I’m back
I never left but I’ve been busy. Committing my flesh one place while my mind goes somewhere else.
Like yesterday. Critiquing another hospital drop ceiling, while a radioactive marker circulates in my blood. Par example. Why are ceilings not more user friendly? Or counting to three and going to that tranquil pasture in my head while a Quinton Line is yanked out of chest.
No wonder I’m feeling fractured.
I am not feeling whole.
So I’ve been forging a smile. Then I show up. Friends help me cross thresholds and while we laugh and my mind is otherwise engaged, my body can quietly blubber away. I sit on the floor of Ted and Tara’s kitchen and hug Flora. Contact with a small, vital body is the antidote. My body unshrivels. Arm move without fear of IV reflux. Fuck the self-pity. Mental smack upside the face. We do what we are meant to do.
What we need to do is play.
Playtime!
Everyday has been playtime. More or less.
And we all know that playtime ends with fist shakes and tears.
That just about sums up my last two weeks.
Oh yeah- and I still have hair.
It’s growing, dammit.
But you wanna hear about the stem cell collection, right?
First, there’s a laminated painting in the stem cell collection suite in PMH, right next to the washroom when you first walk in. It caught my eye cause I have a thing for lamination. Under the painting, words. My next favourite thing is a laminated parable:
Ellen’s Lawn
An Analogy for an Autologous Stem Cell Transplant
During my stem cell reinfusion, a casual observer had asked for a description of the process. Dr Franke’s response, directed at me was, ‘You are a lawn’
My lawn had weeds, so weed killer (chemotherapy) was applied. The results of the weed killer were not seen for a number of days but the weeds slowly started to wither and finally died. Because the weed killer was so strong it also wiped out some of my lawn (bone marrow) as well! Then the rains (saline IV) came and washed all the weed killer away.
‘Today I’m planting your new seeds which will take time to germinate. In about a week we’ll add fertilizer which will help your newly germinated seeds grow.”
My ‘seeds’ responded to the fertilizer (Neupogen) and pushed through the soil into the sunlight. With the light from the sun (nurturing) and all the special care, the new lawn became lush and healthy.
buh.
So like, I’m grass.
Yeah, I’m grass.
That’s why I’m feeling trampled.
Day one of harvesting is like any other. I know I’m gonna be hit with an ‘intermediate’ dose of chemo so I show up prepared: with Bobcat and a scrabble board. I am slightly alarmed that today, I get a bed. It feels considerate and ominous at the same time. Yellow quakes.
I haven’t met a PMH nurse yet that doesn’t braise my brisket. They are uniformly engaging and compassionate. In an un-uniform way.
So my nurse explains how the next four hours are going to go.
I am accessed. Port drip. Tube and plastic slide.
And GO
We begin a rabid game of scrabble. If scrabble were a contact sport, this would be the bloodiest rugby game on record. Played in the Collesium. With spikes.
Bobcat’s eyes go all scottish loch on me- opaque enough to hide a beast.
We yell. We challenge. I scoff. He snorts. I tug my IV line. A little.
I even forget the liquid siege will burn through me for a while.
I throw down a ‘fez’. He tries to convince that ‘pos’ is a word. Nurse mediates. I want a scrabble dictionary for Christmas.
And then, ‘hitched’ takes my lead.
Bobcat win.
Dad enters. As we collect the pieces of words, Bobcat grips me with his eyes.
Remember how you felt. I want you to feel angry. And charged. Fight the bitse.
And he left.
Dad and I watched saline drip changed for chemo. Not the Velcade I’d been on for four cycles which was an antipasti pump into vein, but a primi secondi chemo. Acid drip for one hour. And at the end: nausea, fatigue, hair loss and other assorted dolci.
I even get pink ice. Apparently this counteracts the sudden sinus congestion and headgroan when the poison hits your bloodstream. You know, brain freeze fixes just about anything.
Obama want a popsicle?
From what I gathered, this first blitz of chemo helps to mobilize blood stem cells.
Stem cells, of course, are thought to be the origin of all blood cells. They live in bone marrow and are capable of producing red and white blood cells as well as platelets.
They are the thespians of your organism. Eager to morph into something else.
And three days after chemo, Neupogen shots begin.
And then you begin to mobilize.
A very worthy endeavour I’m told.
But before that, my saintly father took me home.
I fell into bed. There I remained. For the next two days.
Later that week, Bobcat had to leave Toronto on work. Before, I had strength not to notice his absence. Now my sight costs me. I’m not sure if we can make it. I hope. But I’m not sure.
Everything is wounding me on this vigil.
If I had to describe a stem cell collection, I’d say it’s like watching a jet refuel.
There’s something significant going on. You can feel it. It’s awe-inspiring and essential. For what will come next.
Full flight.
But truthfully, there’s nothing to see.
It’s downright mundane.
Except, you know, I got the whole spectrum lighting experience. Even threw in a dawn simulator along with a hearty dose of Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD). So I have tales of Quinton lines, and other assorted drama to share.
And unpeel.
It’s damn cold today. I”m not into Toronto just now.
As my log burns low, a Yellow Delivery. News from Andrew Winters, the transplant coordinator.
My Stem Cell Transplant is scheduled for December 21st!!! In Hamilton.
Grace.
And Grit.
A book recommended by Moira, Grace and Grit. I started working with Moira on healing beyond the body.
Tomorrow a playtime with words. I will be reading at the Small Press of Toronto (SPoT) Winter Fair at the Gladstone Hotel. I am not sure what to do. Many other experienced wordsmiths will be reading too. I will watch them. Then I will breathe in a way which hopefully doesn’t make me light-headed. Like during my Pulmonary Function Test last week. Which I think I failed.
I am frightened in a way which makes me forget the Cancer.
I am frightened in a way which makes me feel alive.
And I will remember:
Exactitude is not truth.
Thanks Matisse.
You’ve given me some copy to live by.
And on December 13th, a kirtan for Carrie Lundy’s mom Audree. Audree was diagnosed with advanced colon cancer last year. Recently her doctors sent her home. Audree and her daughter Carrie are fighting off feelings of defeat in Winnipeg. My Moksha yoga sangha will be doing a traditional call and response chant for Audree Saturday evening. Sometimes the best response is to sing.
We’re singing with you Audree.
News from Shamim and Hanan. Enlightenment Productions has raised an additional $5000 online for the David and Molly Bloom Multiple Myeloma Research Chair at PMH.
Whoop whoop.
ahuh… u’r back 🙂
Welcome back Lisa. You were in my prayers. Hang in there and fight. You are a warrior.
xoxoxo
Patricia
Wonderful to see you again. Glad that this process has started, so it will be over sooner. Remember, keep breathing. Rabid Scrabble is the best!
I’ve just started back to work after 4 months being off after having my leg amputated; I am exhausted. I can only imagine that is how you feel. This pain and suffering that you are going through will pass, the Yellow of the Sun will wash over you, through you, warm you to your replenished marrow.
Remember: the grass is always greener on the other side. Because someone’s dog peed on it.
Much love to you.
hi Liz, great to hear back from u…keep the faith, ur strong…
take care…love ya…ur in my prayers as always…
xoxo
why do you doubt BobCat’s dedication to you? It may all look muddled up now, but he is the best thing in your life. You shouldn’t doubt your love. Just my two cents (you can fling them away as far as you want). 😉
Babe, its good to fear what you are going through. I fear everything 😀 (actually mostly people). Its tough, what you going through and am sure will be even worse the next 2 months, however at the end of it, am certain you will shine baby.
Dil mein yeh shor hai kyun
Imaan kamzhor hai kyun
Naazuk yeh dor hai kyun
To spot rates and forwards tomm.
What else can I say, I love you. Hang in there babe! Luv Luv Luv
A huge smile comes on my face when I check your blog and see that you have written. We are complete strangers yet I feel like I’ve known you for years. Stay strong and welcome back beautiful!
xoxo
Gracias
consciousness is courage. you’ve got it. keep going.
yes, say yes
thank you
It’s wonderful to have you back Lisa, thank you so much for sharing your experience with us. You are truly amazing, such a fighter. Definitely cheering for you as you have your transplant later this month. Fight the good fight! Go Yellow!!
Dear Lisa:
I’m so glad to see a new post from you. Thank you!!! First, because that tells me that you feel good enough to write. Second, because you inspire me with every word you write. I wish I could be there for you, but all I have is the Yellow Diaries blog. So I send you all my motherly love and all my yellow as you go through this process. May God continue to bless you with that wonderful spirit that holds you so strong.
xoxo
Hang in there girl, you know you got a shit load of people pull’in for ya. December 21st I’d right around the corner. Ya know what everyone here wishes for the up coming For you to get and feel better so with all those wishes floating out there, you got it made, no worries! We have got your back!
Kate
PS try to laugh at least a couple of times a day, it really helps.
Really Happy to read your new blog.
Love you…Lisa.
You are really genious writer.
Best of luck to your transplant.
You are in my prayers.
I am from China. Do you know there are so many fans of you in China. We have built a lot of websites about you in China.
Tears come into my eyes when I got the news that you are suffering from some bad things. You are so beautiful and talented. i can’t believe that.
From then, i pray for you every day. I wish the God to be wiht you and on the way that you are going through.
Also, I am glad to see that you are so strong to face such things.
I will keep on reading your blog here. And the fans in China will be with you forever.
Keep fighting, baby.
We love you.
Sending Warm Yellow Wishes from Sunny Arizona!
I love the way you write. You’re so honest and brave. You will always be an inspiration to me for life.
Everytime I’m online, I always check if you’ve updated your blog, and if you haven’t I want to think that you’re out there chillin’ in Canada (no pun intended). I know it’s winter time, and Chicago has pretty brutal winters, so I can relate when you say it’s cold.
Since you seem to like quotes… how about a little inspiration?
http://www.fleurdelis.com/desiderata.htm
Joanne
Keep going Lisa 🙂 You know how it is, so keep going and do it.
that’s great to read your new post.
keep on frighting, you’re a real frighter with the power of yellow.
love you.
If He brings you to it, He will take you through it; stay Present in the moment, Lisa, and be of joy in the journey.
China time15:10,I at miss you……
Lisa you’re amazing!
I’ve been listening to this song the last few days, mabye it will make you also happy :
Texas – Inner smile
lots lots lots of love from the Netherlands !!
Hi-lo Liza,
fear produces hope, it’s normal. human feeling.
love keeps you brave…you have a strong brigade of love from all over the world.
glad to read updates from you again.
keep the faith. be strong.
OLTL
You use your blog like therapy, it’s beautiful, I can tell it works. I hope you won’t mind that I do the same, borrow it for a thought or two, and I hope I won’t depress you. I’m one step behind you in this, it seems. I find out next week, when they cut into my bones to see why I lit up like a Christmas tree on a bone scan, try to escape the inevitable. I feel so detached from all the ‘go get em’ cheering on from those who have no idea what it’s like, or maybe they do. I’m too far on this side already to remember how it was like to try to comfort someone with cancer.
The only thing that I do know is that I have to make a 180, stop doing all that I was doing that brought me to this place: working too hard, striving too much, caring over the top for the wrong things, stress. I need a break, I need peace, I need art, nature, reflection, I need selfish fun and child-like amusement at the world. But I’m exhausted and I don’t know where to start to rethink my life, rethink me, rethink what’s important, try to salvage what’s left. There’s something deeply wrong with people in their 30s (that’s me too) dealing with their young bodies having cancer. But I know it makes us wiser people, in a way more connected to the human kind, although so seemingly isolated. Hmm… will work on getting over self-pity, but won’t deny it until it goes away.
