know how to ask it.
What bled me was the opposite of that – you want to offer support but don’t know how to give it because you don’t know if it’s enough or appropriate especially in trying situations. So I think, silence is fitting.
I couldn’t offer you anything except which I have, and all I have is a prayer and a blessing.
I pray that the God of all comfort will comfort you today in ways you’ve never even imagined. I pray that His grace and comfort penetrate through you marrows, and heal not only your body, but also your spirit. I pray that you will be able to hear Him whispering your name in both joy and tears, comfort and pain, mountains and valleys, your sleep and your waking moments, the extarordinary and the trivial things of your life. I pray that He envelop you with His peace that passes all understanding. In Jesus’ Name.
You are loved, there’s no doubt about that ~~ by all your family, friends, and fans. But you are most loved by the One who created us. I will end with this passage from Psal 139:
O Lord, you have searched me and you know me.
You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways.
Before a word is on my tongue you know it completely, O Lord.
You hem me in–behind and before; you have laid your hand upon me. ….
My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,
your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.
How precious to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them!
Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand. When I awake, I am still with you.
He is always fighting for you even when we don’t realize it.
Always standing with you and for you in prayers,
Gen
Hey Lisa,
I just loved those powerful thoughts of yours. You are learning fast.
“Thanks to MM I have a chance to be healthy again.”
“Journey back to trust. To a new relationship with my body. With myself. With my soul.”
“It’s like going on assignment to a war zone. You cannot return the same.”
Nope, we cannot return the same. We will never look at life the same way anymore…because now we know what life is about. Intensity doesn´t come from Dex, comes from seeing life with new eyes…the cancer eyes…
Moon face won´t last forever. You´ll get back to your former shape as soos as you quit steroids. Believe me you´ll look the same than before or even better…
Urine doesn´t taste that bad after all…but if i were you, I will wait until treatment is over to start with it…
It´s ok to try everything you think might help. The key is that whatever it is, you believe it will work. Faith moves mountains…
Black humour is allowed to MM members specially in dex days..
Stay strong, drink plenty of water.
Itziar from La Palma
Nice blog !
i dont speak english but i will try.
you are the best actress in the world
only this i know to say in english.
i will learn for you.
Muchos saludos from Chile.
byebye
Hey Lisa 🙂
I started reading your blog a couple of days ago,
and I made myself a promise.
To comment with positivity, every time you blog.
So that I might put a smile on your face, a tought in your head, or maybe even a good feeling in your body 🙂
But, I barked at another diarist earlier today.
And I’m sorry for that…
So, this is todays positivity: let your love shine bigger than ever!
(and you look great with your slightly puffed cheeks ;))
Lots of love, Katrine ❤
Lisa,
In your blog, you mentioned “Bobcat” several times. Is he a person or a cat?
FT
hell lotta funny your “cancer card” , and hey i quite didnt get the lobster thing? “What electric traces do they leave after they have mated and gone.” and there your have pic of jelly fish?…. well how much drunk or sedated you were when u wrote this 😛
reminding again,,,, good karma can save u …. we all are praying for you…….
MAY GOD BLESS YOU ALL WAYS….
The roids will make you fill kinda crazy sometimes….
se que este no es tu idioma pero el ingles no va conmigo…
por alguna razón llegue a tu blog, justo después de ver una de tus películas…
sólo queria mandarte fuerzas desde Chile, siempre e pensado que manteniendo siempre el humor, es más facil llevar las cosas… asi que desde aca, el otro extremo del continente, te pido que no pierdas la sonrisa nunca…
y porfavor contagia a todos los que puedas con tu pensamiento del cuerpo 🙂
un beso
hi lisa. i’m from the philippines and i have read about you. i may not understand what you’re going through but i can feel that you’re a fighter. you have all my support and thank you for being an inspiration to all of us
Hi Lisa
and understand what you meant
well
Yesterday I learned about that one of my friends has a terminal illness and was not because he was said to me. I thought about him, because he always make people laugh, and sometimes lifts my spirits when I’m wrong, he does not behave anything like a boy with terminal illness and he’s 22. I thought about why having a “X” disease may you conditioned to act in a way or the people over you.
It was interesting what you said about the body.
I’m glad that you can receive love to many parts of the world, I have been reading some comments, and made me laugh a lot
Te amo mucho mucho mucho
Besos y ánimo cuando lo necesites
También pienso que te ves sexy con tu cara de luna
Dear lisa,Good 9 from China
Love your “moon face”always.Never stop flighting please (Chinese is 加油!).See you in the next post,kiss.
Best wishes
Cici
Lisa,
I pray to the god that you recover completely and give hope to others.
I would also request you to use simple language. Your blog seems like a literature book rather than being informative.
May god bless you.
Haridip
Did I ?
🙂
‘Habib’ Lisa
‘ No one deserves to live like this’ …. sounds familiar 😀 – well, you definitely do not deserve to have MMC but I am sure you are :-
L Looking
I Incredibly
S Strong, Sexy :D, Stunning, Smiling etc etc etc
A Always
Sleep well 😀
MF
Thank you for one of the funniest things I’ve read in a long time. And I’m totally with you. I, personally, want to know where the heck my consolation prize has gone off to. When they tell you you have a life-threatening illness, you should at least get a lifetime supply of rice-a-roni or something.
Lisa,
You’re looking gorgeous hun! And your intellect simply shines beautifully through these blogs. Smart, pretty and funny…don’t get much better than that.
The room is looking lovely with the yellow! Hope you are feeling well today.
Keep the blogs coming…Love you and praying for you!
From New Orleans with love!!
Was having a somewhat challenging day at work, until I read your blog this evening. The dilemma of the “moon face” made me smile. Of course, then I thought should you be making us smile? Or should it be the other way around?
Why do we become uncomfortable when engaging ourselves with individuals facing certain challenges in life? Why is it so difficult for us to be at ease with others, much less ourselves?
Thanks for allowing us to smile with you.
Full Disclosure is a tough act. No ready for that yet.
WHY DOES ANYONE GET CANCER? TREACHEROUS…..it turns our body into our own enemy??? :(. I wish I was God….Why is GOD ALWAYS Silent….I just do not trust people who speak in God’s name!
Patrick Swayze died today…am crying..he was such a lovely person. He said something amazing..”I am just an individual who is LIVING with Cancer”……yeah..that’s how it is. We live with ourselves and lot’s of other things in this world..and there is a world inside our bodies !!!!!
And we are not always surrounded by friends..BUT if we stand up for ourselves..those waiting to help and support us can reach out..coz we are now ready to look! What do they say…God CAN ONLY HELP those who help themselves :)!!!
Love and more love Lisa…get well right now 🙂
hi!
well as far as materialistic benefits of ca patient are concerned,u get a 50% reduction on air and rail fare……iam sure there must b something ov this kind in canada as well.other benefit includes writing ur experiences($$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$!!!!!),making friends while taking chemo/radio therapy,starting a new blog and reading comments!!!! but the most important is appreciating the gift of good health and life!
tc
maxsyin.
Dear Lisa,
Thank you for another post of yours!
I believe it doesn’t matter sometimes how hard we try to have a positive approach to life there are days in which we are feeling very vulnerable. I think those changes you are going through physically are already the process of healing, you bosy is communication with you or so I think. Your body and marrow are saying “Lisa we are now going to change things a bit, stay with us, hold on tight, you are gorgeous!”
And those changes reflects on the inside and vice versa.
I have to agree jelly fish is a very sinister creature indeed! It’s really a mistery what happens in the ocean. I never thought baout the noise they make but you made me think!
I wish we could know more about what is going on inside your bones. Maybe if we knew the reason why the cells behave do way they do we would be able to find a cure. Why does an error occurs when the cells multiply and why do they keep multiplying in an unregulated manner. If only we could understand their behavior better!
I think sometimes we feel afraid to embrace change. It’s really scary, I can understand that. We suddenly have to deal with so much and then we have to adapt ouselves to what have become our reality.
I appreciate the fact you are so honest.
I already see you as a courageous person. You have exposed yourself and let all of us see you in a way we would never thought we would be able to if it wasn’t for your honesty to start the yellow diary. I feel honored to be able to come here in your blog, read it and comment. It’s the kind of exchange I really appreaciate. You have shown so much humanity. You are simply wonderful, smart, spontaneous, an inspiration it’s all I have to say.
I made a video for you, in fact my channel is mostly dedicated to the characters you’ve played. Here is the link of a tribute. I don’t know if you will watch.
We are with you until the end and you will win this battle! Be strong, celebrate lusciousness and wear your bracelet. You’ll be beautiful there!
Btw, the opposite of NADA is TUDO in portuguese and TODO in spanish. In portuguese we sometimes say something is “tudo” when this thing is awesome, very good, it’s a slang. I could say for example “your dress is tudo” that would be very beautiful, great, a 10 out of 10.
By the way this website made me think you might like it as well. It’s about human behaviour. It’s very interactive. I hope you enjoy!
http://www.theircircularlife.it/frameset_intro.htm
Have a wonderful week!!!
Take care!
Larissa.
Just saw your interview. So good to see your smile again, to hear your laughter again. That’s the same old you!! I’m so glad to see you are doing fine.
a big hug
Sue
This is our fan groups in China, for sister’s blessing.. Hope that sister get better quickly. We all care about you …… we are all in the consulting, inspection, (on the bone marrow cancer information and treatment) we have asked Chinese medicine, consulting China Bone Marrow Bank, the blood bank. We can not share with you the pain of the disease. We do only these. Although it is small, but we feel good about them points. All messages many people, I just Zhuantie a part of everyone ( everbody requirements). now though we can not in many parts of China opening up foreign sites. but , everybody care about you.
some of message : (I was the first message of the (*^__^*))
1(Evayan):为lisa sister祈祷的请进,并留下你鼓励的话
I believe that the also identified lisa sister will be fine together and everything would get better. 一切都会好起来的,我们会和姐姐一起走过的。
2ip(123.130.158.*): 为lisa sister祈祷的请进,并留下你鼓励的话
lisa you are the best one that i ever seen. you’ll be ok.dont’t worry about the trouble.
we all love you .
e-mail:tangco_yy@yahoo.com.cn
3(lisa是ss的):为lisa sister祈祷的请进,并留下你鼓励的话
lisa姐一定会好起来的
4ip(123.154.107.*):为lisa sister祈祷的请进,并留下你鼓励的话
lisa,I am your big fans from China.you are the most beautiful, intelligent woman in my heart,I love you ~!I know you are very strong,I will support you, bless you,so you are not alone.
Don’t worry about the impact of chemotherapy.Anyway,I Still love you and support you~! I hope to hear your good news,Refueling~~!!
e-mail:cj8453@163.com
(希望LZ能把我的祝福带给lisa,祝愿lisa早日康复~!)
5(lyhxin):为lisa sister祈祷的请进,并留下你鼓励的话
真的不知道该说什么
看的泪奔,Lisa请你一定照顾好自己的身体,坚强如你,加油!!!!
有很深的无力感,唯一能做的就是支持你,一如既往!!!!
6:lisa..we support you heart and soul…
you are gonna be the winner of this fight…
i’ve got faith in you like always…
7(58.48.235.*): 我们永远都支持你,你一定要快点好起来!
8回复:为lisa sister祈祷的请进,并留下你鼓励的话
可惜不会英文,为她祈福
作者:61.183.239.*2009-9-9 01:14 回复此发言
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9回复:为lisa sister祈祷的请进,并留下你鼓励的话
没法相信
刚刚百度了一下,现在头还晕。。。
Lisa加油啊,好好休息配合治疗,会好转的
作者:会跳舞的茜多2009-9-9 09:33 回复此发言
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10 回复:为lisa sister祈祷的请进,并留下你鼓励的话
全世界唯一的Lisa姐姐一定会好起来的~~~~
作者:全世界唯一的你2009-9-9 16:18 回复此发言
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11 回复:为lisa sister祈祷的请进,并留下你鼓励的话
如果是真的 希望把全世界的幸运带给她 更加的希望只是个谣言
作者:liseva2009-9-9 19:52 回复此发言
12为lisa sister祈祷的请进,并留下你鼓励的话
这是真的吗?我不敢相信,真的很难过。
作者:58.18.151.*2009-9-10 10:50 回复此发言
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13 回复:为lisa sister祈祷的请进,并留下你鼓励的话
我们是不是可以给也比对一下,也许我们中的哪个人就有这样的幸运呢?
能不能想办法和她联系一下,看她需要什么样的骨髓进行移植。
我很愿意捐献自己的。
如果有可能,请呼吁一下,我相信会有很多人愿意的,何况对自己的身体并没有什么损害。
请帮忙呼吁一下吧!
让我们行动起来!
作者:谦谦君子G2009-9-10 12:54 回复此发言
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14 回复:为lisa sister祈祷的请进,并留下你鼓励的话
我愿意为Lisa捐献骨髓,甚至献出生命。
请与我联系,在续文《与爱同行》里,或我的博客里留言。
我会时刻关注的。
作者:谦谦君子G2009-9-10 12:58 回复此发言
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15 回复23:为lisa sister祈祷的请进,并留下你鼓励的话
好的,我正有此意,
作者:Evayan
16为lisa sister祈祷的请进,并留下你鼓励的话
很伤心…..祝福LISA姐早点好起来…..
作者:222.70.153.*2009-9-10 15:13 回复此发言
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17 回复:为lisa sister祈祷的请进,并留下你鼓励的话
Lisa, 相信你的乐观与坚强一定能够战胜病魔,快快好起来,我们会每天为你祈祷,祝你早日康复。永远爱你!