Stem cells rock btw, I knew that even before. They can bring about remission, life. I wish you that. And me. A second chance.
My dear Lisa,
Good to read your words again!:-)
When I watched your interview yesterday with Mark Kelley I had the same feeling as now.
I completely understand your worries and fears, they are natural, it would be strange if you don’t feel this way. You cannot be strong all the way, you can force yourself to smile or show the strength in public, but can cry and feel hopeless at home, as well.
But you should know that you are surronded by unconditional love from your Dad, your Bobcat (needless to doubt your love), your friends and your yellow family here.
We want to give your strength to help you through the most difficult phase of your treatment.
December 21, one long week more and you will reborn for the new year. It will be a Christmas present for you – OK I know you did not dream about it – but now it will be the best gift to recharge you and some moths later you will be back to your earlier life. I am 100% sure!
And “Fuck the self-pity.” Keep on fighting! You are young and really strong, it’s not a compliment, even if you do not feel it all the time, you are full of positivness, you are brave and a real fighter. Remember, you are your mother’s daughter, LIONESS!
And my finger crossed for your reading today! Don’t worry, you will be amazing as always!
I wish I could be there, but I am several thousand miles far, I will think of you as everyday:-)
With love and hugs
Kati (fromHungary)
sorry , please forgive me don’t speak english very much.
I love you ,just only I can say .
if you can recovery health, i could do anything ,but ,now, I could not even do not speak english , I ‘m sorry
please you must be strong , you have been very strong.
Glad to have you back!
But I’m very wonder when did you get on the bed?!
Don’t rush yourself to hard.
I like the metaphor of grass , well-put of life.
could be easily chopped away but always grow back with the yellow sunlight.
Don’t step down, don’t retreat in haste.
I believe you could get through all of this.
those up&low will fade.
pray for you from the sunshine Tropic Taiwan
Lisa
Glad to see you on your new blog, you make my day,and i’ m really happy to see you’re not alone, your father is really a charming person!:) Lisa, i admire every day your courage and your strength.
Take care, my mighty warrior!
Kisses from France
Great to hear from tou Lisa! Keep your strengh!
Take care,
Kisses from Paris 😉
Pascaline
Dear Lisa,
I’m so glad you’re back. Every morning when I wake up there is only one question in my mind that ” How are you today Lisa?” & it’s kiiling me that I don’t see any new post from you. Everyday, everyday I have been waiting some thing new from you because it’s telling me that you’re ok & keep fighting. Thank you for keeping your strengh & sharing with us, you’re…amazing, that only I can say. Please don’t give up.
A lots of love from Japan.
Dear Lisa,
I don’t know if you’ll end up reading this but i just really wanted to put my thoughts across.
You’re an inspiration. You inspire me to face the ordeals of daily life.
I have seen every movie of yours at least a million times and i can’t help but tell you what a fantastic artist you are.
My room mate is tired of me talking about you day and night!
I’m right here praying for you and i hope to god you win this battle.
I hope to hear from my favorite person in the whole world really soon.
Take care.
All my love!
🙂
hi
pls stop showing ur photos.i cant see u like that
Yellolution
“The Mellow Diaries”
You’re back LR…and how! The idea of ceilings being more ‘user-friendly’ is a winner, my dear. Atleast that would assure we’re “looking up” at all times 🙂 Don’t worry about not feeling whole, the fractured feeling makes sure you’ll enjoy the entirety when you’re game for it…everything has its time.
Playtime is the Best Time, stay in it… while in this serene world of Yellolution, where:
— Yes, you are grass…a green, vibrant blade of life that responds to the Sun’s yellow as if each of its Ray(s) was the music you had to dance to, just had to!
Thank you for the Music!
— You shouldn’t feel trampled! Don’t…! The lawn mover (SCT + Chemo) is only making sure you’re ready to ‘weather any storm’ now… you’re ‘freshly baked’! 😉
— The pink ice popsicle heals all… ice cream can be such a healer, esp. when you get one, unexpected!
— Stemcells – “Thespians of your Organism”… I like the sound of that!
How about this: “TYD – Thespians of your Catharsis”
— I like your Daddah. A saintly Mr. Ray…so contrary to what he must’ve looked like when Shamim freaked about him replacing the “Middle Eastern Spice” with the “Garam Masala” for the Fatet Djaj 🙂 A man has many shades!
— Bobcat – the one single being in your Life I’m awe-struck by. The highs, moods and colours he lends to your existence are amazing. Do we, TYDiarists even come half way? 😉
— “Grace & Grit” – funny you’re reading a book called that…when you should be writing one called that…
. . .or maybe you can call yours “Brace the Shit” because you Lisa Ray, have braced yourself so beautifully to face this shit that Life threw at you, its almost unbelievable!
Awe-inspiring too, coz you know, Shit Happens…to you all of us. Its how we brace ourselves to deal with it! 🙂
All the Best for your Playtime with many a Wordsworths tomorrow! Big Deal LR, you’re the John Milton of our Yellolution! 😀
We’re awed in a way that makes us forget you’re ailing!
Let your hair keep growing…it’s a root follicle that never stops, just like the Yellolution won’t!
This post, is for how the Mane Mellowed You, Milton!
P.S. – @ Del – At times, when you’re fond of someone, anyone, even a stranger, but can’t share their pain, words can be therapy.
With whatever you’re going through, I wish there’s a someone, standing tall next to you, telling you its ok to fall. Your second chance you’ll get. Who doesn’t deserve it?
Lotsa luv,
Stranger!
x x x
hello lisa, first of all greetings!
you are a woman whom I greatly admire
by the strength he has.
every day I ask you!
farewell for now, who loves and admires.
Lisa thank you!keep on fighting!you are in my thought.
with all my love!!
nikoleta from Greece
I’m glad you’re back. Every day when I wake up I think ” How Lisa is feeling today?”
Thank you for keeping your strengh & sharing with us, you’re amazing and help me in many ways with your words…. that only I can say. Please never quit.
A lots of love from Brazil!!!
December 21st
Winter’s solstice
“Sol Invictus”
Lisa, your inner light will be victorious
Bobcats, popsicles, and your Father; you have all the ingredients necessary to get through the transplant.
http://goodbloodbadblood.wordpress.com/
i m very very very happy to see that your back…i understand that you are bussy…i like your dad!!!
and21st it will be an imprtant day for me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
keep fighting my dear lisa
i love u so much and i m so glad when i see that you are writting something
kiss you lisa and take care your romanian fan from italy
alaways i ll be
FIGHTING
You are constantly fighting
Not with friends or with family
But with life
You both throw punches
It knocks you down
And kicks you hard
As you lay there you could just give up
Or you could stand up and give it another round
I have made my decision
One more round
I’ll take life to the ground
Let it see how the beating feels
No more letting it win
Now it is our turn
To claim victory
with
love ana maria
Lust for life
Each time when they tell you to shut up
Don’t listen to them,
leave them away
don’t stress yourself
each time when your life is too sad
forget all about
leave it and say this:
I can deal with everything!
Each time when you have a hard way in your face
Go ahead ,don’t give it up!
Each time when you feel that you had lost your love
Don’t be sad,you’ll find another one
When is raining into your life
Don’t worry,the sun comes up
And the night is losting in the moring
And this world is full of colours
And beautiful things
Lust of life,lust of sun
Don’t let the light to hide inside your soul
Let her come out
And lose yourself in the big world
The life is beautiful when you don’t hide
When you enjoy it every day
Life is so amazing;
Life is so profound.
Life can be a crazy day,
or night without a sound.
Life will have its ups and downs,
this fact we bear in mind.
So of we go down this road,
as if destination-blind…
with love your romanian fan ana maria
hello, lisa,
your fans are all around the world, and i am one of them.
it’s great to see your blog renewing, which means you have the strength to type.
you are so beautiful and strong from in outside.
i pray for you everyday,
pls, pls, be happy and healthy.
🙂 december 21st
don’t worry about it . u r going to be fine …u r a gud reader/ writer
by the way that lawn thingy was excellent:)
My dear Lisa
inside your heart, you keeps so much spirit and bravery.
Your thoughts are both deep and light and funny.
One day you’ll find that you’re the hero you’ve been looking for…
everlasting, your light will shine when all else fades.
neverending, your glory goes beyond all fame.
Keep fighting… LIVE STRONG
All My Love
Jeni
…your inner light, that what you really are, will be victorious…ALWAYS
Then don’t watch them! She’s brave and honest to the bone. I for one, appreciate the honesty. She’s given MM a face, and what a face!
read me
read me
read me please
My dear LISA i just take a look on the internet…and you make me to decide…i’d like to be a donater but i don’t know nothing about this…and i’ m in italy…is you got some idea please write me!!!!!i’d like to help you…and other peoples!!!!!!!!!
With love ana maria
Dear Lisa ,
Prayers with you fr successful stem cell transplant.
Lookin forward to see u back again like a phoenix.
This too ………. will pass………..
Frm chennai wid lots of love and prayers……..
Jesun
Dear Lisa,
WELCOME BACK. I’m very happy to read your words. I konw exactly how you feel. Last year I won the dragon called Lymphoma. I wish, wholeheartedly to win your awful dragon.
WELCOME BACK too your hair.
With love.
Chiara
Dearest Lisa
Welcome back:) hope your doing great, i wrote 2 you for the 1st time on your last blog, i dont know whether you would have read that or not…but i felt soo happy writing to you..your soo close to my thoughts and prayers..i keep checking the internet to see if you are in any latest interview just miss seeing you and knowing about you…1st thing woke up 2day i checked your blog and you were back wow 🙂 it felt awesome and just great to start the day with you. your the 1st person i think of when i go to sleep and 1st person i think of when i wake up. i just hope your happy and just strong and in the best of health. i am worried, coz i care..and i cannot help worrying but i just want you to shine like you always do..when i think of your smile it just lightens up my heart. i wish i could do whatever it takes to just see you smiling. again i wish could chat with you but how? i know its asking for soo much, why would LISA RAY want to talk to me..who am i? but im not giving up on this one… i hope one day i will meet you and one day i actually get a line from you 🙂 you have taught me that one never gives up on anything so im not giving up on meeting you. today i thought, is it possible that i could come meet you, i wanted to come see you though i have never been outside uk other then saudia arabia and pakistan but still i wanted to come meet you and bring you some chocolates and flowers. what are your favourite chocolates and flowers? right now, i feel i could give up everything just to meet you. lisa you have become sooo special for me..thank you for being a part of my life. inshallah everything will go well i will pray for you, my best friend sends you her best wishes aswell. your dad is soooo cute bless him 🙂 he is sooo lucky to have you, we all are 🙂 i hope you write soon.
i was thinking today…when im down i always tend to think if i share what i feel it will help me feel lighter coz atleast someone knows someone cares…the whole world cares and loves you to bits lisa 🙂
You are beautiful inside and out 🙂
hey you know what i did, i created a blog, but what shall i write about i dont know, but i created it just coz of you…perhaps i will start writing about you. i will let you know what i doo.
dont give up on anything, your a fighter and your never alone. inshallah Allah will help you get through this.
have faith 🙂
At times, even the Sun’s brightness is overshadowed by clouds.
Why can’t yours?
However dark and dense the clouds may be, Sun will shine back. And it will shine the brightest.
Why can’t you ?
takecare darling, il keep writing
i never wana stop writing when im talking to you 🙂
hope you will read my message
your well wisher
your friend
Amina
sweetestchano@hotmail.com
Hiya Lisa,
good to see you’ve dropped us a line in you’re blog again. Bobcat must be amazing playing scrabble; he won!
I lost from you last week in my dream and unfortunately didn’t get a chance to revenge yet; can’t stand it, I’m a bad loser. But I had other adventures to deal with. So I’m still waiting to get my chance some night.
Well anyway, good luck on the 21st! I guess everyone who writes to you and many more will be thinking about you that day, so from all over the world people will be sending you positive energy!!
Love from Nicolle (the Netherlands)
Life in itself is an
empty canvas
It becomes
whatsoever you paint
on it
You can paint misery,
You can paint bliss,
This freedom is your
glory …
Wishing you all the luck in the world for 21st:)
Hello again Lisa,
You are ALIVE and make ALIVE us too!!!!
Thank’s to keep give so much ti us, I hope we can give you many things for you can feel more strong everyday!!!
We are here, suporting and careing you.
Many Hug’s with the best energy for you and your people arround like your father, he looks so nice.
Lisa
thank you for such a raw, honest, amazing blog. Sending you lots of YellowLove, YellowStrength, and YellowCourage.
🙂
love from Boston
Michelle
Hello LisaRaniRay,
Just want to let you know I think you’re the coolest thing since sliced cheese!! You must be a completely delightful person to know.
Your honesty and courage are deeply inspiring.
Light, love and strength to you always.
Hola LIIIIIIIIISA….pssss hoy pase por tu blog y me di cuenta que habias vuelto,,,que alegria…es muy agradable leer tus escritos…muy agradable. solo queria decirte que eres como decimos aqui, una “BERRACA”, es lo que se utiliza para decir valiente, fuerte…etc. que el destino es el que baraja las cartas, pero somos nosotros somos los que jugamos. William Shakespeare. Nunca bajes tu cabeza, no pierdas la esperanza y dale ordenes positivas a tu mente subconsciente…
Francy 🙂
Hi Lisa, there’s a life study in your dad’s face…wishing you both only goodness…
Te doy una cancion que es como el agua de beber…
TE DOY MI SOL
TE DOY MI DIOS
TE DOY MI FÉ
TE DOY MI PAZ
TE DOY MI RISA
DISFRUTA EL DIA A DIA
from all the worl are comming words to wish you good luck
we love you
italy,usa,romania,spain,uk…the whole world lisa!!!!!!!!!!
Hi Lisa,
I’m glad you are doing well and have the support of Bobcat and your Dad by your side!! My yellow love and support are with you as you continue this journey!! I wish you all the best on your reading tomorrow!! You possess a gift of expression and the ability to captivate anyone watching, reading or listening!!! You will rock tomorrow for sure!! 🙂 Sending you all my love and support always!!
Barbara
Detroit, MI
You make me want to be stronger.
Ciao Bella!!!
Soo happy when I see your new blog.
And hear about you.
Every day I check and hope that you are ok
Lisa you are sooo special!!!!
I wish I could do something for you. Anthing!!!!!
❤ ❤ ❤ YOU!!!!!
Xxxxxx
Happy to see u everytime, Lisa plesae be strong i will support u, i pray for u,
You’re so beautiful,gorgeous
Love u so much
xoxo
sorry my english no good
from thailand : )
Lisa,
Glad you wrote. I’m going through the exact same thing as you. I’ve done all the tests, they have my stem cells and I’m going to Hamilton for the transplant. I’ve been told there are 5 of us from PM. I’m just waiting for a date – early Jan. hopefully. You will be my trail blazer so I will be waiting for your next entry. Be strong and hang in. This will be over soon and our lives will return – better than before. We’ve learned a ‘few’ things along this journey. Thanks. D
Such a joy and wishful feeling for your return
Healthy days ahead for you
Life is precious and will be more precious for you soon
Take Care Dear
Thanks for sharing “Saint Salil”
He is so concerned, caring
Lucky you
Wishing the Very Best
Heartfully praying for you
Go Watch PAA
Its lovely to enjoy life
Yes Enjoy PAA
Historic movie from India for the world
paa reached 34 countries/territories and much more … counting …
http://www.bayareaindoamerican.com/events/paa
Even Hollywood is talking about it now …
My dear dear Lisa, You just moved me to tears…
“I am frightened in a way which makes me forget the Cancer.
I am frightened in a way which makes me feel alive.”
you are incredible writer, you made stem cells so easy to see and grip… for the first time stem cell become so grassful (made up word) to me… 🙂 Thank you! And you are incredible brave person and fighter, I know you don’t think that way of yourself but you are in my eyes. Just can’t believe how much strengths in that tiny fragile elegant little person, to fight the dammit cancer… love you even more when you have no hair and when grew a little bigger & taller… 🙂 never will miss the beautiful stunning eyes even in a million crowd.
Wonder if the lake in your backyard is ice now? Maybe one sunny day you could sit in your backyard and your gaze will charge you with love and support.
with my love and admiration
From the raining LA
Hi Lisa!
Glad to have you back!
You’re a strong person!
Keep faith in yourself and in your life partner, your family, friends and fans.
We are here to help you!
21st of December is a good day!
The day after my birthday, so I’ll have a special thought for you!
And I’ll put a candle more on my birth cake just for you!
Kisses from France.
Sylvie PARIS.
Big kisses!!!!
Seeing your post from early morning , made our day.
Thank you, Thank you alot ,really we miss you .
All praise to god for the way he create this pure beauty insideout ,which called ” lisa”
Please send your nice dad our best wishes, I am sure he is proud of you .Tell him ,we are crazy about his Daughter .
Btw it was very important and interesting the part that you put it about description of the process” stem cell Transplant “ lawn “ . Thank you ,Now I get it and understand the situation closely ,it must take time, so you have to be patient , I imagine that natural feeling of tired that you feel. Inshallah all that feeling will go away and you get better .
Other thing I wanna say .maybe it will sound stupid or funny for you and all guys here ,but
You have myeloma ,so in ur little circle of life ,you have one little point called myeloma, ,now let’s go to bigger circle ,a circle of world. For example ,Here in middle east ,we have wars from time and time ,even some calm time ,when we wake up and hear no war , we feel shock why we don’t have one, ironic , but true.
In east world like Indonesia and other part ,beside some wars ,sometime they have things like tsunami , in Africa they have poverty and hunger ,and in west and maybe north west ,the number who suicide is in increase ,
From all those above words ,I wanna say ,we have a lot of bad things happen in this world, but we need lovely ,noble ,great people who can change this world for better,Who are those people ? you are and all people like you lisa, , yes Lisa, world needs people like you ,you are one of them ,a person who influence and spread love by their inborn sense and beauty inside by their charming humanity exist in their soul ,.
I hope you by your soul ,to break your little circle and be free from it and go by your thoughts to this big circle which it is called world, and think about it,
Because you are stronger than this shit called myeloma , , you and us born for reasons, and this illness come to you and us maybe to shake and discover other hidden pure innocent part inside ,nor you and we knew before about you .
The Beautiful human inside you.
be brave and overcome all feeling and remember you are good ,You are .
God subhan wa tala ,all praise to him,will cure you inshallah , gods willing . inshallah.
We love you our lisa .
We Love You Lisa. You are in my prayers… 😐 Just hang in there…. Thanks for making this World a beautiful place with your presence. Keep smiling .. but don’t forge a smile ..just spread happiness …as you always do… You are such a beautiful soul. Keep inspiring 🙂
Just Loved the First Line of this Article..
” I’m back…”
Habibti,
The rain (chemo) makes the grass grow, but there will be weeds.
However, these weeds can be eliminated.
Since December 21 will be definitely crushed these weeds.
Especially for your strength and your attitude toward life.
You feel fear. Of course. Logic.
You have a very good company. Your father is a rock next to you.
Bobcat also. Please, don’t doubt about his love.
And us. YELLOWLUTION. Humbly with you and share with you the joys and sorrows.
Always will. Day and night.
In fact, I do.
Prayers. Thoughts…
To raise awareness in society as possible. MM. Cancer. Not tabú.
Thanks to you we met here and form groups online to help you and talk about it.
Come on. Remember. You are a YELLOW – FIGHTER .
THE FIGHTER CAN FEAR. BUT STILL STRUGGLING…
That’s the diference. A big diference from the others.
One more time: FFF!!! FAITH – FORTITUDE. FIGHT…
Best wishes, Lisa,
Ximena.
Dear Lisa,
lots of love and light from Germany! And thank you so much for making “I can’t think straight” and “The world unseen”! They have given me so much hope.
Love,
Skybird
HELLO EMERALD-EYED!!!
Have a nice day ….
Hello Lisa,
With the sun shining on the snow laden landscape of Toronto, I hope you will stay warm.
Good hearing from you. Your Dad looks very sweet and I am sure he must be a pillar of your strength. Your mom, I am sure too.
So, Toronto will be the venue for the Bollywood film award in 2011! I truly hope some producer/director will take the opportunity to cast you in one of the movie.
Take good care. Till then
Jenny in TO.
I used to be a landscaper. Those beautiful lush lawns, flowers, trees, shrubs…all require much attention to give us that moment of joy and delight. At times it seemed almost an insurmountable task.
Day after day..mow this, fertilize that, pluck here, trim there. But it all was worth it when the tenants would arrive home and OOH and AHH!!! May seem fleeting to some, to others a lifetime. Weed on sweet Lisa. A moment IS a lifetime.
Two hands together /\ Deep bow.
zali @coquicafe
Querida Lisa,adorei a versão da grama e da erva daninha,é realmente mesmo assim que a coisa funciona;conto historinhas parecidas as minhas pequenas crianças,que estão no mesma situação,não com o MM.mas para mim que estudo profundamente sobre esse mal que avança todos sem escolher quem seja, crianças, adultos,até mesmo os idosos,não tem como escapar,quando chega vem com uma avalanche.Por vezes me pego com lagrimas nos olhos em ter que examinar a cada dia,passo a passo,aquelas pequenas camas,onde elas estão,e seus pequenos olhos brilham quando de longe já conheçem meus passos,minha voz,mesmo estando num estado letargicos,eu os chamo de meus anjinhos de dodoi,faço brincadeiras,jogos,levo palhaços,toco violão,invento canções com rima de cada nome,em fim faço o meu papel de medica que pescreve medicações,examino,mas tambem aconhego,e lhes dou toda a minha atenção e amor que possa existir dentro desse coração meu que tem por força da profissão ser duro como uma rocha.Querida voce esta cheia de carinho e mimos e como digo sempre sua mamãe esta ai do seu lado,aconchegando-a no colo,fazendo-a dormir,contando historinhas que tenho certeza que ela contava quando voce era criança.,acredite,pareçe inreal,mas é bem real até para mim que estou tão distante de voce,lendo seu blog,posso sentir tudo que voce expressou,e saber que ela esta ai contigo,além do seus amigos,Ha! como amigos é importante,faz se sentir inteira,e amada,e voce é amada,não vé eu aqui no Brasil compartilhando com voce da sua batalha,onde voce será vencedora,acredite!vencedora.Tem etapas na nossa vida que temos que passar,se a sua é essa,então caminhe sebendo que esta na estrada certa.Voce foi maravilhosa em encaminhar a campanha do MM.Admirei voce,agora voce tem um lugar especial em meu coração e em minhas orações tambem,aqui fico tentando agarranhar fundos para as crianças carentes,onde seus familiares ficam em uma casa de apoio, necessitando de ajuda do governo,estado e toda essa Politicagem que me da nójo,se depedermos nós medicos de governo como voce disse estamos fodidos,desculpa a palavras chula,mas é a que mais se aplica neste caso,pois temos que ser medicos de ALMA E CORAÇÃO,então minha querida a sua grama esta sendo muito bem cuidada,é só esperar mais um pouco,paciencia tem que ter,com uma compreenção que não sei de onde tirar mas tem que te-la,vamos lá não se entregue,derrama toda sua ira no blog,essa é sua vávula de escape,estou aqui com minhas crianças tambem mantendo o meu equilibrio que apredi a te-lo,vivendo a cada dia e minutos que nós ganhamos quando o sol nasce e se poém,vamosl á querida,deixe estravassar tudo que vem dentro de voce pois será uma vencedora.Estou aqui mandando vibrações de saúde e paz no seu corpo e coração,que sua alma receba essa palavras com alegria,que tenho certeza que voce tem.abraços de todos aqui do Brasil e da minha equipe medica,Doutora Luzimar
bonjour du Sud de la france
The fear is just a feeling…. it exists only for the one who creates it… do not afraid of the fear……. it is a part of you…. whom it does not guide you …. it wide awake you
I send you a feeling of yellow intense so that it holds you a little bit warmly as a wool blanket which reassures us a little and warms us the spirit.