作者:几时归去2009-9-10 16:35 回复此发言
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18 回复:为lisa sister祈祷的请进,并留下你鼓励的话
希望LISA能够坦然面对
不知她的血型是什么,但愿能找到匹配的骨髓,想来喜欢她的人是乐意捐献的
——小叶子
19这是真的嘛?真不敢相信!我现在好难过啊!真想给lisa姐说些什么,可惜英文不好,悲!不过我相信lisa姐一定会好起来的,加油!
作者:218.205.237.*2009-9-11 00:19
为lisa sister祈祷的请进,并留下你鼓励的话
不敢相信这是真的,昨天有人在群里说LISA病了,没以为是什么大病,可是今天看到这个消息真的很难过了,又想起ICTS电影里她的一颦一笑来。。。。希望她可以坚强面对,尽快好起来。。。
作者:lkhaijingfang2009-9-11 19:21 回复此发言
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32 回复:为lisa sister祈祷的请进,并留下你鼓励的话
不知道说什么 默默支持 为她祈祷
作者:60.219.167.*2009-9-11 19:46 回复此发言
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33 回复:为lisa sister祈祷的请进,并留下你鼓励的话
刚刚才看到这帖,看着眼泪就留下来了.
骨髓癌么?
被吓到了..
希望lisa不要有什么事才好
你, 一定要好起来!
by:Lace_Edge
作者:211.142.189.*2009-9-11 22:30 回复此发言
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34 回复:为lisa sister祈祷的请进,并留下你鼓励的话
like your smile.
Pls smile to the life and Be strong.
We Pray for you.
作者:222.181.86.*2009-9-11 22:55 回复此发言
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35 回复:为lisa sister祈祷的请进,并留下你鼓励的话
有谁知道lisa的血型是多少?
如果一样的话,我考虑去捐献骨髓,
虽然配对成功的机会很渺茫,
但多个人多个机会吧.
作者:Lace_Edge2009-9-12 09:28 回复此发言
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36 回复:为lisa sister祈祷的请进,并留下你鼓励的话
Dear L,
I’ve never seen such overwhelming work, your act with Sheetal Sheth made me burst into tears.
Everyone is so deeply attracted by you, we watch and talk about the two fims over n over again, just can’t stop it.
We love you soooo much…You are just like a queen, beautiful, telligent, and talented~~Haaaa
These words come all the way from China, with hope and love. We want you to know that wherever you are, there’ll always be so many people loving you, supporting you.
Every day and night we pray, though so far from your place, for we believe the power of love is the strongest.
Everyone has a hard time, but this won’t be your hard time. For we are all standing here, with you.
Be strong Lisa!! We are looking forward to your new works!! Everything’s gonna be all right. Just, lift your head up high.
Cos we are all by your side. We love you. The whole world is yours.
——Your fans from Shanghai, China
加油!!!
作者:61.171.96.*2009-9-12 22:13 回复此发言
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40 回复:为lisa sister祈祷的请进,并留下你鼓励的话
如果可以我也愿意为LISA捐献骨髓……
作者:218.75.24.*2009-9-14 10:14 回复此发言
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41 回复:为lisa sister祈祷的请进,并留下你鼓励的话
看到了Lisa近期的照片,她人变化挺大,不知道她心里感受如何,我难过地想掉泪。
朋友们,让我再想想办法!
让我们再想想办法!
作者:谦谦君子G2009-9-14 12:59 回复此发言
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42 回复:为lisa sister祈祷的请进,并留下你鼓励的话
我宁愿相信这一切都是传言的,若是真的,请你一定坚强勇敢乐观面对,坚信你一定会好起来的,关注你\祝福你到永远……
作者:219.146.151.*2009-9-14 20:03 回复此发言
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43 回复:为lisa sister祈祷的请进,并留下你鼓励的话
Lisa是个勇敢的女人。换成别的明星得了这样严重的病,未必会公开,多半出于怕影响自己事业和人气的担心。但是Lisa却用勇敢而坦诚的态度来面对,这让我在心痛之余又不禁感到肃然起敬。这几天我一直很忧虑,几个晚上都没睡好觉了,在网上搜索了好多,都没看到非常理想的疗法,说是骨髓移植也不是太好的办法。但是我国有些大的中医医院却有一些效果不错的方子,有些病人持续服用了好几年状况都蛮好的。我觉得我们这些真心爱Lisa的人不应该只是单纯的在这里担心、祈祷,我们都应该调动起自己的力量,尽可能的去搜索或者打听那些有实际病例的有效的中药方,然后发到吧里再由LZ贴到Lisa的博客和官网上告诉她,供她作为参考!还有,Lisa的治疗师也是一位华人医师姓林的好像啊?也许Lisa真的跟我们中国人还有中医药有缘,也希望她的这位治疗师能不负我们这些中国fans所望,中、西医结合用最好的疗法和药物为Lisa进行妥善的治疗,让Lisa的身体和精神保持尽可能好的状态,并且活得长长久久,笑得开开心心!虔诚祈祷中。。。。。。
作者:落寞弃儿2009-9-14 21:26 回复此发言
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44 回复:为lisa sister祈祷的请进,并留下你鼓励的话
TO 歉歉
我们唯一实际点的就是捐献骨髓吧,
这两天有时间就去血液库了,
试试吧,
这是我唯一能为她做的了.
(心里一直很难受)
Lace_Edge
作者:211.142.189.*2009-9-14 22:50 回复此发言
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45 回复:为lisa sister祈祷的请进,并留下你鼓励的话
我非常喜欢她塑造的tala,爱死她了!!我一直不愿相信lisa得了这么重的病,这些天一直牵挂着她,今天到这里得到证实,我的心真的好疼啊!我是AB型的,如需要请与我联系,我的QQ369956864,只要她能好起来,我乐意为她付出!
作者:121.232.20.*2009-9-14 23:09 回复此发言
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46 回复:为lisa sister祈祷的请进,并留下你鼓励的话
能不能用气功治疗?
作者:125.83.31.*2009-9-15 07:27
47 回复:为lisa sister祈祷的请进,并留下你鼓励的话
我4年前相关资料就在中华骨髓库备份,只要lisa能用的着,随时可以拿去用。我愿意报名。算我一个。
First here ,tomorrow to continue to upload…..
( Hope it will not be said this is irrigation(灌水))
Hi Lisa:
Hope you are doing good.
I am really shocked by reading about your illness. I am very big fan of yours since I have seen you in Afreen Afreen. I just want to tell you please never loose your hopes all your fans around the world are praying for your health.
I live here in Toronto, nowdays its holy month of Ramzan. For Muslims its a month when we are very close to GOD and woship more than usual. From today I will pray to GOD everyday for your health. Tomorrow we will have a big prayer day in our mosque and I will pray for you with all my heart and I am sure GOD will hear.
Please read this dua (prayer) if possible everyday and believe in yourself and trust on GOD. Our prophet Muhammad (SAW) used to recite the following dua:
“O Lord of the people, remove this pain and cure it, You are the one who cures and there is no one besides You who can cure, grant such a cure that no illness remains”.
InshaAllah you will get well soon. GOD bless you.
We all love you very much.
Hi Lisa:
I am sending you this again, it will really work please see below:
Please read this dua (prayer) if possible everyday and believe in yourself and trust on GOD. Our prophet Muhammad (SAW) used to recite the following dua:
“O Lord of the people, remove this pain and cure it, You are the one who cures and there is no one besides You who can cure, grant such a cure that no illness remains”.
InshaAllah you will get well soon. GOD bless you.
We all love you very much.
Dearest Lisa Ray,
You inspired me with your performance in “Water” and you have now inspired me to start my own blog about my own journey living with Lupus (lupusface.wordpress.com). Thank you for being so strong. Thank you for making us all feel strong.
My thoughts and prayers are with you. We’re going to make it.
Your fellow moon-faced lady,
Elena
Lisa,
Keep strong, girl. I know it’s hard. You can do it. Sometimes slipping and falling into ego is ok. It happens, so don’t fret yourself too much. You just have to sit back, take a cleansing breath and put it in perspective. I know you’re going to do great. You’re so gorgeous, by the way. I am absolutely stunned by how pretty you are. Never doubt that and never forget we’re all supporting you.
with much love,
S.
How stupid i m u know what i leave comment on this blog yesterday but i submit that in ur 7’th blog’s comments, i told u na i have no knowledge of using internet now i m learning this only for u no actualy 4 myself bcos i think i like u but i m not able to find WHY? PLEASE read my comment in ur 7’th blog comments, if possible. TAKE CARE.
Sad to hear about Patrick Swayze. You are courageous just like him, sharing your battle and continuing to live with hope and determination.
Be positive.. and love everyone..Search of fingerprints, scent or someone’s breath left behind would always give you hope and positive energy..give you some respite..you know what I mean…
LIVE EVERY MOMENT .. TODAY AND ALWAYS…
Loved your movies…
Anshu
Hai Lisa,
I am a biggest fan of you from madras. I would like to meet you or atleast let me have a glimpse of you. Please reply.
Hi lizzy!!!
How you doing?
Just wanted to say i love you and I’m praying for you.
I urge everyone of our fellow yellow diary members to sit back and take a minute of there precious life and make a heart felt prayer for her.
Lizzy if you don’t believe in miracles then we do and we are going to perform one for you.
Dear Lisa,
Keep up your spirits.
Member of your club without a card
salut lisa
just pour te dire un enooorme je t’aime, i love you sooo much
(my english is not perfect:) i know you’ll get better, there is no question about it, you are a such strong person, and i would looove to meet you one day…
je t’aime je t’aime je t’aime
ChakraSiddh.com In today’s modern world, human s ufferings from various health disorders are increasing at an alarming pace. Reasons for this could be umpteen number, viz sedentary life, improper dietary habits, mental stress/fatigue, and improper sitting postures.
Despite constant research and development by the scientists of the pharma industry to identify new molecules, to treat chronic health disorders, pain and suffering continues. Health disorders of mankind are surfacing in different dimensions.
People are vexed with present day diagnosis and treatment methodologies. Hence there is a constant search for an alternative medication, which can provide relief from chronic problems in a painless ways of treating health disorders and to lead a better and healthier life.
Nadi Vaidyam/Siddha Vaidyam, a branch of Kriya Yoga is the answer to all chronic and painful health disorders which is noted as alternative system of Healing.
Kriya yoga is derived from a Sanskrit word “Kri” referring to action and “Ya” referring to awareness. Thus kriya is a practical yogic technique done with awareness. The Siddhas developed many such Kriyas. The purpose of these Kriyas or techniques is to awaken the Chakras, Purify the Nadis. Kriyas are practiced by the Siddhas to strengthen the psycho-physical centres and channels(Nadis) to cleanse the energy blocks, to permit the transmission of positive energy, as well as to keep the body free from impurities, functional disorders and diseases.
The Siddhas or “Perfected Ones” developed a system of medicine known as the Siddha System of healing, which can be traced to the pre-vedic period. The word “Siddha” is derived from its root Siddhi”, which generally refers to the perfection of the aims of yogic self discipline. Siddhas under took a systemic study of nature and its elements and developed a highly systematized medicine and process of rejuvenation. The Siddha system of healing with out medicine or “Siddha Vaidya” as is known today is one of the four systems of medicine recognized officially in India.
What is Chakrasiddh Nadi Vaidyam?
The best known alternative therapy today, Nadi Vaidyam, of course on the manipulation of the spine and other joints to help treat a variety of problems involving bones, joints, nerves, muscles, ligaments, and tendons. Nadi Vaidyam practitioners primarily use their hands to apply pressure to a joint or group of joints. This treatment is known as an “adjustment” or a “manipulation.” The aim of using manipulation is to provide relief for pain or stiffness, and to improve postural defects as well as the function of nerves, joints, and muscles. Spinal manipulation has been practiced for thousands of years.
Nadi Vaidyam Works – It’s As Simple As That
Nadi Vaidyam help the body to heal itself by trying to correct the source of a problem, not just eliminate symptoms. Many a times the source of a health problem is a spinal misalignment, which interferes with the nerve supply to a tissue or organ. This nerve interference can lead to pain, immune system malfunctions, and ultimately disease. A specialist can detect, correct and prevent these nervous system interferences with dexterity. This means he can help people to live without pain, improve their range of mobility, increase resistance to disease, and maximize body’s ability to heal.
How Nadi Vaidyam Helps Restore Your Health
The nervous system is composed of the brain, spinal cord and the nerves which branch off and go to and from tissues and organs. The brain is protected by the skull, and the spinal cord is protected by 24 movable bones (the vertebrae) which make up the spinal column. Nervous system is in direct control of all organs, tissues and cells.
Pairs of nerve roots exit the spine in between two vertebrae. When a vertebra becomes misaligned or doesn’t move properly, it can irritate and damage a nerve. This is called a subluxation.
Interruption of the nerve supply affects corresponding organs, tissues and systems in the body. It can cause back pain, neck pain, headaches and radiating pain down your arms or legs, and countless other symptoms from diminished energy to insomnia, menstrual cramps and indigestion.
So, what contributes to the improper movement and positioning of the vertebrae? Many things, including sports injuries, car accidents, improper lifting, improper sitting posture, Daily stress, anxiety, poor diet, and even day today activities can also cause subluxations. Even the process of birth many times causes injury to a baby’s fragile spine.