Trust you, those who love you… have convictions.
bon courage…le printemps est en route…malgré nos peurs
Hey Lisa, you literally fell into my world a month ago. I picked up the world unseen and loved it. Jumped on to Shamim’s hilarious blog then sadly heard your news. I have since been following your courageous journey on your blog.
I know it’s a crazy time for you but you are one gutsy lady and one day at a time you’ll get through this! You are always in my thoughts and prayers.
PS Channel surfing on Friday night and Water was on SBS Two, omg!…so powerful, I’m still processing it…
PSS – POS isn’t a word but it’s my initials!
Sending you all my strength and aussie F them attitude…
Cheers
“I’m not sure if we can make it. I hope. But I’m not sure.”
Whether or not one moves into the role of categiver alone they can find themselves overwhelmed suddenly or gradually over time.
A “Caregiver” is one who provides support, whether emotional or medical. They can be a family member, a lover, a friend, a parent OR a medical professional.
if you’re getting a vibe that causes you to be concerned then it could be that BobCat may feel alone, unprepared, and overwhelmed by what is expected of him .
Since I don’t know you, I don’t know your history with BobCat, I don’t know what support systems he has to help him deal with this change of course your life has taken but it is abolutely critical that he engage in some sort of counseling for those who sudenly find themselves in the role of a “Caregiver” the same goes for that handsome bloke you call: “Dad.”
This is Catastrophic Illness that we are dealing with Lisa, part of the process includes counseling. It doesn’t have to last forever but it is part of the process that we all must endure.
Whether or not you are happy at the present it is still a good tool to have in your arsenal, particularly with you begin to have doubts.
It is most important. Caregiving is stressful, particularly for those caring for someone with Catastrophic Illness. Caregivers are more likely than their non-caregiving peers to be at risk for depression, heart disease, high blood pressure, and other chronic illnesses, even death.
Caregivers of persons with Catastrophic Illness are at even higher risk for poor health. The following simple, basic preventative healthcare and self-care measures can improve thier health and your ability to continue providing the best care for loved ones (You).
Practice daily exercise.
Eat nutritious meals and snacks.
Get adequate sleep.
Get regular medical check-ups.
Take personjal time. Recreation is not a luxury; it is a necessary time to “re-create”—to renew onesself.
I”ve lived w/ CVatastrophic Illness for 20 years. I KNOW of that of which I speak.
Be peaceful,
Antonia
http://sapphisdezire.t35.com
hi :0)
i am writing u from switzerland and me and my friends are reading from your news everyday and u know what ? i love reading your yellow pages and wait everyday for the next one :0)
merci de partger ces moments :0)
Peace in your heart,
joy all year through…
love now and always
and blessings to you!
Sending out my Christmas cards, and wanted to extend warm wishes to you as well, this holiday season. I feel for you spending most of the holidays in the hospital, but the sooner you get the treatments done, the sooner you can get back to a (normal) life. Yes?
I could never live there, where it gets so cold. I’m a Florida girl by birth, but now live in Atlanta. The slightest bit of snow will immobilize the city. Give me a lounge chair under a palm tree any day of the week.
I hope all your dreams and wishes come true, for your health and happiness in the New Year.
“I think of life itself now as a wonderful play that I’ve written for myself, and so my purpose is to have the utmost fun playing my part.” -Shirley MacLaine-
Sincerely, Jodi
Dear my lonely Lisa,
Welcome back and I’m happy that you are fine. well, new treatment on the way, more difficult to go through but it won’t be long before you’re all better and back to being your same old self again….dun forget to fertilizer oneself with your lovely charming smile and laughing, it’s really works for your healthy .yes you are grass but you’re a brave strong grass, you brave to face any storm, rains and wind from nowhere. You upright again fast. Nothing s can beat you. Your lawn will not had weeds longer coz you have a stronger weeds killer inside your mind, it’s your strong faith and strength, they will KICK their ass and out of your lawn. So, keep on fighting Liz. We are your brothers and sisters (Grasses) just stand beside you. Yes you are right, Fuck the self-pity, you are the real fighter.” Mental smack upside the face. We do what we are meant to do.” just be yourself, nothing wrong with the fear, we are human but not Santos….. If you want it, fear for it, and cry for it ….but grass will upright again. Sunrise sunset, 2molo will be always fresh, and the grass would be always GREEN.
Hope you’ll SOON be feeling fine, the way you were before because things just won’t be the same until you’re well once more. Sharing in your sorrow, Thinking of you and wishing I could be there to hold your hand. Take care my dear friend……njoy your playtime.
felyse
I wish you the best Lisa! You should know that many people are supporting you through this. i hope you can still find rest and peace x
You’re just a loser.
For Audree….
Mary,
What’s wrong? You don’t know Lisa. Lisa is truly kind and feeling, there’s no need for your nonsense on this blog.
NO ONE forced you to come here or to comment negatively.
OMG, How much pain are you in? How lonely are you? We are help to help, there is no need to lash out in pain. Who hurt you?
If you ionsist on acting so immature then I suggest that Lisa ban you from commenting, sllot of people are going to address you and not in a good way.
Don’t be frightened to forget or to feel.
Ah, and you’ll feel whole soon, stronger than before. The “new Lisa”, unexactitude Lisa 🙂 . Soon. You’ll see..
And I will sing with Audree too.
love and prayers…
great to hear from u again… tat lawn thing is really nice way 2 put it.. tc.. hope 2 c more of ur beautiful work on screen..
Dear Lisa
My heart forever together fights with you illness
我的心永遠和妳一起戰鬥病魔
Refuels
加油 加油~
Thank you very much, Yogesh.
Beautiful example of life and fight.
Greetings,
Ximena.
Lisa….
you are amazing….
Wow…. I’m so Happy =D because you are back ! ! ! That’s wonderfull, Everyone here we always thinking in you… and we worry for you.. well I DO…. Be strong!!!! I love you. You’re the Best !! Kisses!!!
From México!!!
Lisa estamos contigo eres lo maximo!! Y un ejemplo de fuerza y ganas de salir adelante…. y lo harás…
Besos y Abrazos
hi Lisa rani,
You are doing good.
When my ex was diagnosed with breast cancer, I knew and told her that it was a phase in our lives -a phase for us.
a marathon. we eventually made it…she is doing much better now. you will get there…and all those who care for you.
🙂 watch that movie if you haven’t already “run fat boy run” :))
sometimes I think, the best manifestations of energy go through the worst ordeals…some kind of “cleansing” act perhaps..
never stop fighting.
R
Hola corazón ! ( Liza Rani Ray )
En estos momentos voy llegando a mi casa, y al entrar a tu blog,…. oooh…que gusto me dió tener noticias tuyas,..
Sabes, hoy es un día para mí muy especial,
porque, hoy recibimos noticias del estado de tu salud, y aunque sabemos lo mucho que estas sufriendo, más y más te queremos porque nos alientas a nunca dejar de luchar por lo que mas quiere uno, la Salud, y hoy por tu Salud.
Es de reconocer que eres una persona muy admirable, muy fuerte y muy lindaa.
tambien el día de hoy recibí una magnifica noticia, es acerca de mi trabajo, primero Dios me contraran en una empresa que es a nivel Mundial, y tienen empresas filiales en Cánada,… y esooo me hace muy feliz porque puedo en un futuro cercano poder ir a conocerte. Wow !!! sería Genial !! es lo que más quiero en este momento conocer otros países, Dios quiera así sea, por eso Liza, nunca debemos perder la Fe, la Esperanza,..
“La Esperanza es el Valor que nos sostiene cuando todo a nuestro alrededor parece haberse perdido”
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Cuando realices una oración siempre ten presente esta canción. es para Tí.
Es de: Celine Dion: Ave Maria– With Lyrics
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No se que me ha pasado, pero desde que te conocí, hace tan solo poco más de un mes, y eso por tu pelicula de “I cant Think straight” y mas delante fui buscando mas de tí en internet,…. ahora en día te considero, te aprecio y te respeto mucho como una amiga cercana.
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Nunca olvides que ante tu enfermedad, No estas solita,….Esta contigo nuestro Padre Jesucristo. María nuestra Madre,…Tu PAPA y tambien nos tienes a todos nosotros tus Fans que a diario buscamos saber de tí, y estas presente en nuestras oraciones.
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En los videos que he visto donde tu estas, te miro que eres de caracter muy alegre, divertida, que haces feliz a las personas que estan ahi a tu alrededor, eres Bella, amable, Inteligente, que más puedo decir,…..Me encantaaas !!!
Eres un Angel,
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Te quierooo Mucho.
Marie
We love you, Lisa!
Sending lots of love and hugs your way to help keep you warm…
Lovely one,
You are an inspiration. Remain strong through this long, exhausting battle. Your beautiful spirit will over come all that is dark and defeating. My thoughts and prayers are with you and yours.
🙂 For all those who feel like giving up…
lol…i though bobcat was a cat…lol…
anyway, my real cats were helpful for me.
Best wishes & lots of prayers….
Your each page is so overwhelming that I really dont know the words to react……. simply lost my capability to communicate it seems..
But a request..plz dont be frightened coz you have no idea how much a lesson you are giving to all of us & we want you that way….Bold, Brave & Strong…coz you’ve got a real long voyage called LIFE !!
🙂
Be Happy…the cultivation is ON !!
My dear dear Lisa, You just moved me to tears…
“I am frightened in a way which makes me forget the Cancer.
I am frightened in a way which makes me feel alive.”
you are an incredible writer, you made stem cells so easy to see and grip… for the first time stem cell become so grassful (made up word) to me… Thank you! And you are an incredible brave person and fighter, I know you don’t think that way of yourself but you are in my eyes. Just can’t believe how much strengths in that tiny fragile elegant little person, to fight the dammit cancer… love you even more when you have no hair and when grew a little bigger & taller… never will miss the beautiful stunning eyes even in a million crowd.
Wonder if the lake in your backyard is ice now? Maybe one sunny day you could sit in your backyard and your gaze will charge you with love and support.
with my love and admiration
From the raining LA
I just ask the dog drop a present for you too… 🙂 it’s on the way to you…
Oh my God, Please don’t misunderstand, do you know how much I love Lisa, I would die for her. I said “you’re just a loser” to kumar because she or he said that “pls stop showing ur photos, i cantsee u like that”, I’m just so up set. Lisa is my strengh, my hope & everythings, please don’t misunderstand that.