A Nadi Vaidyam specialist can identify and correct subluxations in the spine. Once he detects nervous system interference, he will recommend a program tailored specifically to suit every patient. To help restore your health, he will give you specific adjustments to restore proper movement and position of the vertebrae in the spine.
hi my name is sri ranga manchukonda im from vizag i had heard that ur suffering from cancer im giving u a suggestion 2 improve ur health that is
Out of so many Success Stories we are presenting a few of them
Relief from Cancer [Click here to view Blood Report]
My name is P. Sasikala, 56 years, working in a Public Sector as Manager.
In 1999 I had a slight pain in my lower abdomen. The gastro-enterologist.diagonised it as polyps and conducted a polipectomy. He could remove only one and the other which was sessile and small was not removed. I suspect that this polyp later become malignant.
In 2004 there was blood in my stools. When homoeoopathic medicine did not provide any relief, I was operated for fissure first and later treated for piles. However, since there was still no relief both from pain and the bleeding, I consulted another gastro enterologist who took a colonoscopy and then a needle biopsy. A tumour was then found to be existing in the rectum. I then visited Apollo Hospital, Chennai where I underwent surgery for a colostomy and was given radiation 25 times with another 5 booster radiation doses. Then 6 chemotherapies were planned.. But after 4 chemotherapies there was a severe Gastric problem and the intestines were very much affected , so 2 chemotherapies was dropped.
Since then, I am going for a review and check up every 3 months. But because of the radiation the affected tissue continued to bleed In August 2008, the bleeding had become more and pain in the affected parts also had increased. I was then diagonsed as suffering from secondaries at the same place. At Apollo they treated me with chemotherapy for 6 weeks and gave a break of 10 days . The CT taken at that time showed that there was a good reduction in the size of the tumour. Again , after the break chemo was given for 6 weeks. But the size of the tumor was static. I was discharged on 6.3.2009 after 4 months of chemotherapy. The doctors had given up and said I would be put on palliative treatment. In November 2008, the doctor told me that I would survive for 1 -3 months .
Meanwhile, a friend of mine told me about this treatment available at Hyderabad.. I went to Hyderabad on 23.4.2009 and my treatment was started on the very same day. The treatment spanned ten sittings spreading over a period of fifteen days. From the third sitting onwards people around me noticed the improvement in my face and glow in my skin texture.
Earlier, after my operation in 2006 i was not able to sit on the ground. i use to feel very heavy in my body and some one was required to help me to get up from my sitting position.. But after 6 sittings of my treatment in Hyderabad, I could sit on the ground and get up on my own with no support from others. After coming home I am able to walk with the same stride as I was able to earlier.
My treatment at Hyderabad was over on 6th of May and I went to Chennai for my regular review check up on 14th of May. Doctors after clinical checkup said that there was no necessity forany scan and that only blood test (CBC) was enough. The blood reports also were good and everything was normal. My HB count was also better than ever in my life. The doctors werea also plesantly surprised at my recovery. All this is the result of the treatment I had with the HEALER at Hyderabad.. I am indebted to HER who treated me and gave me another life. I sincerely thank HER Today, I am feeling fine and well –
My contact details are as under
P.Sashikala
#201, RAILVIHAR Apartments,
Beside Nalanda Talent School,
Near Eenadu, TPT Colony,
VISAKHAPATNAM,
A.P.,
Mobile No.9963972666
hi Lisa,
I m not feeling sorry for you. coz i know that you are gonna fight it out. You r fighting and its gpoing on . nothing to feel sorry abt coz u r not gonnalose the battle.
love you
Dear. LISa..
———–
nothing else
we all here for you
and.. you can do it.. right?
i trust you.. and you should trust me, we all can make it over like nothing happened…………
i love you!
Lisa
You can beat this!!!!!
5 years ago I was diagnosed with Esophageal Cancer, the second most deadly cancer only to Pancreatic.
It too was thought to be an “old man’s disease” however, I am neither a man or old. LOL.
Diagnosed at age 44, underwent major surgery, chemo and radiation. The latter almost killed me but if I can come back from this so can you.
Forget about the stats, you are not a number, you are a person.
Keep up the attitude, I truly believe that it is the hardest part of the battle.
Take Care
Nancy
http://www.serendopeity.wordpress.com
DEAR LISA THANKS FOR SHARING THESE VERY DIFFICULT. YOUR COURAGE IS ADMIRABLE IN ADVERSITY
DO NOT WORRY ABOUT”MOON FACE” YOU”LL ALWAYS BE
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I DO NOT SPEAK NO ENGLISH, I”M HELPING THE TRANSLATOR.
WITH ALL MY HEART I WISH YOU THE BEST
GREETINGS FROM MEXICO
Hi Lisa,
I second Khurram’s post. If you just read a few verses from the Quran Im sure that you’ll feel very different.
Please try.
Love you loads
Sasha
Hey there my fellow Bengali Torontonian!
I have been a BIG fan since “Bollywood Hollywood”. You are definitely both beautiful inside out! Honestly speaking, I thought this “Cushingoid” faced pic of you was really cute actually! =)
In July I went to the M!M!M! afterparty and was really hoping to meet you because the promoters said you would be there, but unfortunately that didn’t happen =(. I don’t know if you came, but if you didn’t I now realize why you may have not wanted to.
I wanted to write you because I know you’re reading this now that you’re temporarily “unemployed”. Not a lot of people have the courage to open up about their personal battles, and you are putting out such a positive message as a role model! You’re young and have a very bubbly outlook on life and I pray that you prove that this incurable cancer is curable for you. Stay strong and have fun at TIFF!! =)<3
Keep smiling beautiful!!
xoxo
"ShePHAT"
Why do you always talk only about cancer?
Try to get your mind off it gal.
It is all in the head. If you believe you are strong, you really are.
Sir ji ,
Taliyan ! kya likha hai.
Your 20 years + 6 months stuff is taking its toll.
She has been much braver than most of us would be. She needn’t write this blog , read every comment. She can very well fight this battle with her friends and near ones. Why create this awareness and stand naked with your vulnerabilities exposed to the world.
If you have the slightest sense , you would just keep quiet.
Well but then I am happy that you wrote.
Cause Hilla’s and Katrine’s reply makes me happier.
Thank you suresh.
I believe there are many many of us that are just like me, praying for Lisa every day several times a day, praying for her full and complete recovery and that she is blessed with a future filled with health and happiness.
Again, let’s pray for Lisa, for her strength and healing.
Peace always,
Sabrina
Dear Sethuraman,
I’d like to keep you in my prayer too. I wish you’d get your ‘C-card’ before complete recovery, and get well soon. Keep smiling.:)
Best Blessings,
Sabrina
Hi Lisa,
I read about you in Times of India today. I feel sad and like many others cannot help wish to offer my two cents of wisdom if they may help.
Just back from a rigorous training of life (as in east you know its not one life there are more to follow) and mind in pure buddhist form. You live there like a monk in complete silence and learning to heal yourself from the sufferings of life.
I dont want to jump and suggest as you are intelligent, bold, even though life is challenged to an unlimited misery you are smiling. You are like a true saint. I love your spirit, your gratitude to all life has offered you till now you still respect life unlike many who question why me, i love your courage and determination. I can go on you are definitely very beautiful inside. Unmatchable. My bestwishes, love, prayers and maitri for you.
Now 🙂 cannot help but given you are intelligent and strong headed to take your own decisions I would suggest to explore this site and decide for yourself if it appeals to your intellect. http://www.dhamma.org (it is buddhism)
If you like this I would like to give you more details. you could write to me at discover.life0@gmail.com.
I wish to say a lot more but do not have words. Do you beleive like in eastern traditions in rebirth?
Pragya
no se que escribi mal,no se hablar ingles. no se que fue lo que se entedio mal, no era esa mi intencion
mil disculpas
Love and Prayers
Hina
Dear Mam,
I’ve just gone through your post,
and would like to tell you that if
you could give me a chance to treat
your MM then I’d be grateful to you forever.
I know you would be undergoing surgeries and
obviously the best possible sophisticated treatments
available.
Still I want you to take a chance with my homeopathic
medicine.
Atleast it wont carry any side effects.
Neither it will degenerate your condition.
If you think you want to give it a go, then
do let me know at my mail id provided in the
comment form
Thanks again and wish you luck at this hour of crisis.
Dr. Gourab Das.
Kolkata
India
Dear Lisa,
please don’t forget:
you deserve not only the pity of people but also their respect, admiration-and love. And not because of your desease.
Toi, toi, toi for your full remission – and the Film-Premiere on Wednesday.
Yours Nina
Dear Lisa
A new day awake
There ‘ll be bad days, there ‘ll be better days
To fight against the invisible evil , You are really capable i believe in you!
Kisses from France
Hi Lisa,
Am sincerely praying that you get well soon girl…. your positive attitude and the multitude of people praying for you from all over the world will help you beat the big “C”. Chin up… and keep smiling … you’ll soon be well again!!!
Just love your attitude … will never know what it takes to be soooo positive .. God Bless and be with you ALWAYS!!!
Kay
Hi Lisa,
Thanks for sharing your journey with the world. I can see you are an intelligent, talented, beautiful person with a great attitude about the cancer. Attitude is everything, I know you will make a full recovery. I look forward to following your life until you don’t need the support anymore. It won’t be long.
Lin
Dear Lisa,
Less metaphore than my previous message, more of daily words in this one ! I shouldn’t say that but it’s like a therapy to read your blog. Your writing is so close to what I always avoid to speak or read. My mother died from lung cancer and metastases in brain four years ago. And from this moment, I cannot speak about disease, death or cancer…
I knewed you as an actress before reading your blog… wonderful actress I should say not because you’re beautiful, but the way you play and the choice of your roles.
But now I have to say you fool me with your courage, your fight and moreover the tragic poetry of your words.
It’s quite pathetic to say your writing is kind of a little remission for me but it is ; with you, I’m less scared of cancer and disease. With you I begin to face my fears…
And I’ll carry on follow your trip in the cancer club untill your own remission…
With all my love
You know what Lisa
You are a GIFT to us too.
Dear Lisa,
live life, love life and enjoy life. Do not be afraid. There is nothing in this world which cannot be overcome. God wants the world to be a beautiful place and hence your eternal presence in it is a prerequisite. Our prayers are always with you. Keep Smiling and be happy.
lots of love
Dear Lisa,
live life, love life and enjoy life. Do not be afraid. There is nothing in this world which cannot be overcome. God wants the world to be a beautiful place and hence your eternal presence in it is a prerequisite.
lots of love
hope you have a good time at TIFF
you are beautiful and brave.
God Bless you, Ameen
Good Morning Lisa
Its 6:25 am here in Toronto, I just had my morning prayers. I prayed to GOD for your health and long life.
Just a reminder to please read this dua whenever you have time.
“O Lord of the people, remove this pain and cure it, You are the one who cures and there is no one besides You who can cure, grant such a cure that no illness remains”.
I have seen your interview at CTV, you were looking great MashaAllah.
GOD bless you.
Dear Lisa,
Great support that you have! Don’t worry .. You will be just alright, health and beauty!
How do I know? I just feel it.. 😀
Querida Lisa
Gracias por “I can´t Think Straight” y “The World Unseen”, por todos los buenos momentos que nos regalas.
En mi familia hay muchos casos de cancer así que yo decidí adquirir habitos de vida más saludables.
He tenido la suerte de que nunca me gustara fumar.
Me he informado muchísimo sobre la alimentación que es algo fundamental para evitar y combatir la enfermedad.
Sólo quería recomendarte un libro magnífico sobre el tema, del doctor David Servan (superviviente del cancer)
http://www.anticancerways.com/
The book: “Anticancer. A Way of Life ”
Dr.David Servan-Schreiber
Espero que te sirva de ayuda.
Y animo, no hay nada incurable.
Abrazos desde España.
(rectifico mi e-mail, estaba erróneo)
I dont speak english, sorry
Suite message du 14/09/2009
Extrait du livre :Le voyage de Théo
Comment faire lorsque l’on a quatorze ans et que l’on est atteint d’une maladie incurable ? La tante de Théo décide d’accompagner l’adolescent dans un voyage initiatique autour du monde, qui va le confronter aux différentes religions et lui ouvrir les portes de la sérénité. Catherine Clément nous offre une formidable et émouvante découverte des grands courants spirituels de l’humanité.
« Alors voilà, Théo, dit-elle. J’ai décidé de t’emmener faire le tour du monde. »
« Catherine Clément nous emmène à la découverte de ces divinités qui peuplent les cieux, animent notre imagination de saveurs et de couleurs aussi lointaines qu’envoûtantes
Le cheminement d’un adolescent d’aujourd’hui à la rencontre de ceux qui cherchent et témoignent, depuis des millénaires, d’une espérance face à leurs peurs. Un roman de tolérance où la liberté de croire fait partie du respect des différences. Et de trouver la guérison
Résumé du livre: la mort suspendue
La cordillère des Andes, au Pérou, en 1985. Joe Simpson et Simon Yates, deux alpinistes réunis par une même passion, s’attaquent à un nouveau défi : gravir la face ouest du Siula Grande. L’ascension des 6000 mètres de roches est une épreuve que les deux hommes traversent avec courage et persévérance. Arrivés au sommet, Yates et Simpson savourent leur victoire avant d’entamer la descente du pic. Mais celle-ci leur réserve une très mauvaise surprise : Joe est victime d’une chute et, après une longue glissade, se retrouve, la jambe cassée, suspendu à une corde retenue par Simon. Celui-ci comprend bientôt que s’il veut s’en sortir, il devra couper cette corde. C’est alors que commence son combat contre la mort, car Joe ne veut pas partir à son âge .Une rage de vivre éblouissante et la relation d’une expérience hors du commun, mais aussi les ressources infinies de l’âme et du corps humains.