To Audree in Winnipeg!
Yogesh !Please, do not show Kolek!
Йогеш! Пожалуйста, не показывайте Колек!
Brazil, Beijing, Boston, netherlands, Hungary, Taiwan, France, Japan, UK, Greece, Italy, Barcelona, Detroit, Thailand, LA, Paris, TO,
Love from all over the world.
Hope to see you some day.
hey u forgot about ROMANIA and Italy too
hey lisa i ve sign up too in wordpress just for you
Habibi Lisa,
I have read your last and this new blog and as well seen the interview with Mark Kelly, what strikes me the most is the ‘steerly’ determination you have, even more so now, with your stem cell transplant just round the corner. So hang in there, ‘kiddo’ – I believe you come out as the winner of this fight.
It is good to slow down and pause for a bit and just take each day as it is – do whatever you want to do, if u want to curl in bed for few days or weeks – so be it…most important you know that your Yellolutionist diarists fans are here to support you (even me in the background). I have not been around much due to my own personal commitment these past few weeks but I am reading the blogs/tweets/comments and I am here…not going anyway…..
Take care my lovely Habibi….
BB, BG, BSmiling Always
MF
http://ceabelita.wordpress.com/
FOR LISA RAY’S FAN JUST READ IT
Dear Del,
That was brave of you to share with Lisa. I wish all the best and complete recovery as you go through this ordeal process.
Keep fighting and will be in my prayers too.
Lots of love from Jose
To Lisa- (Its okay to not feel ok with all this.Life is difficult but its always an opportunity.Thank you for using even this experience as an opportunity.)
She’s a beautiful soul
Of light and fireflies
All glowing good things
She’s a warrior,a conqueror
Of worlds within
A world
-And-
I love her smile
Her faith- her
Winsome confidence
The essence of Awe
That pervades her being
And Most of all
The thing that makes her
More than the heroes and heroines-
Much much more-her
To be continued type
Dreaming
The Spinning of silken sheets
Gentle offerings
Made to all-
her musings
Like Dancing Butterflies
Never seems to cease
Unending Hope
That’s hope never ending
Even whilst the night unfolds
Its hoary wings all
About Her.
Come on,lisa!
I apologize Mary. Apparently I misunderstood your comment. We all feel protective of Lisa, and want the best for her. But please don’t gom as far as wanting to die for anyone because your life is also valuable.
pls dont fight antonia and mary…and don t speak about death…and kumar pls don t say that too…what kind of support is that?don t show these photos..
if we really love her…we have to be for her…to encourage her…she needs this!!!i m not a perfect person …i dont know a perfect person…i admire Lisa because she s got the force,the faith in her to go ahead ,to fight!!!she s powerful and i learned that even u fall down u can try and try 100 times,but is important how is ends this..i mean u ll get up!!
pace and love guys
love you lisa i hope one day i ll see u..i dont give up(i learned from u )
ana maria from romania
hey so u back! i am so glad to hear from u …. wish u all the best. plz keep writing and dont leave this blog…
good to have you back 🙂
*never stop fighting*
I was driving home just before sunset today with a very dramatic sky for a backdrop. Blue sky sandwiched between big white clouds bubbling up from the horizon and high clouds lit from below with a light already turning to gold when a rainbow cut through the lot. And I suddenly thought of your blog, which I read this morning. A rainbow – white light that reveals all it’s beautiful colours, the whole spectrum in a wonderful clear arc. Under certain conditions all our colours are revealed, and we shine in a different way. Your light has all the colours, truth and sincerity of a rainbow, and will cut through all the clouds.
I’ll be on an aeroplane on 21st so will be rising above the clouds. Thought is creation, and with all the people who will be thinking of you on the 21st, I think we have the creative force to create a small planet!
Much light.
ceabelita
ary and I nare not fighting please mind your business. There is no need to interrupt.
i dont wanna fight with nobody and my bussiness is Lisa Ray and this BLOG!!!
of course i dont want to interrupt your discussion with mary…i appologise if i wanted to be just educated and kind…pls continue.. but dont forget it’s about Lisa Ray
http://www.lisaraniray.com/news.html
Get well soon… Love you.
Aparna & Satadru.
ceabelita
You are correct this is LISA’s blog NOT YOUR Blog. The misunderstanding I had with Mary was easily corrected. I don’t know why you are insisting on meddling in matters that do not concern you. LEAVE it ALONE! The conversatrion has ended, STOP TRYING TO CREATE CONFLICT. I am done responding to your nonsense and I will not respond to any other comment on this matter.
Lisa knows me because of my efforts to raise funds for Princess Margaret Hospital through my website:
http://sapphisdezire.t35.com
Now leave m,e ALONE.
plus Syria .
entire world lisa:)
i dont wanna search or create conflict
i m sorry
pace and love
nice about what you are doing congradulations
if i can help just tell me how
sorry again
congradulation antonia your website it s amayzing!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yes, the entire world…
Argentina, Chile, Perú, Paraguay…
And… Canadá and India. Of course.
Wherever we are… Lisa is there.
Greetings for all,
Love, Habibti,
Ximena.
FFF!!!
hola lisa;
lisa tanto tiempo me alegra saber que escribió de nuevo… gracias por eso !!!por mantenernos al tanto de lo que te pasa.hay que ser fuerte …tener fe de que todo tiene que salir bien!!!hay que ser positivo…toda la fuerza del mundo vida para el 21 de diciembre…te quiero mucho boludaaa !!!
mis saludos para la gente que te acompaña en esta lucha…
saludos de aca de argentina…
by naty f.
el 23 de diciembre es mi cumple,cumplo 21 años. nada queria contar nada mas!!!bye
xoxo
“ I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they go right. You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart, so that better things can fall together. ”
a little quote from Marilyn Monroe
Dear Lisa,
You are so brave and beautiful. what a fighter, I wish you all the success in this fight…
I lost my dearest father to cancer recently, dam it cancer, he was a picture of health, a poet, a musician, he loved life….
You’ve got to keep fighting and never give up, you’ve got to bit it…, for you, and your family that that love you
all the best
That was a sizzling honest post. It affected me more than any of your past ones. Ills of the self. They can be, like yours, of the physical body nature, or they can be of the mental body or emotional or even spiritual body. There is just one of you, one Self, and it’s eternal. I don’t have any physical body things going on, but that mental body of mine is a very active thing! So, I’m like, who is really feeling anger, who is really feeling frustrated, who is really feeling hurt, disappointed, scared..and on and on and on…. it’s not my Self, that’s for sure, because the Self doesn’t feel any of that stuff. It just IS. For eternity…like you. It’s the damn mind causing all of the trouble!
I just wish peace for you during this journey. The peace of knowing that none of this can affect YOU. I see the real you witnessing all of this and being unaffected. You’ll make it, even if it’s inch by inch, you’ll make it. I’ll be praying for you to be surrounded by peace and the love that is always eternally there for us.
Life Is A Song
Life is a song.
It has its own way of escaping,
Ridding free of this plastic globe.
It takes you on an incredible journey,
Listening to those lyrics for the first time,
And hearing the sounds beyond them-
You just don’t know what to expect
And this is only the beginning.
Life is a song.
It can make you feel anything,
With every beat, note, or tune,
Something is always happening.
Our frowns are rotating 180 degrees or
Tears dispersing into laughter.
Our actions unravel the events of tomorrow
But that’s just the way of a song.
Life is a song.
We get to a fork in the road
Where decisions have to be made,
When the song changes its verse into a refrain.
Where in your life,
Unwanted troubles may stain perfection,
But you learn from your mistakes.
And that’s just the way life goes.
Then one day, the song ends.
And the incredible journey has reached its destination.
The memories seem to fade away
But they will always remain deep within you.
The song fades into silence,
But the lyrics will always resonate in your mind.
And although it ends,
Life is just a song.
with love ana maria
13 december 2009 10:42pm north of italy ,treviso
good night lisa sweet dreams and wainting you when you can and got time
it s in romanian and pofta de viata it means lust for life…i hope doesnt disturb nobody if i put it here
hi
I’m Brazilian!
I prayed for you today
and I will continue ….
you know there are cures that are not for this life
but love is for this life and for all.
thank you for being strong.
It will get better and you will be much better.
Love you.
always nice to read you, Lisa.
your title ? good analogy…;-)
let me tell you :
Fifteen days ago, we walked in this hospital, where we sat and waited for the nurses.
i was thinking about you and other people who are fighting.
i was watching these patients waiting for their chemos.
in front of us, an old lady, head coverted with a hat.
she asked us how lucky we were to be hungry, because she was not.
and she envied us while we started eating big sandwiches as the chemo began.
we felt sorry for her, cause she couldn’t eat anything.
but we could do nothing.
and then she left, trying to recover her senses as she woke up and walked away. that was a sad thing.
and then i stopped crying for my brave man, for me (“what would i become?!”) what right have i to think like that?
we must keep fighting!
As example, few days before we learned bad news from the scan results. Nodules appeared on the right lung.
what a s***!
but we keep faith. as well as you do. always.
take care of you lisa, and enjoy your public reading party!
Hélène (France)
Lisa,
Thinking of you and sending you warm, positive, yellow energy from (cloudy and wet) Los Angeles.
And lots of love…
Suzanne Y.
dear lisa
it hurts me to know you are afraid and i cant help by cry for you.. do you remember in one of your interviews you stated that your life ambition was to face the biggest challenge? well this is it and you WILL beat it because i hold you in my heart. and scrabble is an awesome game im a master at it. 🙂 never give up lisa even if you feel alone inside, you’re NOT!! you are one word that describes everything in life and that was is ” beauty” you’re a fighter and you move me when i read what you write, to me and millions you are a thousand words and more… you’re lisa ray,
you’re the best part of my day,
you are alive
you WILL survive
dont feel bitter, dont feel sour
for you are my special flower xxx
love always…………anna!
Lisa,
Read this carefully: You are entitloed to feel all of th emotions you are currently experiencing, Anxiety, uncertainty, fear, doubt, sadness ecetera.
However you must realize that if you were destined to be diagnosed with this incredibly inconvenient illness that this is probably the best time for it to have happened. I lived for over 10 years with a potentially crippling illness before I started treatments that led to my remissio , and just iun time believe me.
With medical advances in the treatment of MM and with your army of angels at the ready to give you anything you need (all you have to do is ask and I am sure you will receive). You are in quite possibly the best position you could be in compared to individuals diagnosed with MM prior to these groundbreaking medical advances.
Now all of us are blessed to have such wonderful people showing us with words of love and support, who wait with bated breath just to read our words.
Lisa you are indeed blessed and loved by more individuals than you can ever imagine.
Never give up, and never claim this illness.
To my lovely Lisa
A poem to you:
My special Lisa, I want you to know how much you mean to us.
My special Lisa has strength and courage her whole(Yellow) family can see.
My special Lisa showed us all how to handle life’s blows.
My special Lisa sister took it all in stride, smiled, and said, “That’s how it goes”.
My special Lisa, through all her pain, never once gave up or complained.
My special Lisa has dignity, warmth, and inner beauty that can’t be explained.
My special Lisa, with all she was going through, always thought of others.
My special Lisa always took time to give of herself to friends, sisters and brothers.
My special Lisa was always there with her kind thoughts, deeds, and caring.