Lisa,
Best of luck for this battle. I hope and wish full remission is a reality.
And, your blog is a delight to read, really. You write really well, you should write a book.
Warm Regards,
Woop
Um…. what else can I say? I was stunned by all these comments.
Huh Lisa, good day! (how speechless I am~~><)
cuddles & kisses,
-pian-
lol, i think you just set up the standards for the art of sarcasm. You are a fantastic writer.
Lisa!
I just saw your Canada interview at http://watch.ctv.ca/news/tiff-09/cooking-with-stella/#clip213017.
WOW-you’re on fire with your enthusiasm and optimism-You continue to be so classy, and sincere, and look absolutely beautiful, comfortable and classy as always!
Celebrate it and flaunt it! Good for you, that you are not hiding, and never letting Hollywood, Bollywood, and anything in between categorize you in a one-dimensional way-but instead expressing all of this as part of your humanity…strut the red carpet & know 1000’s of people around the world will be there in spirit! I hope they have a spare one, because you may just shred it up, with your fearlessness!
As I said before, we are rooting for you every day, and are amazed and inspired by your willingness to share this experience with all of us!
Though this, you are boosting our own “juice”, and helping us put things in perspective. Love your Tweets, by the way (www.twitter.com/lisaraniray)-they are so funny, insightful & adorable (the 3 tight headbands? HYSTERICAL!). I am an eternal promoter for you, as you may have seen on your FB page and on every article I find. But, I think I should no longer send the tweets to my phone as text messages, because driving on the shoulder while laughing usually gets you a big fat ticket in the tri-state area.:)
My partner Gwen and I read your blog together, and we’ve laughed and cried with you since we’ve found out. You said a while back that this cancer is not as sexy as others. Of course usually no one usually tends to think of any illness as “sexy”, as these things usually invoke fear, which is natural. But if anyone can make this sexy, it’s you, Lisa!
Thank you for your honesty, vulnerability & transparency and excavating every day to share this transformative experience with us. Never stop believing that you will come out on top, on the other side-go for it baby!
There’s no need to be size “0”. To us, your heart, soul & mind are size “Hero”.
xoxo
Sariena
“digitalbabeusa”
New Jersey, USA
hello Lisa..
i would like to inform you that i had previously wrote to you under another name (wellwisher).
ok i’m gonna make this one quick coz i’m at uni. i’m very happy to see you reflecting on things that are happening to you.. remember i told that every occurance in your life could be a blessing in disguise!? i’m glad that you’ve adopted that attitude..:D
“I guess I am still startled by the news of my latest protein work which shows near full remission. I should be ecstatic. I’m a little scared. I’m travelling back to trust. But the girl’s changed.”
i know what you mean and i think that it is completely normal that you’re taking your time to trust yourself.. i’m gonna leave you with a qoute, as promised, so that you may think about how you might find yourself again.. and be strong girl.. we love you.. and i would personally love to meet you.. maybe we would be able to one day!!! 🙂
Inspirational Quote:
If who I am is what I have, and what I have is lost then who am I?
take care sweety.. Much love from Brampton <3<3<3
Dear Lis:
Discúlpeme pero no sé inglés, espero que alguien pueda traducirle mis palabras. Soy de España y vivo en Madrid.
Desconocía su existencia hasta hace unos días que descubrí su blog; lo he ido traduciendo poco a poco y me he quedado impresionada por su espíritu, su valor y belleza. Tiene una mirada de vértigo que invita a caminar hasta el abismo de sus ojos; podría decir que su mirada es de opio, capaz de adormecer y arrastrar hasta su alma a quien le mira. Su voz me ha sonado a lágrimas pero con una fuerza arrolladora. Le aseguro que ninguna enfermedad ni medicamento alguno podrán con la luz de sus ojos ni con la belleza de su corazón, ni con el sonido de su risa que provoca mi sonrisa.
La admiro y ojalá pudiera ofrecerle algo más que esta profunda admiración y mi más tierno afecto. No hace falta que le diga que confío en su fuerza para continuar con su lucha y que estoy segura que lo conseguirá. Yo seguiré leyendo su blog cada día con el deseo de infundirle mi cariño y esperanza en cada amanecer.
Desde la oscuridad se ve mejor la luz pero hay que tener el valor de caminar hacia ella.
Un abrazo del alma, I love you
Kendra.
Dear Lisa,
Sometimes things are not in our hands but fighting is. Mind over matter.
My life changed in a month when I had a stillborn baby at 33 weeks and went back to the hospital with heart failure and was diagnosed with Mitral Valve Stenosis. Each day has been a different one with different emotions ,feelings; sometimes just numbness ,sometimes feeling thankful for the friends and family I have and the countless blessings I have.
I have felt that the constant chanting of Lords name avoids negative thoughts from entering in and helps me concentrate on the positive. Yoga is another thing that I am turning to.
I wish you all the best in your fight. You will conquer it. You will be in my thoughts when I bow before Lord Hanuman.
Buenos dias Lisa
How are you feeling today? I just read that you´re going to walk over the red carpet…excelent choice…and a good lesson for many people…I wanted to send you a picture from the corner of Spain where I live…but I can´t put it on this reply…a shame…
Well down here…autum is slowly arriving…even so…that we still have sunny days…I can´t wait for the change of the colours on the leaves and the dark blue color of the atlantic sea…
Well, like I promised…these are my lines of the day for you…
Hasta mañana Lisa…un beso
M.J.
Hi~Dear Lisa:
I am so touched about your courage
hope you will be fine.
i will follow your blog everyday~~
support you forever!
FIGHT!!!!
加油~~~(make an extra effort in Chinese)
from Taiwan
You made me smile reading this…so much of your personality comes out in it.
Continue to seek out what you need and want and look after yourself…:)
Hi Lisa
What you’re going through and the way you’ve handled it is exemplary. There’s always talk about people living in the public eye being icons and setting examples, and news such as this would completely dwarf the significance of such ideology, and it should. But the perspective that you give to such a condition, and I’m sure you would’ve met a number of people who do the same (pity they’re not celebrities too), is the base on which lives are rebuilt.
I’ve gone through a bleak condition myself, though nowhere nearly as ‘exciting’ as yours (it didn’t even have a club!), but the it too spelled a dead-end in many ways if I’d let it get its way. In those times, I too had thought of putting up a few blog posts (though I haven’t updated it since I recovered). Maybe reading them might add some yellow. http://anisgandhi.blogspot.com/
There are 2 people who I looked to for ‘yellow’ or inspiration (I’m assuming yellow, the way you refer to it, is positivity). One of them of course being Lance Armstrong – we all know about him, and what he’s achieved. The other is a lesser-known American tennis player called James Blake. He went through a phase where he banged up the apex of his spine by running into a net post with his head bent (luckily, otherwise he would’ve died on the spot), and was paralyzed for a period of time (obviously ending his tennis career) during which he lost his father to cancer as well. Such was his conviction though, that not only did he recover, but he went on to become a top-10 ranked tennis player, and a great athlete, physically, as well as mentally.
I went through a similar phase physically, and have come out on the other side fitter and more disciplined about my health and body. I’ve started listening to it more, basically.
I only hope that you pass through MM in the same way, and from your blog it already seems you’re rectifying mistakes you made earlier during your career by neglecting your body.
Lots of celebrities champion causes that they believe in, and rightly so, but it takes something else to go through something like this, and open it up for micro-observation to the world, and let them know how you stand up to it.
I’m sure folks are gonna look at Armstrong and you together for a dose of yellow pretty soon!
Lisa
I ‘ve seen your interview on Canadan AM and i feel the sadness on your voice, you’re so awesome courageous woman! You know if i was a soldier i’ll give you my weapons!
If you think you can win, you can win. Faith is necessary to victory (William Hazlitt )
Keep the faith
Sylvie
Hi Lisa,
Follow only one spiritual path, if you are serious about it.
Fight with your situation by mind & not by body.
Have faith in God in any form you like &
Just for today anger not, worry not
remain humble and grateful
do your work with appreciation
and be loving with all.
And with hands held in prayer
at night and day, sing this
with your mouth and heart.
– Mikao Usui
Wishes from India.
No new blog…….waitin
love and Prayers
Hina
Hi Lisa
You probably won’t remember but we’ve met during the filming of ‘Stella’. I was an extra – the tall New Zealand guy who you got introduced to 20-odd times at the Canadian ambassador’s residence at some cocktail party scene. I think I was supposed to be some kind of snooty UN guy. You were lovely to meet and my wife Kerry (who was there and met you too) and I still dine out on it.
We were shocked at your bad news. As it turns out, my wife’s mother has exactly the same condition as you, diagnosed a couple of years ago, and has been getting treatment in her home in NZ. She’s responded well to treatment and has exactly the same sort of positive attitude you have. She’s in her 80s. I’m sure you will both come through it.
All the very best,
David & Kerry
New Zealand HC, Delhi
Don’t give up lisa… Be Strong…
Yaar,why u not write new blog. OK try to do one thing in ur next blog write ur one happiest moment of past life but remember one thing when u write u have to feel the magic of that happiness in the same way as u feel in past and make sure that this moment [which u have 2 remember] gives the same vibration of energy and joy as u feel it in past. U know it works,it gives u energy and +ve feeling of hapines . Could u bealive,my whole day passed in just thinking of u [i m not talking about today but the every day i feel same] ,u r always in my mind even if i m working,driving or even when i m talking 2 anybody i told this not 2 make u happy but to tell u that this makes me smile even in my tuf times. SO, PLEASE U TRY TO DO THE SAME. tumhe kuch nhi hoga . TAKE CARE.
Hi, Lisa,
It’s a daily custom to say hello to you as possible as I can access the net. I will go out for the traveling tomorrow. Wish during the days that I can’t come everything will be fine. Support you as always.
Hi Lisa, I have just started reading your posts and they are addictive. You write so well and the humour and courage you bring to your illness is wonderful. I lost my mother to breast cancer when she was only 39 and I was only 8. I remember her attitude always being one of survival, strength and smiles (at least, that is what she showed me). She lived 10 years with breast cancer, got married and had a child. And that was in the 80s, when treatments were not nearly as advanced. Anyway, I am writing to tell you of an excellent resource in Toronto called Wellspring. They provide non-medicinal cancer support for free to patients and their families. They offer a lot of Eastern and alternative forms of therapies for many types of cancer. If you are looking for that kind of support, check them out. I used to work there, so I know how much they help people who feel lost with the disease. http://www.wellspring.ca All the best with your full recovery! Joy + love, Meera
WRITE, PLEASE!!!!!!
YOU GIVE STRENGTH TO US THAT WE TOLERATE THIS BAD WORLD.
Thnx Baby.
Hi Lisa,
I am a resident of Prabhadevi and have seen you while you were staying in Bombay Dyeing’s Beach Towers in Prabhadevi….
I am a big fan of yours and I wish that you recover from this phase and live a long and healthy life…….
Take care
Sarwottam
Sending you lots of love and prayers, Lisa.
We just got The World Unseen and I Can’t Think Straight dvds in the mail recently and, my goodness! what an incredible actress you are!
I just found out about your illness and read your blog. What an incredible human being you are. And you WILL beat this thing!
Dear Lisa,
I pray for you and wish I could do more,
But more I cannot do from far away.
Like leaves before the wind we cannot stay,
Ripped dancing, dancing to the forest floor.
I wish I could your ailing health restore
And bring you to the strength of yesterday,
But all we mortal souls can do is pray
That God might alter what we have in store.
The beauty in our fragile life is love,
The only thing that makes the moment matter,
The golden thread that binds us all in light.
I wish, I wish I could your pain remove,
But like a wall the truth my will must shatter,
And so I send my prayers into the night.
Bless you get well soon Lisa Love you
Hello Lisa,
Thank you for sharing your story about your fight with Multiple Myeloma!!! I saw you on Canada AM yesterday. Your humour and charm radiate from within, you are a kindred spirit! You are correct, we need to create awareness about this rare blood cancer. Unlike you I was a caregiver for two years… Let me share my story with you… Glenn, my husband, best friend and soul mate died two years to the date that he was diagnosed of Multiple Myeloma on May 31st of this year….. . I wish I would have done more to ease his pain. Watching him die was truly the most difficult thing I have ever done. So now I want to give. I want to help others that also suffer from this terrible disease. With the help of family and friends I have put together a fundraiser ~ Glenn’s Wish ~ to facilitate the purchase of a plasmapherises machine (Glenn had a high concentration of IgM protein) for our local hospital, so that those suffering need not to travel to Hamilton from the Niagara Peninsula to obtain life saving treatments, like we had to do. We recently completed Part 1 of many of our fundraising efforts (there are many more to come to reach our goal): Dan Paulin (Danny Zzzz), a generous soul donated his time for the cause. Dan is a brilliant entertainer, a hypnotist, mentalist, magician; he has regaled audiences from California to Nova Scotia. (www.DannyZzzz.com). Dan thought very highly of Glenn, they were a “Father and Son Team”. Laughter is such a good medicine, specially when you are grieving…. the line between crying for your loss and laughing is so fine, somehow Dan makes that leap to laughter so easy to attain and I am thankful for his gifts as I enter a new phase of my life. We all need a little magic in our worlds…
As you can see we have a huge goal to attain… Achieving this goal will make and immense difference in the lives of many people in our Niagara Peninsula….
Best Wishes on the red carpet! “Each day is a gift”
Thank you for being part of my Journey!
Namasté,
Mónica.
Lisa
It’s nearly time to sleep in France, i know you had a busy day, i mean you interview on Canada AM… and i know that tomororw wil be a great and hard day for your film’s premiere Cooking with Stella (wow you used a french word) so i wish you good luck, i cross my fingers and don’t forget there’s a impenetrable fortress around you! I’will have a thought for you!
France love you Lisa
Lisa – Please keep us posted with the name that you give your dress that you wear tomorrow at the Gala premiere at the Toronto Film Festival. I like the warm image conjured up by the name “Red Carpet Proud” as a possible contender, since red is such a warm color; since Deepa Mehta described you in such glowing terms; and since you possess the sensibilities to absorb all the light like a perfect crystal, reflecting back such beautiful, warm rays to all those captivated by your illuminating presence. I am sure that you will look stellar.
Hey!
Sounds great you’re taking advantage of it instead of being beaten by self-pity in your coach! Trying to get the prerrogatives is the bright side.
And about model-shape / not thin….oh gosh forget about that, don’t you believe when people say you’re beautiful??it’s not aboute being in Vogue’s cover, it’s much more than that and you have it!! 😉
xoxo
hello
you are stunningly cute with your moon face.
my heart is with you.
Take care.Rest more.Blog a bit.
with best wishes,
Dear Lisa,
I feel a bit strange about the fact that I come here every night before I go to bed. And each time I enter this space, I struggle for words….
Hope you have great time at the screening (Cooking with Stella) tomorrow.
Love and hugs
hey Lisa…. i have become habitual of reading your blogs daily and see the comments of the people as well…..i thought u would have posted a new blog but it is still the same one…. 😦
I completely agree with Pinky who wants you to write on good moments of your life which will give you the energy to fight against this disease…share some good memories as well…good and bad are part of the life……
And the moon shaped face is really looking cute…. :)…..all the best…….and wish u come out of this soon……
Close your eyes, open your heart
concentrate hard, get ready to start.
It is almost time to lift off and fly.
Believe in yourself and you’ll fly very high.
Open your wings, spread them out
This is what flying is all about.
I know you can make it through this test.
Come on now. Do your best.
Now that you can fly and soar,
You can enter that successful door.
Love and Prayers
Hina
Dear Lisa,
I wish you strength and success for tomorrow!:-)
You will be beautiful!
I am waiting for your blog about your feelings at the festival opening.
Take care!
Kati from Hungary
your writing is elegant and evocative; the images you invoke are beautiful and powerful. words help heal, and by sharing how you feel, how you visualize what’s happening, you drain potency away from the beast in your marrow by not allowing it to feed on your fear or frustration. you’re beautiful, you’re alive and you’re fighting a difficult opponent, but you’re not fighting it alone.
xoxoxo
🙂 Lisa, i’ll start with a smile and will end it with one too…
I love your blog. It’s inspirational, simple, pure and genuine. I look forward every day to reading a new post.
Written with purity, love and honesty is something rare to find and i’d like to give you something – my time…time to be there for you when you need to talk to someone; time for you to talk random things with a random person (!); time for you to let go of yourself and be open; time for you when you need someone’s time … and I genuinely mean that.
Through this blog, I have found a somewhat strange bond/connection with you. Your soul is pure, and will take you far in life…
Spirituality has helped me a long way in this life and some books may be of help to you too:
– ‘The Secret’ by Rhonda Bryne
– ‘The Power of Now’ – Eckhart Tolle
– Deepak Chopra’s website – inspirational and a great read (http://deepakchopra.com/)
I hope these help you in some way Lisa… I would love to hear from you individually and talk to you. I have no doubt that with your beautiful soul you will get better soon…
Happy and privileged to talk to you at any time …whether it be as a stranger, friend, connection, fellow human being… whatever you may wish to name it… my time is here for you. Happy to share my details with you.
Sending hope and light…
🙂
… Sweet dreams Lisa …
10.13pm (London)
🙂
Dearest Lisa,
From some of the comments above, I just want to emphasize that eventhough we are all very eager and happy to read any new post from you on this blog, what is most important is that YOU TAKE CARE of YOURSELF first. Please take care of your health and listen to your body, its every signs…
Please write only because you have the need for it, feel the urge for it and feel HAPPY doing it and not because you owe us anything…
Happiness and all the positive feelings/ energy will keep you strong/ stronger and YOU WILL WIN this battle!
You owe it to yourself first to be fully recovered ASAP because we (fans, friends and your family) admire you, we need you and we love you…
God bless you, always…
LC
Dear Lisa:
I don’t know if this reaches you but just check these sites for awareness/knowledge/support groups:
http://www.empowHer.com
http://www.cancercompass.com
And if you can then just make a call to Cancer Treatment Centers of America and I am sure you’ll walk the yellow sunshine and plant a tree. Their website is:
http://www.cancercenter.com
-Tanmay
Hi Lisa!
You have always been my inspiration..from the time I wanted to get into modelling and my genes betrayed me, leaving me shorter than most of my tall family members;)…but then there you were..shinning bright among all th tall-ies!
and today you still continue to inspire me..fighting this monster with the bravest most cheerful attitude I have seen on anyone..
you WILL come out shinning..I know you will..
today I was battling some insecurities when I came by this news about you on youtube (was out of touch with civilization for the last couple of months..I am working as an A.D in malayalam films)..I was not sure how to react because I just logged on to see your video (afreen)..now I know what to do..thanks for being my ray of hope yet again Lisa..
Keep that smile going..round faced or otherwise, you are still one of the most beautiful woman the world has seen..
Love you tons..will include you in my daily prayers..
love
Parvati Nair
Still no new bloggg…….waitin……..
Love and Prayers
Hina
Well said, Sariena. Man, you’re a really good writer, too, just like Lisa! Great post!
Lisa –
Had to write again regarding this post. Your words will not leave my mind today. In my daily life/work calendar book, I carry 3 pieces of writing that I read each day (at some point in the day). They have meant so much to me, in fact, have healed me in many circumstances. They are: Amazing Peace by Maya Angelou, 1 Corinthians, Chapter 13 and The Law of Nature by Payton Conway March.
As of today, I’m adding Lisa Rani Ray’s quote:
You cannot return the same when you meet yourself under trying conditions. You cannot return the same.
Again, thank you for sharing your life, thoughts and soul under these most trying of circumstances.
Luci
I could not agree more with yellowsunshine.
“Please write only because you have the need for it, feel the urge for it and feel HAPPY doing it and not because you owe us anything…”
Lisa, the most important thing is that YOU TAKE CARE of YOURSELF first. To live your life and cope with life’s challenges on your own terms. You made the world a more beautiful place. THIS WORLD NEEDS YOU AND WE NEED YOU.
Please always focus on the light. Feel free to use the Cancer Card; consider that as part of the journey.
Best of luck on your adventure at TIFF.
Much love & light,
Sabrina
I could not agree more with yellowsunshine.
“Please write only because you have the need for it, feel the urge for it and feel HAPPY doing it and not because you owe us anything…”
Lisa, the most important thing is that YOU TAKE CARE of YOURSELF first. To live your life and cope with life’s challenges on your own terms. You made the world a more beautiful place. THIS WORLD NEEDS YOU AND WE NEED YOU.
Please always focus on the light. Feel free to use the Cancer Card; consider that as part of the journey.
Best of luck on your adventure at TIFF.
Much love & light,
Sabrina
Lisa Rani:
You are still the darling of Canada – if you don’t believe me, witness the reception Wednesday at TIFF.
Get well soon and get lots of sleep.
Ciao
I look forward to your blog each time you post. I just love the honesty, humor, seriousness, truth and being you show. I thought before you were an amazing actress… still do… but the person you are growing towards and finding within yourself is incredible. The mind gives us all those sayings that our heart wants to punch, but that’s apart of living. Keeping your head up and moving towards living instead of running scared the other way. Thank you for your truth. Thank you for your bravery. Thank you for sharing yourself and your battle. Thank you for reminding me that the beauty in life is within your spirit. I can’t even imagine the journey you must be on but appreciate that you continue to share it with so many! Much peace, many hugs and bundles of smiles to you!
Lisa, you have a wonderful and powerful soul…This MM enters slowly into your body in 2008 (with Uranus opposition Saturn making a square with your strong planetary position : the conjonction Venus-Saturn-Mars opposition Neptune) and when this two guys (Saturne and Uranus) square your Moon (the Mother) you lost your mother. This planetary position has many sides : 1) the talent for acting and express yourself dramatically, a mystical side of yourself that arrives into your live in a dramatic way like your cancer, and in the other side, this aspects gives you the need to find a deep relationship with somebody (but you don’t have scare to be alone)…be careful with a tendency to give a image that you are strong all the time (we know that) and that you keep in control the things when some days it will be better for you to be fragile, like a child and ask for support, tell your needs, search for love or for a big hug with some tears….
But you have a strong horoscope with greats aspects that will give a force to transform your life (Ave Fenix) and the life of people around you. You will never give up…this makes you more and more beautiful than ever…The people who love’s you for your beautiful body and your sensuality will love’s you even more for the woman who you are : courageous, intelligent, powerful, rebel and free….You have to write a book, because this terrible and dramatical experience will develop in you the talent to write….
I will love to have your hour of birth ! to know more from your horoscope
Love and love and more love to you…A BIG HUG
PD : Bobcat is really handsome
“I guess I am still startled by the news of my latest protein work which shows near full remission. I should be ecstatic. I’m a little scared. I’m travelling back to trust. But the girl’s changed.”
First Things First: CONGRATULATIONS!!!!
The journey can be a scarey one indeed Lisa welcome aboard come sit next to me for a moment.
Moving On: When I was initially diagnosed I refused to I play my hand of “pity” cards, Yeesss I have More than one card.
Over time I began to understand that what I considered fierce independence , was seen by others as aloofness. When I finally let my shield down I began to understand that the characteristic of my “fierce independence” , my “Go It Alone Strategy” was really a wall I had erected out of the fear that allowing someone to get close to me would reveal vulnerability. I dismantled the wall and people were there, almost as if they had been waiting.
And those pity cards I hadn’t played were not pity cards at all, rather they are “Hey! A little empathy and understanding please” cards.
I mean it really was unacceptable that my nervous system was being assaulted, that my body was changing, that now I have to work at achieving the physical attributes that were always there before, although I’m not so sure if it’s because of age or illness, it’s still work. But one can achieve a working semblance of normalcy it light of the situation.
Medication taken daily or in my case the oral medication taken daily AND the weekly injections, are part and parcel of “change” aaahhhh yes the price of remission can be a costly one. But it’s remission for however long it is it’s remission. Embrace it, Celebrate it.
You are becoming stronger in every possible way, ‘traveling from out to in’, as you say.
Here’s to your journey. Here’s to you.
Enjoy TIFF!
lisa don’t worry about the moon face and the loosing ur figures to steroids……all will be well once u attain complete remission…..i think by the time u get well u will have the knowledge of an average pathologist and can can bring about a classic presentation on the topic…… all the best
Loved the post. I was a nurse of a thirteen year old who came in for chemo every friday night and we would request disco songs off the radio. She came in one night during the week with a fever insisting they play “shake your booty”. It being midweek, it was a “love song requests show”. She got on the phone and cried, asking them “can’t you just play the song for a little girl with cancer?” man, she knew how to play it up- still, didn’t hear the song though. We settled for her CD of the Partridge Family- good times.
Lisa, I love your role in Kasoor and Water and would really love to see you in many more movies….but at the moment, I would rather see you taking absolute care of yourself…
I wish you all the strength in the world and Please don’t stop fighting…! You are a very strong and beautiful (in and out) human being.
I salute your fortitude to come out in the public and why not? after all we’re all here to support you endlessly…
you go girl..!!
Hey Lisa, you are in my thoughts and prayers always. God bless you. Beat the shit out of this thing. BTW, you write really well, you have a talent for it. I wish you could write my MBA admission essays :(.
Ghee is good
Ghee is great
Let us thank thee Ghee…
hi lisa
i am a chinese girl ,i’m in Beijing now ,and i love u so much!
i will always think of u .
you know since i become ur fun i can’t help focusing on u each day when i get on the inernet.What’s more ,in order to better understand ur latest news i ‘m learing english hardly:)
let’ s struggle together.
fight ,i truely believe u are gonna OK !Trust my intuition.
lisa ,me again ,the chinese girl 🙂
im here to tell u something interested ,and i hope u can see this .
u know in china’s tradition ,there is a kind of treasure called traditional Chinese medical science.Different from western medicine ,its core principle is to adjust ur body ,ur internal system which emphasize that man can change his internal body system or environment to make bad cells can not survive.
u said ur family have not such disease at all ,so what’s going on .Why cancer cell can live in your body ?Maybe that’s because your body allow them .Of course u don’t want ,but ur incorrecr habits or diet do .
They make ur body acid which is just very comfortable for cancer cells and they can thrive in acid environment just like fish swimming in the water.So it is the time u change ur acid body to kind of alkalescence!!
FIRST , better stop smoking & alcohol. Or moderate such habit.
cause cigarette and alcohol both are extremely acid substance!
SECOND,eating less over hot or acrid food or salty food.
THIRD , do exercise as possible as u can ,cause under the sunshine ,the sweat can bring the acid substance from ur body .