My special Lisa is well known and loved for her capacity for sharing.
My special Lisa needs to know how much she means to those who love her, especially us( the yellow family).
My special Lisa’s strength, courage, and beauty are a shining example for all to see.
My special Lisa has carried a heavy burden for quite a long while.
My special Lisa would not allow us to share any of her pain but always her smile.
My special Lisa is surely a guardian angel sent from above.
My special Lisa, these heartfelt words are for you, from all of us who care, with all our love.
bless u everything ok on ur new treatment…..
felyse
hey!…just keep the faith and you’ll be fine!
There can be miracles when you believe…
hope to see u in many more movies!
Dear Lisa,
If I could, I would build a scaffold, and in the spirit of the great Michelangelo painting the Sistine Chapel, I would lay on my back paint all of those ugly hospital drop ceilings with the most beautiful of images for you to look at and be inspired by while you travel your long journey back to health.
Hamilton has an amazing facility there, World class. They did wonders to help bring my mother back to wonderful health. You will be in good hands in a good place.
I’ll think of you on the 21st, and send lots of healthy and healing energy your way.
Love,
MD
Lisa
The universe gives to us that for which we ask. Don’t say that you want to be challenged or want drama or anything like that. It’s time to ask for health, peace, ask for people to come into your life who are compassionate, understanding, non judgemental. Ask for cake and ice cream anything positive. NEVER ask for challenges again.
REMEMBER: “The universe gives to us that for which we ask.”
You Friend Antonia
The Lisa Ray Page:
http://sapphisdezire.t35.com/LisaRayPage.htm
Lisa,
Thank you so much for writing about your experiences. I go to these ‘rooms’ full of chairs and IVs and people… sitting in their blankets… reading their books… or chatting with family. My father does not have cancer but he does have ITP (his body kills off his platelets). When I take him to his appointments now, I will have more insight into what is going on … and what these individuals are going through. I especially liked the photo of your father :o) You are so incredibly lucky and blessed to have him in your life!
My father is a retired Tennis Pro and I never saw him have a cold growing up. This is such a change. But… he never complains (well… he does mention he feels like a Dart Board at times… when it takes a few sticks to find a vein). It has been an interesting journey.
My Bulldog puppy wanted me to say she LOVES ‘Moon Faces’… of course, she has one herself! Haha
Take care of yourself!
Susan R.
Goodnight Babushka,
sending well wishes for a smooth uneventful stem cell transplant and quick recovery. The day you get the melphalan know your mom will be there as always,she lives on in those who care for you at home and around the world. Most of all she lives on in you ,your strenght and resilience,your humor and humility. Know she is proud.
Lisa, I’ve just recently discovered you, I can’t think where I’ve been on the planet for that to be so. I’m sort of stuck in this chair for hours and hours to get through the day.
I’ve read all of your writings that I can find and I add my voice and wishes for your recovery. I don’t know you but I couldn’t believe that here I’ve just found you and then I learn of your cancer.
It was like somebody punched me in the gut, I just sat here and stared at the screen wishing that I’d read that wrong. I can’t think what to say to you about that I’m sure you’ve heard it all.
You are a wonderful actress, I am quite fond of good acting. I can’t recall how I got to the youtube vid of the making of I Can’t Think Straight but it was a gift from the universe. I ordered both of those movies and can hardly wait to see them. I will also find your other movies to watch.
So in the research I did revealed in interviews I how you feel about acting and directors etc. I like how you talked about Shamim being an actors director. The small amount of watchng you work and reading your writings tells me that you flow…to me a very nice way to be. Although I’m sure your struggle is anything but flowing.
I’ve been broken since I had a stroke/AVM and brain surgery that doctors saved me. The usual outcome is pretty much instant death. It was years before I could do things like walk and talk again and to learn to deal with big loss. What I miss the most is my job and well yes my brain function too. I was also a jazz musician, acoustic bass. All gone…
So I have a clue, a small one anyway of what you are going through. I have to carry on with very limited abilities especially compared to what I was before. My working life was on a differnt kind of stage from yours but a stage none the less, I was a chef in San Francisco. Enough about me I could really go on about all that stuff.
I hope you and your loved ones have a good holiday season.
Peace,
Sylvia Matthews in Anchorage
TRY JESUS
God will make a way,
Where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love and strength for each new day
He will make a way, He will make a way.
By a roadway in the wilderness, He’ll lead me
And rivers in the desert will I see
Heaven and earth will fade
But His Word will still remain
He will do something new today.
God will make a way,
Where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love and strength for each new day
He will make a way, He will make a way
O LORD, you have examined my heart and know everything about me.
You know when I sit down or stand up. You know my every thought when far away.
You chart the path ahead of me and tell me where to stop and rest. Every moment you know where I am.
You know what I am going to say even before I say it, LORD.
You both precede and follow me. You place your hand of blessing on my head.
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, too great for me to know!
I can never escape from your spirit! I can never get away from your presence!
If I go up to heaven, you are there; if I go down to the place of the dead, you are there.
If I ride the wings of the morning, if I dwell by the farthest oceans,
even there your hand will guide me, and your strength will support me.
I could ask the darkness to hide me and the light around me to become night–
but even in darkness I cannot hide from you. To you the night shines as bright as day. Darkness and light are both alike to you.
You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body and knit me together in my mother’s womb.
Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex! Your workmanship is marvelous–and how well I know it.
You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion, as I was woven together in the dark of the womb.
You saw me before I was born. Every day of my life was recorded in your book. Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed.
How precious are your thoughts about me, O God! They are innumerable!
I can’t even count them; they outnumber the grains of sand! And when I wake up in the morning, you are still with me!
Psalm 139
HELLO MY EMERALD-EYED!!!!
I am here….
I had written all of your feelings. I know all of these even more dear Lisa Ray 🙂
I will write after not now…
beginning to accept the disease, After the concerns, fears about everything,now more difficult , you care coming to the most important part.To purify, yourself and with life, luck, peace with the disease .Is ıt difficult?
Yes very difficult.You need much more time. But you know, you must…It will be! It must be..! you going to do….We will do together. I will take care of all my efforts and all my empaty everytime, every moment. I am here now and forever…You know.I never leave…..
I never say ” you have to strong”.
“be strong” for now. such as threats, insults, such as sink say, be sus mean, does an injustice for you.
your imagine you’re searching to find interest from a male….? you have the answer Lisa. I wrote about men and their feelings. I do not want to write again…If you remember you understand me. There is no harm in his.
Lisa’ll write more later. Just a little busy today..Just this morning. I will come A few hours later.
Love Lisa..
LISA=DOĞA
Lisa love,
It’s about 5′ silent after I have read your new post. I don’t know what to say, just there is love and hurt in my heart. You have a lot of fans and I am one of them. Our hearts are always by your side thought you can’t see them. Feel them Lisa! Feel love and care and our dreams of touching you.
It hurts! of course it hurts you, the damn disease.
Last Friday, I went to the cinema and watched the 2012 movie. It is so scared Lisa. I imagine how it be when there is a real end days of us. You know, I strongly believe one day like this, we all finally go away from the earth. And I think of you. I wish you also have the faith in the Buddha, like me, wish you trust and pray for yourself. I sense the pain you are experiencing. And of course, I feel so sad when feeling that pain. My mother had cancer and had gone. I stayed with her till her last day. See how I can know about misery of a cancer person.
Lisa, please pray every time for your health and pray to be taken your pain, your disease away. Do believe in Buddha.
May all good things come to you.
Thai Binh from Viet Nam
Lisa,
I think what I am going to say is not in your consideration. But you still remember Sheetal Sheth? She is a vegetarian. Being a person of only eating vegetable foods is so very very good Lisa. You can’t know what magic it can give you. Commonsense, people think of eating much meat, beef, chicken to have nutrition to overcome illness. It is wrong absolutely honey. How we can be strong and healthy when we take the other lives for food? So, I strongly hope that you can see my words and think of this idea.
Honey, please be a vegetarian to save your precious life and the other. I know it’s hard to perceive our love for you when you just can see our words in this web. But honey, we love you.
Thai Binh- Viet Nam
Lisa! Glad to hear from you again!
You’re always the reason for me to be strong and remind how trivial are those things which make me unhappy.
I would be glad to be grass on which you’re always a flower with true beauty not only appearance, but the good heart inside.
Take care!
Hope everything is going to be alright with the stem cell transplant. 🙂
Be God always be around you and protect you!
Love,
Maschera
Dear !!!
Love you much. You will be better soon my dear!!!
I believe from my heart. Don’t worry . Everything will be fine soon since your transplant is just around the corner.
Pray for your health everyday.
Silence
dearest, beautiful lisa. i suppose you don’t need any further ideas how to go on these days, but d’you know byron katie’s “the work”? if not, you might taste it…
send you love with all my heart.
gina
My Dear Lisa
I’m to happy to read you again, few minutes ago I watched your last interview with Mark Kelley and I really love a phrase that you said: “What everyone wants is to be happy”… and one again, for you I be happy. You’re the most inspiration in my life. I know that in this process you’ve had difficult days but don’t worry, your family, friends and Yellow Family are with you ^^
I have the hope than one day I’ll can see you, meet you and hug you… I promise you.
Be Strong!!
After you Stem Cell Transplant all gonna be alright.
I send you all my good feeling I LOVE YOU my beautiful Lisa.!
From Spain
Lore
G’morn Lisa,
I’d agree with Lore from Spain and others, that your interview with Mark Kelly of CBC was interesting. Unlike the CBS/NBC of America, our journalists go for meaningful stories to air on national TV!! I hope Mark will follow up as he said he would. Such stories as yours are worth the time and investment for all to know and hopefully, provide more support.
BTW – I read in the Toronto Star this morning that Deepa Mehta of Waters, will be one of the torch bearer on Dec 16th! I had been thinking all along that it would be wonderful if the City chose you to walk the Winter Olympic flame. Wow! It was a pretty close thought and now Deepa will be walking downtown!
You take care and stay strong. We’re with you in our prayers.
Have a nice day!
Jenny in TO.
my dear lisa ray
that’s good to hear from you
could write about your relationship with bobcat, and your fears
but no! you’ve read much about that in the new post!
just has to tell you that I admire you more than
ever before, that strength you have is enormous, say
there after the storm comes the calm, so do not worry
everything will be fine ….. fear is human, do not be afraid in this life, Worry!
I’ll take you in my thoughts every minute of my life, thank you for existing!
mucha luz mucha fuerza siempre!!
love always
Hey Lisa =)
Happy to read your blog once again. Loved the lawn part.
You’re always in my thoughts & prayers (especially on the 21st ;))
Take care!
“Anyone can give up, it’s the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that’s true strength.”
Hello Lisa, I write you from Venezuela. I just read about you and your desease yesterday because of some movies you were at that I watched yesterday.
I just want to say that I send you my energy for you to have a complete recovery and I will keep you in my prayers.
hi lisa whats up?
it was such a bad day today…but thinking that i ll be home and write u…it makes me smile…u know ur smile makes me happe…it is fulling me!!!!
kisse from romania and from italy
HI¡…..HERE¡….ME ..AGAIN?….SO¡¡¡
…..THERE…….DADDY AND YOU?…OH¡¡…AND BOBBY CAT TOO¡…..AND MANY FRIENDS AROUND OF YOU…..YEAH¡¡…
”R” I THOUGHT… THIS YEAR I WOULD NOT BE IN THE HOSPITAL … ONE MORE YEAR ..¡¡FREE¡¡ ….VIVA¡…..