Food list for u
1.extremely acid :yolk cheese cakes
2.moderate acid: chicken,pork ,beef ,bread ,butter.wheat
3.kind of acid:rice ,beer ,fried bean curd
1.extremely alkalescence:
grape ,tea ,sea-tangle,celery ,milk ,potato ,bamboo shoot .
2.moderate alkalescence:
soybean banana orange ,strawberry ,egg white , spinach, carrot
3.kind of alkalescence:
apple beancurd radish onion
I translate these hardly ,but anyhow i feel very happy even if i could only give u tiny help 🙂
Dear Lisa,
It may sound very old fashioned to you, but I strongly believe Jesus Christ can still cure you. Kindly get back to Him and He will pour His grace upton you. Because He is the One who heals us.
Your brother in Christ
mejo
Dear Lisa,
I guess you are the most happiest in the world enjoying each and every minute of ur life..Wish you all happiness till the end of this world.
Good Luck.
hey lisa…just read a few days back about all of this..i think you’r one of the most fab looking women india has:)..if only i had skin like yours:))..but i suppose you get this all the time.i just wanted to let you know that it’s great to see you get through this so beautifully.i’m sure you shall win the battle and come out even more radiant:).my bf was diagnosed with colorectal cancer wen he was 21,he’s 27 now and he’s completely cured.the fear is there still but more in me than him..i keep pestering him to go in for checkups and all cos i do not at all want him to ever be touched by it again.i know you shall understand this.i would just like to tell you about these people in kolkata who treat cancer with homeopathy and boost your immune system which might get weakened with chemo.pbhrf is the name of the site.they are dr.prashant and pratip banerji.my sister is a doctor in there org and the treatment really works wonders for quite a few people.they are affiliated with the tata memorial and all of that so you can rest assured they are not quacks.just have a look and see if you might benefit from them.hope you get well really soon.keep smiling.
P.S=love your cat:)..lost mine a year back:(.
My dear friend I am not sure if I got this right. I am thinking that you were probably having a down moment the time you wrote this. You would think that you want people to feel sorry for you but you can be assured that there are always the care and love that people around you have for you even when you are not asking for it. You certainly can play the card as much as you want but please please don’t feel sorry and sad about your sickness. I can imagine that this would be the hardest challenge that one would get but if you are able to get yourself in good gears and conditions to deal with it, it will be something that you can get by just like any other difficult obstacles that any one would come across in life. I don’t know much about medicine but just thinking with a basic idea of our body and remembering what the basics are for good health in the body and mind which affect each other, you would need to remind yourself to stay cheerful and positive as much as you can. You would be allow to have a down moment of maybe 2 seconds but other times, eat, drink and have fun in a healthy way i.e. party but don’t party late; absolutely put no stress on body or mind; and share your feelings with your loved ones or us if you feel like to. As I have told you before, I am checking what you have to say and find out how your day is before going to bed – it’s not for our pleasure but because we care for you and we love you.
Be well and God bless.
Margaret
P.S. IMO the Chinese girl, Lian Ting Wu, has some point. So for your health sake, try your best to adjust your diet a little bit for now. Some healthy diet can still be very satisfying even to me who is a very food oriented person for all my life.
I not only love your beauty, freedom, openness but also your attitute.
Love
Hey Lisa,
Your English is extremely difficult to comprehend.. can you please simplify it ? Keep going gal.. We all are behind you 🙂
Guy who grew up on your ads.. [ Like I promised ]
Habibibti Lisa,
I wish you a sunny Wednesday morning and a fantabulous opening on “Cooking with Stella”.
I also want to thank you personally for you have inspired not only me but I am sure many people who are your fans, friends, family supporting you. I came across this poem which I like to share with you and hope it somehow gives you some cheer 😀 …
Magic Wand
I wish I had a magic wand
To make it go away;
I’d wave my scepter over you
Until you were okay.
I’d think good thoughts; I’d send you love;
I’d transmit healing vibes;
My wand and I would surely beat
Whatever the doc prescribes.
But there is no magic scepter, so
I cannot cast a spell;
Just know you’re often in my thoughts,
And I hope you’ll soon be well!
By Joanna Fuchs
Hi lisa,
Forgot to mention that I love this part you wrote “There used to be a time when designers made clothes to fit an actress. Now an actress in Hollywood has to alter her body to fit the garment”
Don’t you think it’s time to change this? Got some friend they do so many unhealthy things just to look skinny…its sad!
hugs,
Jackie
—>–@
P.s can’t wait to for next blog 🙂
Suresh
Hi Lisa,
Hi Lisa. How r u? I’m a great fan of you. I’m from Chennai (India). Hope u know Chennai. Your first movie is a Tamil movie called Nethaji with sarath kumar i think. I watch all Ur movies.. You will get well soon Lisa. There are millions of fans praying for you….. Love You….. Please mail me…. I will be expecting ur mail……. Take care..
My email id: ssuresh276@gmail.com
loads of love and prayers
Hina
Hi Lisa,
I have news for you.You need not play any mind games anymore I request you to run down to the next store and buy a copy of “THE POWER OF YOUR SUB-CONSCIOUS MIND” (Largest selling self help book ever written) by Dr Joseph Murphy its a gift to mankind. If you havent heard of him dont waste another moment get it and do urself a favour and read it cover to cover without missing a word several times as you get it. It will surely save your life. I wish you a speedy recovery and assure you you are coming back with a bang. Do keep me posted best of luck and lots of luv.
Manoj R Menon
Dear Lisa:
Please never give up!
I know how tough it is, my parents leave me two years ago, and I look after them around 6years when i am 25, only by myself! I wash their body everynight, feed them on the bed… but, actually, what i want give them not only this, the very important thing is i want share them the happness, and how wonderful be alive, even died tommorrow…… live like a really life even only one day left…
i am also have a lot of illness, aways be send in hospital, but everybody seen me can feel how passion of me, how adamant i am.
i am try to make my mind clear–pure. i am try to make my life simple & well-regulated, i running & swimming everyday try to refresh myself. try to cheer up myself! i did!
WHAT I WANT TO SAY : MAKE EVERYDAY HAPPY EVEN IT’S LAST DAY, I AM WITH YOU! DO WHAT YOU WANT TO DO! LOOK AT THE BEAUTIFUL SKY & CLOUD!
I will travel to London at Oct.1-7, may i come to see you? i can carry some Chinese medecine for you.
btw, do you accept try Chinese Medecine, there are lot of methord can keep the body more stronger… to fight with illness.
anyway, keep smiling! you deserve be happy!
May god give U strength & all us of will pray so that you recover soon. Checkout a blog – Lisa – A beautiful Ray of hope!
http://bollywoodblog.aol.in/2009/09/16/lisa-a-beautiful-ray-of-hope
16 Wednesday 2009
Another Beautiful Day. Hi,
Watched Water last night, it was particularly challenging because I don’t speak Hindi and the subtitles were in Chinese. :oO! I thnak the Goddess that I was familiar with the context of the film and able to extroplate meaning from behavior.
Have a wonderful Day Lisa.
Dear Lisa, I just met you….in the internet! It is very nice to meet you! 🙂 Then, I felt so urgent to leave a message for you here. If you do not mind, I would like to talk to you for some time. Lisa, when I was in college as a nursing student in Brazil, I met a young woman who was fighting for her life. She had got HIV-AIDS and when I met her she was in a very challenging moment. I knocked the door, looked at her for some time, then introduced myself as a person who would be taking care of her for some weeks. She told me:
“-You will not like to take care of me!”
And I replied her:
“-So, make a compelling case to convence me about that!”
She said:
“-Nobody likes to touch me because they think I am a threat for them.”
I hold one of her hands and told her:
“-Well, I do not see any threat here! I came to be with you and I need you to trust me first. You need to trust me to accept my care and I want to take care of you. I want to be with you.”
She hold my hand tightly. Then I started to give her a bath on the bed. She was so fragile that I was afraid of breaking her in two each moment I changed her position. Her body was fragile but her eyes were in opposite direction. They were brave and overwhelmingly shinning. I thought: “She wants to live! Great!!!! We are in the same page so!”
The next day I asked her about her dreams. She was 25 and I was sure she had a lot of dreams in “turmoil” inside her head. She stayed silent for long time and told me straighforward:
“-My biggest dream is to take a shower in the bathroom! I have been on this bed for so long that to have a shower in the bathroom became my ultimate dream. But I cannot go there!”
I told her:
“-Who told you that, you cannot go there? Wait for me tomorrow morning.”
Next day, I arrived very early with a friend stronger than me physically. I told him about her dream and he came right away.
I hold her hand and told her:
“-Hey, it is time to make your dream come true! Are you ready?”
She looked at me with disbelief. She was afraid of false promises. Then she said:
“-Simone, it will not be easy. I am afraid of my dream right now!”
I told her:
“- Do not be afraid. You have the courage. I see this clearly in your eyes. My friend and I have the arms to help you. Your dream is now ours as well!”
We took a lot of time to take her from bed but we did. When I took her clothes off and put her under the shower she was waiting for the water like she had been months lost in the desert and dying of thristy. When the water started falling on her so thin body I felt it shaking. She seemed a child who had waited an entire year to find your gift under the Christimas tree. She was completely mesmerized by that instant. She said:
“-This is the happiest day of my life! Oh!”
I was wet from head to toe and the bathroom was flooded, but that was not important, but making a dream come true! That was extremely rewarding to me. At that very moment, I learned from that remarkable young woman the most simple things in life are the ones that really matter. Some people dream about travel, money, power, buying the fastest car or the fanciest clothe. But I knew someone who dreamed about taking a shower in the bathroom and it was remarkably beautiful. Her dream made true gave me so much sense of life and a bigger purpose. I felt so humble in front of her!.. That was the best day of her life and one of the deepest in meaning for me. I was so grateful for her dream… Yes, each day is really a gift! We should never take anything or anyone for granted. We must learn to value that everything we can do is a blessing.
I shared with you that story, not only because it was really important to me, but also when I saw your picture, the expression of your eyes looked so familiar to me…they are so full with braveness and overwhelmingly shinning! I felt so close to you because of that and then because I learned about the remarkable person who owner them!
Lisa, you do have the most important thing: a life factory inside yourself. Your faith and love for life seemed to me unsheakable. I hope you know that they all have a lot of power! I am sure you will win this battle and will become even stronger and will get new purposes in life. Life is unpredictable and changes every day. What is a reality today not necessarily will be the same tomorrow. You have your diagnosis, but it is a way to just define what your challenge is about. Medicine is not black and white. There are things that even the skillest doctor cannot predict. Our body is like Pandora’s box. It can be more surprising than we can even imagine. A diagnosis is not a sentence. You are someone extremely inspiring… Because you are this outstanding human being, you are paving the way to others who face similar challenges to find in themselves this light of life and believe in it with all their hearts. You came to teach to all of us that we can everything, everything is possible….as long as we believe in ourselves and are open
for accepting love and recognizing what is really important! I thought your face had already gotten the ultimate beauty, but it seems that your inner beauty is even more amazing. I would like to let you know that today I am another person who want to follow your journey and witness your daily success along it. Thank you for coming to this world and bringing us light, love, and hope. You are definitely a ‘triple B” person: Beautiful, Brave, and Bright! 🙂 I stand to applaud the being you have inside yourself. Good luck every single moment of your life. I would like to write again some times and I hope you do not mind. Thank you for sharing this space, thank you for your valuable lessons, and thank you for empowering all of us! A lot of love to you from my heart to yours. Simone
Good Luck for ur Movie ‘Cookin with Stelle’ and with each and everythin in ur life.
Wish you a healthy, wealthy and wise Life.
Love and Prayers
Hina
Lisa Ray In Production – 2000s
Trader Games (2010) (post-production) …. Sarah
Let the Game Begin (2009) (completed) …. Eva
Cooking with Stella (2009) …. Maya Chopra
Defendor (2009) …. Dominique Ball
Somnolence (2009)
“The Summit” …. Rebecca Downy (2 episodes, 2008)
– Night One (2008) TV episode …. Rebecca Downy
– Night Two (2008) TV episode …. Rebecca Downy
Toronto Stories (2008) …. Beth
Kill Kill Faster Faster (2008) …. Fleur
The World Unseen (2007) …. Miriam
All Hat (2007) …. Etta Parr
“Blood Ties” …. Elena (1 episode, 2007)
– Stone Cold (2007) TV episode …. Elena
I Can’t Think Straight (2007) …. Tala
A Stone’s Throw (2006) …. Lia
Quarter Life Crisis (2006) …. Angel Matthews
The Flowerman (2006) …. Louise
Seeking Fear (2005) …. Nina Atwal
Water (2005/I) …. Kalyani
“The Standard” (2005) TV series …. Bollywood Actress
Ball & Chain (2004) …. Saima
Bollywood/Hollywood (2002) …. Sue (Sunita) Singh
Takkari Donga (2002) …. Bhuvana
Kasoor (2001) …. Simran Bhargav
Love and Prayers
Hina 😉
Hey Lisa,
I loved your work in ‘Hollywood Bollywood’. I pray to God that he looks after you. Best wishes….
Dear Lisa,
Your openess is deeply admirable… You are helping to “demolish” the prejudice so many people who live with cancer face everyday. A lot of people affected live hidden due to the judgement others make on them as they were their condition. As you said, you are not your illness. It is currently part of you now, but it is not your core. That is totally true! This is the distinction people must do. When you overcome prejudice you set yourself free to be you in full. Our human society is a “frame factory” and that is why it is so difficult for most to make public their challenges without feeling scard and a target of exploitation. Lisa, when you challenge your condition, you unveil its “ghosts”. The better way to fight against something that can bring fear is by learning about it, the way it works, how to relate to it, how to let it understands that you have the control of the challenge not it of you. Otherwise, it brings paralysis. Paralysis means not change. When you have control of your life, ANY change is possible. You know better than anybody else your body. You know its language, how it reacts to your emotions. You are the lord of your destiny, so. Perhaps, the most important thing is to have this sense of loving yourself UNCONDITIONALLY, with “moon face” or not. You must love yourself now more than you have loved before because your 100% love toward yourself will fuel you with strength and determination. You are a brave woman by nature. Your extreme authenticity of being I am sure is so empowering to you… Another essential thing is that you know to value the blessings you have. You do not lose track of that. So, this helps you to have a purpose. Purpose is about dream. I remember many years ago a Psychoanalysis teacher telling me: “Keep dreaming! Our dreams are the things that make us move on/forwards in life. When we stop dreaming the purpose is lost and the meaning for living vanishes.” Lisa, never ever underestimate your inner gifts. You are so gifted in so many ways… Never ever underestimate the power your gestures, words, thoughts, and desires can have. If it happens you feel weak in some moments, recognize that you need help and ask out loud that. You do not have to be perfect, you do not have to proove that to anybody. Nobody is perfect! Sometimes we need to accept to be carried when our feet are too painful to keep the journey by ourselves. This is the purpose of building relationships. It must be a continuous flow of giving and accepting love, life, and understanding. Do not be afraid of being afraid. You are human!!! You have the right of being human. Keep sharing your journey. You will see how much easier it will be to deal with this challenge by oppening your heart to so many people who truly do want you alive, happy, with a sense of warmth, and belonging. Do not isolate yourself….there is so much love out there for you! Never ever have any doubt about that. As you know, without love we are nothing. Love gives wings, courage, and always new possibilities of change. You are an outstanding human being and it is important you tell this to your bone marrow every day. Tell it that you have a purpose in life and do not intend to have second thoughts about that, no matter what. Your bone marrow as your whole body will work in accordance with the way you are determined to orchestrate your destiny. Always remember that! YOU CAN EVERYTHING! You are a free spirit…nothing can take your freedom away from you if you do not want that. I will come more times here to talk to you…if you do not mind! Lots of love to you! Remember, no matter what, never stop loving you in the first place. When we learn to love ourselves unconditionally and accept to be loved, it is called HEALING! I love you as deeply as everybody else here in this “YELLOW TEMPLE OF REINVENTING LIFE” you call blog! 🙂 Take a very nice care of your remarkable self… We all celebrate you every single minute. You are not alone and never will be. You were born to be loved! You have this luck! Hey Lisa’s bone marrow: feed your core with a lot of love and life. It is everything you need to be stronger than ever before. Lisa will love you even more if you work that way. Please, agree! With all my heart, Simone.
WOW Almost 350 responses. You may get to read all of them before your next post.
Hi Lisa,
I hope that TIFF was enjoyable and I can imagine how stunning you looked. Waiting to see if lopsided American media has footage on you. I may have to You Tube it or Daily Motion.
One of the good things about being adrift in this sea of comments is that I can acheive a level of openness and honesty because hey! Chances are that you will ot see it anyway.
So here goes for naught. Yes Lisa you’ve been on my mind ever since I read about the diagnosis.
When I saw those first photos of you, I swear that although it could have been my imagination but I swear I saw a hint of sadness in you eyes. Just a hint though that was immediately usurped by your commentary but I was left with the nagging feeling of concern that was compounded by a feeling of helplessness because all of the photos I saw that were not at some event were of you alone.
I desperately do not want you to be alone.
So when I read about “Bobcat” being a “man” as in “human”? I was relieved, I really was, you just don’t know how much.
It’s important to have someone in your life.
Dear Lisa ,
I wish that i can fly to sent my ” Hi ”
To see my lovely Lisa at the other side
I miss you every moment and day goes by
Worry about your treatment is that running alright
How wish that i can do more and stay beside
Can give you strength at this time of sorrow
may faith give you hope for every tomorrow
fighting fighting fighting Lisa , we all support you
love
felyse
thank you so much hina to tell me Lisa’s movie …………..tq
When all about you is black with gloom,
And all you feel is pending doom.
When your bones are racked with grim despair –
When every breath is a gasp for air.
Keep on going, though you need to grope,
For around the bend is a ray of hope.
A ray of hope is perhaps all that’s left,
As your will to live has been bereft.
You’ve lost it all, it’s just no use!
You can end it all, you need no excuse.
But throw away that piece of rope,
And give yourself a chance of hope.
Just give yourself another day,
Brushing aside what your thoughts may say.
This is your life and you can make a new start,
By ignoring the brain – just follow the heart.
Taking baby steps in order to cope,
And minute by minute you’ll build on your hope.
Build on your hope,. one day at a time,
Though the road be steep and hard to climb.
The hurts of the past – they should be dead.
The fears of the future are all in your head.
Just live in the present and refuse to mope
Your life will sparkle for you’re living in hope.
Love and Prayers
Hina
i’m watching Water on Bravo and decided to google you. Stay STRONG!
Hi Lisa,
I just saw your story on Global TV an the Cancer you are going through. Please look into dr. Colin Cambell. He has proven ways to turn Cancer ON and OFF, by adjusting the foods we eat. You can also look into Dr. John McDougall.
The link between Animal based products and cancer is very strong. By reversing your diet and eating an alkaline diet, your cancer will not be able to survive. Cancer thrives in acidic bodies.
At this point, you have nothing to lose and everything to gain.
Cheers
Lisa,
I wish you well. When you have some time, please visit http://www.healingcorrections.com. I am apprenticed with Don, the founder of Healing Corrections, himself a person who has recovered from multiple severe illnesses, including cancer.
I suggest that you kindly go through the site and also that you set up some healing sessions. This is “Truth Healing” and involves no additional medicines, or “treatment” of any kind. This can be done remotely as well – my advice is to try it out – and with GOD”s blessings, you will be normal and perfect as GOD would want you to be.
Cheers!
hey Lisa,
if you want to get some peace to your heart try reading quran it gives you lot of peace. It helped lot of people the word of God makes lot of differences in life believe me.
Om Sai Ram Lisa,
I just had a hunch that if you go to Shirdi and pray to Saibaba,You will get relief.
Also read Devotees experience in forum.spiritualindia.org
Bye
Regards
You will get well soon.Then write a book on it.
I’ve been a longtime fan of yours and I wish you all the very best. I’ll be praying for you.
♥
Dear Lisa!
You look beautiful as ever even with moon face-how do you manage that(?). You still look like a dew-drop as i saw you years back. I have always been a big fan of yours and loved your stunning looks and your love for yoga. I read one of your interview in which you said if you wouldn’t had been an actor, you would be yoga instructor. Keep that passion of yoga with you. How can anyone be so intelligent, beautiful, courageous…..i am short of list for adjectives….you are a woman of substance…….and i am sure you will live long long life…….This phase of your suffering is temporary and will fade…….leaving you with so many friends you are making at this blog……see did you ever know how much people love you….I sincerely pray GOD that HE gives you long life……
love u lotsssss
neel
Hi simone!
I love reading your comments-so inspiring that i am always in tears reading them. Keep writing such beautiful things about life……life just seems so beautiful.You are such a wonderful person as you think so beautiful.
neel
Dear Neel,
OMG! Your comment did touch me very much and I feel so flattered by the way you have received my messages! I really hope to deserve all the wonderful things you told me! Thank you so very much!
You know, another day, I heard someone on TV using a word to qualify some kinds of people in our society. She said: superficialist. That got my attention and made me think how we as human beings and our relationships with others can easily become impoverished in a so competitive and busy world where everybody is trying to survive in his/her own terms and does not care about others. People are losing touch with people. It is a very frightening perspective, isn’t it? If we lose this sense of compassion toward others what will last as salvation to the human race?! When Lisa decided to make public her story and created this space it made me think about how “overwhelmingly” generous it was from her part. She did not need to to all this, but she did want to! So, her so inspiring gesture MUST be a wake up call to all of us to think about how much time we have saved to be supportive to others around us and the level of importance what happen to others has had to us, the same way. This space is a very precious opportunity to all of us to “practice” our humanity toward others. Yes, we must talk about love, understanding, compassion because these needs are common to all of us with not exception. It is interesting how comfortable so many people from so many diverse cultures, religions, and backgrounds feel here to share their experiences, love, and appreciation. I feel very honored for having the opportunity of being here and express my thoughts and feelings to try to fulfill Lisa’s heart and life with the love, happiness, and courage she surely deserve. All of us do want a great outcome to her story, after all! By reaching her world, we will be reaching others because love fortunately is contagious and can be multiplied. Every time I come here to write I feel this powerful energy that has emerged from the contribution of so many wonderful people. We can learn so much from one another and become better human beings. That is why, I am sure, not only myself but everybody who come here feel deeply encouraged to leave her/his best in benefit of this cause. All these testimonials are really empowering! I thank you for your so generous comments about my writings. The truth is that everybody here has something special, because everybody comes with the best intentions. There is soooo much love here…. I am very glad to know that we have had the opportunity to meet so many people who not fit in the superficialist category, after all, at least in this inspiring space! Let’s celebrate this blessing! Thank you from my heart! Good luck to you, good luck to Lisa, and good luck to all! Sincerely, Simone.
i love your spirit!
i’ll pray for u…
ps: you deserve a puppy!
omg you said u got moon-face??
then i should kill myself..u still look gorgeous!!!!
today, i’ve been thinking bout u allday, i don’t know why.
i’m your fan but when i read ur diaries,
i feel u r just myfriend or sister hehe 🙂
that’s why i pray that ‘make lisa always be strong and when she is tired of things, make her feel us-that always love u-‘.
without my pray u still the coolest and bravest person ever!
but all i can do is praying, so i pray all the time.
you inspiring me in every way.
go lisa! love you♥
p.s english is not my language, so i didn’t get the “YELLOW” means…..plz help me guys!
Dear Fans and Friends
Ive been following the blog and also the following fan comments. As maintoined earlier that we should slow down and also start working/contributing for the same cause as Miss Ray has been workin on ‘Yellow Diaries and awareness to Multiple Myeloma’.
Ive some suggestions regardin the cause.
By posting the links here on blog is just one way of creating awarness, there are still alot of people who dont use or have the facility to use internet. We can help them by givin lectures about sign and symptoms of the disease, by distributin pumphlets descrbrin a little about the disease and may be by organisin some walk creatin awareness. This may be on a very smaller scale but even if these little things can save one life it worth doin.
Other thing as Im a doctor by profession ive strated doing some volunteer work in our Chemo ward. I only go for 2-3 hours a week because of my busy schedule and tiering routine plus ive a exam comin up aswell but jus to contribute to the cause ive started doin this. So you can help around people who are suffring from the disease. Im also workin on MM letreture and will be disrtibuting it to people InshaAllah soon.
Here are alot of people who can make beautiful Multimedia presentations and even can do beautiful editin of songs. They can contribute by making videos and songs.
So each one of us can contribute in the any way he/she can within the level of its expertise. If you guys have anyother suggestions please share.
Love and Prayers for Ray
Hina
Thank you for your concern Hina,
I do not know you or the other contributors but I do know that until now noone had attempted to try to control the postings or otherwise take a leader ship role.
I have not posted much in Yellow Diairies, but I rightly assume that Lisa’s talent and popularity extends far beyond the borders of Canada and India.
Telling the commenters to “slow down” to me doesn’t make sense because it is not always the same indiviuals commenting, Telling us to do more, well Hina you don’t know what the contributors are doing.
As far as posting Links for Lisa. People are doing what they feel they are able to do.
Yes many of us would love to have an opportunity to ask Lisa: “What do you need?” and we would turn heaven and hell over to find a cure for Lisa, I believe that Lisa senses that.
So please do not attempt to control the good intentioned contributors. The Yellow Diairies was started by Lisa Ray, not you HINA.
hank you for your concern Hina,
I do not know you or the other contributors but I do know that until now noone had attempted to try to control the postings or otherwise take a leader ship role.
I have not posted much in Yellow Diairies, but I rightly assume that Lisa’s talent and popularity extends far beyond the borders of Canada and India.
Telling the commenters to “slow down” to me doesn’t make sense because it is not always the same indiviuals commenting, Telling us to do more, well Hina you don’t know what the contributors are doing.
As far as posting Links for Lisa. People are doing what they feel they are able to do.
Yes many of us would love to have an opportunity to ask Lisa: “What do you need?” and we would turn heaven and hell over to find a cure for Lisa, I believe that Lisa senses that.
So please do not attempt to control the good intentioned contributors. The Yellow Diairies was started by Lisa Ray, not you HINA.
Hey Lisa,
It was a real shock when I read about your disease. I’m sure if nothing else it atleast must have compelled you to enjoy everyday to its fullest …… as I do believe that a single good day is way better than a 100 dull & disappointing days! So make sure you LIVE every moment of every day of the many years that god will certainly gift you…..
I am from India (in Toronto now) and I distinctly remember that a decade ago you were my definition of beauty, after seeing you in Nusrat Ali’s video and several other tracks. I fell head over heels for you 🙂 …… and I still am a big fan of your beautiful face…esp. your smile! So keep smiling Lisa……….you are giving us all a good reason to enjoy our few days here on Earth!