BUT … THE WEEKEND …. … SURGERY…¡AGAIN¡ … SOMETHING GOOD …. MHH ¡¡… HOSPITAL WITH BETTER COLOR PAINT YOUR WALLS ….” PINK “….
…. WARM LIKE “CHILDHOOD” …. BUT ….¿ WHY THE INJECTIONS ARE NOT ROSES ?…. I MEAN … WE ALWAYS SEE THEM, “INJECTIONS AND SERUM”
bla,bla,bla….. AND EVERYTHING ELSE IN COLOR ROSE .. ….JUST AN IDEA¡¡¡….”CRAZY”…BUT SOME TIMES….NICE?…. VERY PINK …. MAYBE…MMMHH¡¡….. ITS ONLY ROSE IDEA .. MAYBE TOO “ROSE”. …. DO NOT YOU? … HA, HA, HA¡¡
“R”
I SEE YOU “HEALTHY AND HAPPY” ……. AS THE “MONTERREY CHAMPIONS” AND “!ELEN¡” WITH HER NEW “RED MINICOOPER WITH 2 WHITE LINES” DRIVING ALONG THE THE BEACH …. I SEE YOU IN THIS WAY…..” H E A L T H Y AND H A P P Y”
…..¿ WHAT DO YOU WANT?…MAKE A WISH¡¡¡…VA¡….
WHAT DO YOU REALLY WANT?
LIKE I TOLD ELEN
YOU BE CAREFUL WITH YOUR “THOUGHTS” …. BECAUSE “THEY CAN COME TRUE” …
“R” .. EVERYTHING IS POSSIBLE “…. NEVER FORGET THIS
ARE ALWAYS IN MY HEART: YOUR MAMI, YOU “R” AND YOUR NEEDS…AH¡¡ … AND NOW ALSO YOUR DADDY AND BOBBY CAT
SALU2
VERÓNICA
hello lisa
hope your well
i miss your blog from the moment you end the last one..
been thinking about you alot..cant pass days without you now…you have become my strength..i wonder how you are..what your up2? i was on google earth earlier on today looking for toronto….never done that before but just wanted to be where you are…with you..never had interest in toronto but now it feels my “jaan” is there.
im in tears right now cant stop crying…just i dont know ;( nothing going right for me at the moment person i love and have been with 9 years is getting married to somebody else….and i am helping my love get married to somebody else coz thats what he wants and what makes him happy…so yeah its cutting deep through my soul…..
..i dont eat, dont sleep, just be in my room, i have shut down soo badly and locked myself up in my room…i dont talk to anyone…whenever i cry or get upset i just look at your pic or see an interview of yours or a scene of your movie and seeing you gives me some strength…i read your blogs again and again…..
i like being with you lisa…i do spend all my time with you…when i talk to you it feels im talking to myself, when i see your smile… it gives me strength…the world needs people like you, but it doesnt need people like me…
I wish Allah would give you my life…and make you better and just take mine away….and i do pray for this.
thank you for being my inspiration:) everyday i admire you more then i have before. i pray for your happiness & your good health and may you get all the blessings in the world 🙂 inshallah everything will go well for you. i have been reading shamims blog and just love it when she writes about you.
sending you sunshine, care, warmth, all my love, prayers & best wishes, today & always
Lisa you have become my angel and i miss you very much.
i love you very much.
tc darling
Amina
May The Sun Alwayz
Shine On Your
Windowpane
May A Rainbow Be
Certain To Follow Each
Rain
May The Hand Of A
Friend Alwayz Be Near
You
May GOD Fill Your
Heart With Gladness To
Cheer You … (:
HELLO MY EMERALD-EYED!!!!
Did you see my darling when you write, everyone is here. A lot of people are thinking of you. A good friend is Forming a nice blog for you. Think Lisa….
Did you see the look of love, no limits. Was unrequited love true ?
yes the world was small, love has no limit. a door closes and a door opens…Everyone in here knows the value of happiness.We do not call unhappiness. We learned to find happiness or we are working for this….
your mental health of the most vital thing for you. some people real next to you, but at the same time far away from you that the people ( us ), not only with you, we are inside you dear Lisa Ray. we will overcome these difficult days together Lisa Together. one condition!!!
You will keep to open your heart eyes. You will believe me.
You will believe of love’s power.
Can you trust me ? Can you trust us ?
thoughts can not occur, If it does not combine with feelings.
Please Lisa Ray please tell me ? I know, you read your blog.
You know me, I was able to prove to you., if you want ,you can feel everything. You open your feelings, you try to work your brain’ s big part. So we will be together with us energy. You believe or not. I am talking 🙂
How many times life can hit ? I know ,The life hit 2 times in a short time to you.
Do you know ,what will I do ?
I will put your heart on my head. for ,you see from the hill all beauties, all the happiness .
I know, now you want just your mother next to you. Not your father, not your parner, not us of course…You need your mam. If your mother can be with you. Maybe you can smile sincere. But Lisa What we can do ? ha ? She can not be next you. We can not change facts. I am sorry Lisa , realy sorry 😦
Believe me Lisa Ray ,in the presence ….. the absence…. Maybe difficult than dead. I live for my family always Lisa. But I had a shock after 36 years. The Truth, sometimes painful. You know ….
What we do well ?
We will forgive lisa, we will be at peace with life Lisa, We will forgive our chances. we will forget regret….We will try! this is only solution
“people who sleep with anger, sits with injury”.
You can fling, Because of your concerns, dont do subsequently something sad of you .
Maybe when your partner read your blog, he can be sad.
but the response may still crusher. His aim is not to break you. I can explain much more my ideas…I can make more comments about your private life. I understand your and your partner’s feelings. I do not have much more rights for comment for this subject. I want to talk but I must stop I know. I know where I am. I know where ı have to stop my dear.
we will leave behind the yesterday my dream friend.
I love you although everything:-)
LISA=DOĞA
Hello Lisa,
Once I had to go to hospital, there were some children helping me with my fear. I’ll never forget that, it was unbelievable! Now I’m sending you their toughts, hoping that helps you a bit, too.
They told me, to look at my disease as if I’m playing a game on children’s playground.
Therefore to get better means
to climb three stairs
to stumble twice,
perhaps to fall once.
But if you never stop trying, you go upwards and better…
And if you try to take two stairs all at once – perhaps you’re on the top sooner as you ever thought.
Thank you very much indeed for your blog!! I can’t image what you are going through now, but i wish you the best, al lot of strength, health and especially luck!
Bye for now from Munich …
I know this is a space for us to send Lisa support, but I was moved to tears by your comment Amina and I want you to know that you mare not alone and that many of us understand your pain.
If you need someone to “talk” to you can write to me at:
hypervisionvideos@gmail.com
Keep fighting!!! One week for your transplant, always think positive, everything will be fine!!!!
A lot of kisses from Brazil
Habibiti,
We know it’s difficult to you this moment. Very hard.
But think about it.
You have your dad (your rock)…
You have Bobcat (your partner in this way)…
You have your mom. Like an angel. The angels protect us.
They are always with us…
And you have your YELLOWLUTION. Don’t forget us…
A simple phrases for you: “Thanks for being”.
“A pleasure to share this life with you” Seconds, days, months, years. At the same time…
That’s amazing. Really. Trust me.
Peace. Fortitude.
And: FIGHT!! FIGHT!!! FIGHT!!!
But allow yourself to be bad. You are a human being . A beautiful human being.
Prayers, thoughts, and best best best wishes,
Ximena.
Guys
December 21st
I am sure that date (December 21st ) means to all of us truly deeply ,
So regardless to our races ,background, color, beliefs,
I suggest one thing :
To devote whole time prays on date of 20 and 21 December for Lisa.
We pray for Lisa every day true , but let’s united our pray on those both days.
Maybe if we have honest heart, true clean body and soul , honest bleeding pray ,Maybe we will be heard with times inshallah.
=====================
Lisa ,Our Sunshine
have rest and take care about yourself.
Btw,We still need one more post of you in closer time
cause we are fond of you .we can’t help it .
Leave you with god’s care
Salam alikum
Lisa!
I wish I could have been at your reading! Sure it rocked!
Reading your post about “Ellen’s Lawn” and you feeling like trampled grass reminded me of this verse from one of my favorite David Byrne songs. I think, perhaps, with your sense of humor, you’ll both enjoy it and see its twisted truth:
“Green grass grows around the backyard shithouse.
That is where the sweetest flowers bloom.
We are flowers growing in god’s garden.
That is why he spreads the shit around.”
love you,
frankjude
I really liked the photos of nature and the place where you are in the blog, very pleasant to watch. There is Desire to be pulled out from the big megacity on the nature.
Мне очень понравились фотографии природы и места, где вы находитесь в блоге, очень приятно смотреть. Появляется Желание вырваться из большого мегаполиса на природу.
Crazy. Headed administrator.
Безумные. Во главе администратора.
I was at the mall today, Christmas shopping for my son. Saw the cutest hats with matching scarves and thought of you.They would look amazing on you. (you need to keep your head warm) I know you must be a little anxious for next week, just remember how many people are behind you, praying for you, sending their love and support.
You are a special person, with a special talent. Everyone here has been touched by you in some way, and they are fighting with you, for you. So take a deep breath…exhale.
“The soul always knows what to do to heal itself. The challenge is to silence the mind.” – Caroline Myss –
Godspeed, Jodi
What a relief to see you online again!
Still wish to meet you face to face soon …
Luler
Hong Kong
Dear Lisa-
Thank you for another glance into your world. Honest as always, your words leave us in awe.
I thought I would pass on some information to all of you regarding the potential for stem cell harvesting and storage for future use. An oal surgeon in NYC who is a dear friend of mine has a partner in his practice who has started a service to store viable teeth (especially wisdom) which hold the elusive stem cells within their pulp.
If you or a loved one has to have teeth removed for any reason, they may contain stem cells that can be kryogenically stored for future use if (God forbid) needed.
Anyone needing wisdom tooth extraction SHOULD look into this service as it may save your life in the future. Please visit Stemsave.com for more information. If this helps spread a little hope for all of us then….
Love ya Lisa- Namaste, Tish
Hi Lisa,
I would say alternative medicines (ayurveda etc) with your existing medical treatment will be good.
Wish you best for your life
As someone who has been living with a catastrophic illness many years, I know the value of Western Medicine and the importance for Lisa to first control her illness with traditional proven medical treatments. While non-traditional medicine is helpful there is NO clinical data to support the use of ayurveda as a viable treatment to MM. Lisa knows that first she needs to get the disease to a manageable state before she heeds unsoliticited medical advice.
Dear Lisa,
as many may tell you about how you should keep the faith, i wish the same for you, but as a breather…..
i think you write really really well.
so keep writing…and remember…there always is light at the end of the tunnel.
Babe, Hows u? You have been in my thoughts a lot more since your last post. Was trying to process what you wrote over and over again, even at work. Thought you are at your most vulnerable emotionally now. Maybe you are even letting your mind work overtime.
Cherish everything baby. Think of it, we don’t really know you, know you, and yet, we do cherish you. Who knows what tommorrow has in store for any of us. You probably sense/perceive stuff and therefore your sketicism. We all live for love and everything else seriously, in my opinion is bull crap. However, Our lives are much bigger than one person, one love, one relationship. All we can do is
love that person (be it your partner, dad or friends) and thank god for every day we’ve had/have with them.