Tons of love and wishes……….
dear dear dear Lisa,
all i can manage to say is I love you…
sending you lots and lots of healing prayers and OM vibrations…through the divine channel of guru Paramhans Yogananda…(google him if you wish to) ….and healing visualisations…
faith can move mountains…
love and light,
rama
Also, during my several interactions with some astrologers and a yogi healer, I have learnt that wearing gem yellow sapphire heals bone marrow… in case you believe in astrology and such sciences..
“I am from India (in Toronto now) and I distinctly remember that a decade ago you were my definition of beauty,”
Gee do you think you could have written this statement nin a less offensive way?
I learned about Lisa Ray two years ago, not a decade ago and Lisa Ray IS the definition of becauty.
Antonio ,
You are right Lisa’s popularity extends beyond India and Canada. Hina is from Pakistan. Ahhh ..
And Silence Flower , Mystic Fleur , Sue … hail from different parts of the world.
Hina is not trying to take over The Yellow Diaries neither attempting to take control of the well intentioned contributors nor achieve any leadership role here.
“Slow Down ” is a general sentiment among ” Fellow Yellow Diarists”( does this term ring a bell ) who are getting edgy because of the recent silence on this blog (from Lisa’s side ) and on twitter. A comforting word to us telling hold on , Lisa is fine and she is taking the much deserved rest.
You have misunderstood , Hina isn’t telling anyone to stop posting . I am sure that is not her intention.
And yes , before this blog I at least was not aware of MM. If you read the other comments , you will come to know that regulars here are trying to form a group and put in some tangible effort towards MM awareness. And this trying comes as pure as every comment on this blog.
Offensive ??
Is it ?
“and I still am a big fan of your beautiful face”
Not all of us here are well versed in English and can use flowery words to create that so perfect comment.
And actually it is not your fault. You were not in India a decade ago . So you cant possibly imagine the mass following she had that time.
If only you would overlook the words and realize the underlying sentiment.
But then we are all here cause Lisa Ray did stir something deep within us .
So here is to you !
I hope you understand that it doesnt do any of us any good to come to this blog and print offensive comments.
Hi lisa, first I wanted to tell you how courageous you were to speak about your disease in a public blog, think i could gives strengh to people not necesseraly sick but to anyone who read your articles because as you said each day is a day and we should all remember it. Then, I wanted to tell you that I support you even in a small insinifgnant message .You are a great actress and , I’m sure , a great person so hold on and enjoy every moment that is given to you. I won’t ever forget your films and I will now check your blog every day because to me it’s a message of hope that you are transmetting to us. Thanks for that and sorry for my english I’m a french teenager …
god bless you . Bye
Antonio.
Im not at all trying to take over The Yellow Diaries neither attempting to take control of the contributors nor tryin to achieve any leadership role here.
I was jus trying to motivate the fans to contribute for a good cause. Posting msgs here is jus one way of contributing and appreciating Lisa Ray.
There are alot of other things that we can do to help people suffring from MM and thats what Lisa Ray is doin.
I hope u understand.
Love and Prayers for Ray
Hina
Let the fans be. There are good intentions in our hearts and the mere fact that we are motivated enough to even be here sharing is indicative that we have the knowledge to do more,
This is NOT the arena to have this discussion, this is Lisa’s Blog.
Please respect the contributors by not insisting that they ease up in making thier supportive comments or engage in measures that you approve of. If you want to make a suggesting then post the link and explain why the cause or organization is well worth one’s effort but do not tell people what to do because you don’t know everytone’s situation.
HELLO AGAIN!!!
MY NAME IS LIZ FROM MEXICO, I’VE WRITE BEFORE ASKING YOU TO CHECK OUT DR. ISAAC GOIZ, ABOUT BIOMAGNETISM TREATMENT, ON YOUTUBE THERE’S A LOT OF INTERVIEWS MOST OF THEM ARE IN SPANISH I DONT KNOW IF YOU SPEAK SPANISH, SHURE SOME ONE CAN TRANSLATE FOR YOU, ANY WAY PLEASE PLEASE LOOK IT UP, THERE’S A LOT OF PAGES TOO, LIKE THIS ONE:
biomagnetismforlife.com/white_papers.php
I MEAN, WHAT CAN WE LOSE RIGTH?
I’VE ALREADY TRY IT, MY BROTHER IN LAW HE’S AN ORTHODONTIST AND TOOK DR. GOIZ SEMINAR, LAST AUGUST, AND HIS BEING HELPING SO MANY PEOPLE NOW, WHIT ALL KINDS OF PAINS AND THERE’S A LOT OF PEOPLE WITH FLU OUT HERE RIGTH KNOW AND HE HAD FOUR PATIENTS AND THEY’RE SO MUCH BETTER NOW, NO MORE PAIN AT ALL.
WHY I’M WRITHING IS BECAUSE DR. GOIZ HELPED PEOPLE WITH CANCER AND EVEN AIDS (HIV), AND SO MANY PEOPLE REED THIS AND THEY CAN KNOW ABOUT THIS TOO, THIS CAN CURE EVERYTHING HE SAID !!!
I HAVE (HAD) EPILEPSY AND HAVENT HAD A SEIZURE SINCE HE TREATED ME WHIT THIS THERAPY AND MY DAD WHIT DIABETES AND THE LIST GOES ON AND ON….
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE LOOK IT UP, EVERYBODY MUST CHECK THIS UP, THER’S A LOT ON THE NET ABOUT THIS OK!!
BYE LISA WRITE YOU LATER
TAKE CARE OK!!!
XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOX….
GOODNIGHT OR GOODMORNING? !!!
LIZ.
Its exactly 4:25 AM IST here. I visited ur address in facebook, ran thru wikpedia to understand the challenge you face better, closely read ur writing in the blogs, noticed the tons of info, support and prayers u have. I recollect having seen u adoring (blessing?) the desert sands in Nusrat Fateh Ali Khan’s song when I realized the obvious – u are one of the most beautiful women God had ever created which, in turn, made me sometimes wonder – I am aware God is great but is he so great to create a wonder like you? why so much credit to him while u must have been sheer accident in his laboratory? Some where in this process about 37 yrs ago in what he thought was a flawless event (ur birth) he seems to have inadvertently left a bug in ur tender self that has caused this blog and me writing keying in few lines therein. BTW, ur writings do show a glimpse of ur inner persona that doesnt normally belong to many a beautiful women(my opinion).
A life if ever born, is ENTITLED to dignity, purpose, peace, health and happiness. In this we fail at times, win at times. My infant son came by and went seven days after his birth; I could only imagine the struggle he went through; my 4 yrs old son is under streoid (nothing serious and he will be OK); he is constantly scouting for food and has got chubby like you 🙂 It is a constant fight though – war between good and the evil. On the one hand precious resources getting wasted in self destructive ways when so many lives can be saved and pains prevented; on the other people like you taking the battle to the enemy, galvanizing pain into lasting solutions that save many long after we are gone.
Your courage is not less than a soldier standing his ground against all odds!!
I am niether a doctor nor God man; just a simple human with positive outlook. Please try this that I firmly believe in:
Human body is like a child and a GREAT FRIEND; We need to respect and care her so that the she cares for us in turn. We need to help her so that she can help us. Our body is our greatest partner who came with us and will be with us all along the journey. She understands our pain and sorrow. We just need to sincerely and lovingly seek help from our body; believe me it will unleash the greatest of forces that can destroy and flush FOREVER any evil that attempts at camping in and maraud us. You might already been doing this – then good. If not, whenever u r off ur regular treatment, be at peace, lovingly talk to ur body, explain the problem u r going thru and ask for help. She will respond. Try with asking ur body to help reduce any pain you must be going through.
Till then, couple of poems that I penned sometime back u may like. If it brings a little curve (any acute angle is acceptable), then it would have served its purpose 🙂
What a world!
No more morning walks sun rays like to take!
No full moon light placid lake can kiss!
Nothing to rival, none to envy
last flower fail to bloom;
last leaf left for the ground!
Deep in dark caves winds had gone to sleep,
rains on their way change their minds!
Acid dews on charred grass;
sea shores of burning sands;
to the ocean bed waves had sunk!
So many tears left to dry,
none to give one heart pain;
When bow runs from side to side
what I hear is a violin cry!
No song to write, no reason to sing,
church bells no more ring!
All proof gone forever and ever,
in God people have no more faith!
What a world this could be,
if not one….. without a woman!
Whom am I to trust!
She is far, I am loney.
No news off late, I come hear.
A messenger I sent,
an arrow I shot!
It slipped and slithere,
vanished into deep pink sky!
I sat on the rocks
waited and waited;
nothing came back –
neither message nor messenger.
One fine morning
came a message
knociking at my door;
So beautiful my girl,
the messenger I sent
had lost his heart
was kneeling before her
begging fo her benign love!!!
Tell me dear girl-
in this world of traitors
whom am I to trust!!
whom am I to trust!!
Sweet girl, I would wake up God now (if he is not around there for you). He can work two shifts I think. Its 6:11 AM now and I am trying to catch some sleep 🙂
God bless you and all who are in pain elsewhere.
liza plz remmember that u r a human actully great human but still human some times we feel sad and somtimes we be happy and full with life some times we r scare and sometime we be brave this is the life no one i mean anyone can denaye that i just want to tell u that i watch ur films daily yes and i look at u and allwayes say this girl is so special not because ur beauty and by the way u r now more beauty,but because off ur soul u have a purity in ur face and a green heart full of love for everything around u beside ur sence humare ,we all live the same life and we all will gona die one day u know somthing? i watched many pepole died without any disease i swear they where healty not complaining from any thing they where young ?so dont let dark thoughts invaite ur feelings u dont know who will die first bealive me,and in the same time as i said be a humane cry when u need to cry,be ungry when u r ungry, just be urselfe .i hope if i can meet u in real world so we can chat for a long time ,but that will never stop me to write to u,so takecare allwayes remmember that there is a mercy god watching u and u can call him anytime when u need him so he will be there allwayes for u ,and as i asked u plz remmember that u r a humman.
Namaste!
Reporting from yellow box – lol my boudoir is a bright vibrant yellow . (((((( Surya )))))))))
Reaching out to a star who is shining bright . Lisa~Ray of sunshine. Firstly …you are so very beautiful
I recently came across you ma , travelling through the virtual world. I remember watching Water – magnifique. Followed by the other 2 with Sheetal Sheth. Beautiful, sensual, empowering and enlightening movie that hit me to the very core. You are a great actor with such passion in your work .
Deeper into the universe I found your blog. I admire your beauty for living life , projecting positivism and meeting your challenges ~head strong – A truly beautiful flower.
I think your attitude and your will power will heal you. Sending love to each and every cell.
Oh light of the world , you have put it out in the universe your spirit will conquer this challenge – live and love strong ma.
We all have some type of trial and tribulations in this journey of life but you have inspired me to be fearless – ((((abhaya))))) Thank you petal
Try listening to Binaural sounds and try Ahhhhhh meditation manifest healing . Should be avail on you tube .
I am so small I can barely be seen.
How can this great love be inside me?
Look at your eyes. They are small,
but they see enormous things.
Rumi ♥
Much love, light and healing vibes your way xxx.
Pialotus
P.S – I’ve added you on all the portals now i think LOL
Dear Lisa, i hope u get well soon, u r a very beauty person outside an inside u. I pray to God for u. I hope u get well for continue acting for us, ur fans. I saw ICTS and the unseen world, fantastic and tender , delicating acting. I hope u continue been friend of Sheetal and she pray to god with her religion too 🙂 , well i hope u understand me, my very bad english hehe. A hug and a kiss for u. Don´t give up
you’re the gift! thank you for your posts. they are a part of me now.
Dear Lisa,
Can’t wait to see your next masterpiece when u recover. Water was so gd, n u r beautiful in I Can’t Think Straight. This might sound realli weird..bt painting the bedroom yellow is i bad idea: if u gonna recover, u gonna sleep well too. bright yellow, seriously? 🙂
Yes Yello, why not? It won’t keep her awake and is an optimistic color. Lisa is travelling. She will create a new blog when she returns.
ur AMAZIN that wut i have in mind wen thinkin ov u,, so stronge n so pure…idunno u personally but i which ido i wud really be blessed 2 have such awonderfull,solid and outstandin person lyk urself in ma lyf………..
keep it up ,, iluv u n prayin 4 u..ur ma hero~ almost 4get ur funny,lol 🙂
yea,,,,, hope u havin one of ur gud dayz. ayt then tc ( L)” can icall that”……lolz.
I am a nurse by profession, and when I was going through my training I got to work on the floor where all the kids fighting cancer were. Those kids, no matter how sick they were showed such courage. I try and keep a positive attitude in my everyday life but it is not always easy seeing such unfair circumstances. I learned that, yes life is a give and yes, everyday is a blessing because in truth. We are going to die one day and we will be dead far longer then we have lived. So, try to do the best you can with each day.
lisaaa u light up my days…in so many ways. i think am fallin in love wit u!!!! u have inspired me a lot and a gotta say u got the best eyes in the world..hope u get better. i can make u feel better if you want 😛
Hi Lisa
The best wishes from Mexico
never give up. god bless you, I wish you all the very best
Take care
love Jesse
Be happy its your wedding day for celebration
No words can do justice to your beautiful blog Lisa.You deserve every ounce of happiness. God Bless You.That is all I can pray for..
Dearest Lisa,
Your unique approach and outlook on life is inspiring. Everyone should be reminded that each day is truly a gift.
One can never be the same person again after experiencing any form of cancer. I will put a bead on my beautiful breast cancer bracelet for you.
Time is January 1, 2011 now.
A new year! Happy new year to you.
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