Babe, for the next couple of months, the only thing you have to focus on, is your health. Most importantly on being happy (agreed it sounds weird and lots of people that write here are right, I have absolutely no idea what it feels like to be in an adverse health situation). Put everything else on the back burner. You are crossing a bridge at the moment, and I hope you will only cross any more that you have to when you get to them. Easier said than done. 😦
Right now, its time to kick some MM ass.
How long at St: Joseph’s? Won’t ever ask you to tweet or write no more until you are completely recovered. Try orange flavored losenzes for nausea and don’t forget your calcium. You live in our hearts and we won’t just think of you on Dec 21st, but everyday here on till you are MM-free. Remember, we are only a few key strokes away, reach out to us if we can do something for you.
Love you lots Babe and a big group bear hug
God Bless
Hi Lisa, Well I came across the news of your cancer and i was shocked and the first thing that came to my mind was a flashback of that afreen song which you did………. I was like no way,,,,,.. Then i read more about you and saw all those clips and came to know that u been doing some hollywood stuff as well….
I must say you are a brave soul… Like you said that disclosure will have reprecussions on ur career but u cared more about the people to get to know about this rather than just keeping it to ur self.. But hey look at it now, u r getting love from all over the world and in this box from toronto as well ;).
Wow, u surely are a dream girl and u look even prettier with ur really short hair ;)…
I want to dedicate a bollywood song to you…. Listen to maula meray maula……… and know that there is someone in toronto who is really praying for you from the heart…..
Hi honey, Lisa
I am waiting to read your new posts to know that you’re still there with strength and truth. Every day, I visit your blog just to read your words again and again. I watch ” I can’t think straight” thousand times just to see your face and hear your voice. It is so amazing honey. I just have two films of you here b/c I have not yet found out all the films you starred. One day, I will look for them at all the shop in Ho Chi Minh city.
Honey, pls upload your recent photos. So that we can know you honey. Talk more about yourself, a/b the treatment and about the films. I love to read all things a/b you.
All the best for you!
With love,
Ah Lisa,
Have you tried traditional medicine yet. I believe this kind of treatment also works well for you Lisa. A lots of people in the world are soon recovered after using traditional cure. Will you try?
Love you
Dear Lisa,
I’m so glad to see your new blog!
Winter is coming, and the weather is getting cold. Dear, please be careful, and do keep warm , don’t catch a cold.
Thank you for telling us your Stem Cell Transplant schedule.
I know the“conditioning regimen” of high dose chemotherapy is very tough, and you will feel very uncomfortable, (give you a big hug), but I think and believe that you can make it!
( Please pay attention to infections, especially oral infection.)
The high dose chemotherapy will destroy the cancer cells in your bone marrow, in the process, it will also destroy the blood-producing cells in your bone marrow. But please trust your own stem cells, when they are thawed and infused back into you, in time, they will begin to produce new blood cells, and bring you a new life!:)
And I trust the Buddha and Bodhisattva to be with you through it all.
By the way, I really like your new hairstyle.
Love you!
Christine
From Taiwan
Lisa dear,
It is refreshing to hear from you again. You must be beyond tired. Thank you for keeping us updated. I learn so much from you. The path you are taking is not easy… but I wish to be with you in your journey. Hope, love, beauty, life, faith, tears, fears, sadness, uncertainty. I have never quite fully understood these words…feelings…, if you may, …until you came along. Best regards.
I never imagined writing to you, amazing how you could make other people come out and express their thoughts through your blog. Curious at first, now I feel involved, I hate the feeling but it keeps me human. You remind me to slow down, to learn to take a step one at a time and to enjoy life everyday with all simplicity. I’ve always thought of that though, maybe it’s just so easy to plan or think than act on it. Now I find myself taking some time to pause again, to reflect, to discern.
Thank you, for your smile that makes me forget the pain I’ve been keeping for years. Thank you for those eyes that teach me to look at one’s soul again, and thank you for the life you’re fighting for, it gives me the reason to go on. Lastly thank you for the hair you’ve lost for you gain more love and admiration.
Please keep on fighting, I know you have reasons to live for. If words and letters could cure, you’re as healthy as ever, if true and sincere love could save life, immortality will be yours, but there are things that we only wish for. Still the only thing that gives us hope is the most powerful of all, prayer. I hope and pray that the letters you read, the words you hear and the love you feel from all over the world serve as a blanket in your cold moments and refresh you during harsh times. Hang on, our prayers are with you always. Never give up.
Hey Lisa,
IWish u all the best for the stem cell transplant on the 21st dec n i will be praying for u more than ever coz the way u are going through this all is simply amazing.
Remember “God” always puts people in a situation which he knows u can get out off with a smile so keep the beat going on and he will be there with u.
Bobcat n ur Dad are the two Angels who will help u come out of it all with a flashing smile.Tey are “God’s” special Angels in ur life.
Wishing u oceans of Happiness.
With luv
Sameeksha
YG
Hello Lisa!
I’m thai people and not good at english but I need to tell you. Hang in there and try try… Don’t give up
Fight fight Girl
Ps. make a wish you’re feeling well soon because I’m your big fans.
Welcome back!!
HELLO MY EMERALD-EYED !!!!
I wrote this morning but but did not reach.
One more schock to me today. I had never been a headache in my life more…See you know, I think you do not read my comments. Because I was hear today from my a friend.I mentally ill and dangerous maniac. Yes Lisa my old sister was said to my friend 🙂
Realy I hope I mentallly ill. I heard and my lived everything and everything….I hope these are just a bad dream:-( I really prefer dear Lisa. My heart hurts.’m afraid the first time in my life from myself. I do not want to talk .I would be patient. because ,If I talk, I do hurt. I do not want any. Not for her or me. For my parents…I am very afraid Lisa. If they can not Based on this sadness. What do I do ? I never forgive her. I keep hatred 😦 I’m afraid to hold a grudge…not for me….
You did not seed just for body health Lisa. You did seed for very huge friendship. Friendship’s power will carry very much benefits and quality and carrier to you Lisa. I believe with my all heart. Your honesty and sharing of your life and your feelings…you prove to everyone that has value…
I would talk a lot you know. but then, I need you.now not only talk, action time. For quality and a good social life. acceptance stage…We will be together. We will talk about you.we have to see beauty of life.as a trace of injures. We will live with the peace .If we do not care about it, ıt will be away from us.
come now, young lady 🙂 I threw the ball.You will show me the way. I do not want to talk to the senseless. already I talked enough. Isnt it? 🙂
you just say something…
I will tell “vırak vırak” like a frog in a pond.( joke Lisa)
TÖVBE TÖVBE (this is a term) But I can not explain. I rip myself for to writing in English.( joke ,joke ) humorous approach 🙂 We use latin alphabet. There are some foreign words in my language.
I am waiting , what you want to talk. How happy are you with ? ball in your hands my darling
LISA=DOĞA
HOOOOLLLLLAAAAAA LIIISAAAA
COMO ESTAS….PUES HOY PASE A DEJARTE UN CALUROSO SALUDO DE AMOR…. ES LO MEJOR QUE PUEDO DAR…Y HOY TE LO QUIERO REGALAR A TI.
UN FUERTE ABRAZO,,
FRANCY
hello lisa
how are you? hope your feeling better
im sorry for what i said yesterday
i was very upset when i was writing to you
but i just wanted to share with you and tell you that despite what im going through in my life, the only one person that i feel i can say something to right now is you, your the only one person in the whole wide world, who makes me smile who gives me strength.. and some oxygen to survive a bit longer. i think alot about what you say, and what you do.. when i cant sleep i search for light..i will look beneath my door and just stare…at it…and then when i see a bit light.. it reminds me of “you”
when i think of you, i think of your smile..when i think of you i can feel strength, courage, hope, light, sunshine…
lisa…you are my “happy thoughts” as they say think of happy thoughts…:) so i think of you:)
i know im not going to survive what im going though either…..i went beyond everything to get my love…and as much as i did, today i am that much “lonely”….
i dont do anything, i be home alone all day and when my family come back from their day to day jobs i just be in my room…i dont speak to anybody….i have been through a lot in life… and im at that stage of my life when i just wana pack my bags and …just disappear…i wish i was invisible……!
the pain doesnt gooooo…….. ;( i have no reason to live now!!! i have nothing!! but i wana do all it takes to be there for you….im going to pray so much for you and bas i want you to be fine. nothing else matters. just “you”
thanks Antonio for your comment, when i read that i was in tears…i cannot help it….:( it felt like somebody noticed i am alive….thanks antonio for your kind words.
Lisa, what are you doing these days??? hows your cat?
been checking your blog yesterday and today nothing on that so far, i check shamims to see if she has wrote something new..
last night i watched bollywood hollywood, the world unseen and i cant think straight back to back…im planning to download all your movies in to my iphone…but i watch these movies again and again, its nice to see you everytime 🙂 you bring joy into my life.
lisa i saw you in my dream yesterday and this is the 1st time i have dreamt about you, and i saw you getting an award on stage…i was sooo happy to see you in my dream and i found myself sitting next to you..aww what a great feeling it was.
thinking of you, and sending blessings your way 🙂
keep shining like a star 🙂
love you lisa 🙂
sooooooooooo much:)
take extra special care, and thanks for always being there for meeeeeeeeee .. mmmmmmuwah 🙂
I’m so, so, so amazed at your strength. You’re just an amazing person inside & out, so great… Hang in there. You’ll be in my thoughts constantly & I know you can get through this! You can.
My Dearest Lisa
i like your dance in some clip of which film i don’t know,perhaps in which you slap the guy five times!!! may be i am wrong,????
P.S oh my heart is crazy to make love maizy
i think bob cat is a decadent photographer !!! ami right ???
next time say cushiongroid
Pleasse get some help, you shouldn’t tell Lisa that you are n ot going to survive this either. You need to get help and stop writing depressing things.
You have my email address.
hi i think her bob cat is P.L. i mean her partener..her bf:)..but i m not sure:D
hello lisa whats up?how you are feeling today?…it s so cold right now in italy…winterrrrrr…snowwwww…yeeee…this remebers me my country:) Romania:)
i count the days until 21st..
big hugs for you sweety and take care
your faithfull ana maria
Dear Lisa,
Not really sure what to write. That justifies this delay. And not being able to write is not a great feeling o:) This “unbearable lightness of being”….
It is great that you are documenting your journey. Perhaps you should get a better camera and shoot more. Perhaps you are already doing it…
Your dad reminds me of someone, unable to figure out who. Maybe one of those beautiful souls I have come across during my backpacking trips. I really don’t know, that too is a strange feeling…. o:)
more later,
Hi Lisa:
I’ve been lurking out here, following your journey from afar without comment. You are very brave. Your stories have that distant ring of familiarity. I took this same journey 2 years ago and this post brought back a flood of memories of what occurred 2 years ago in October and the recovery period, which included daily hour long drives to the hospital for hydration treatments and 2 stays in the hospital to prevent infection. I started to feel well and was up and about after New Year’s.
And this post makes me think about what’s to come. It’s back. Not only did I observe my 2 year anniversary in October but I learned my multiple myeloma was back. I’ve been doing chemo since then. No IVs in this lead up period. Just pills. 10 decadron and 10 procytox every Monday morning. And when the big push comes it’ll be a combination of chemo and radiation. So there is a bit of the unknown this time around.
As for the stem cell transplant itself they’ve got a supply in the deep-freeze, saved from the first time around. So that’s one less thing to worry about.
All this to say, your journal has really struck me. I may not know you but I know what you’re going through. Be strong – and from all accounts you are – and best of luck.
Amina,
I read your comment and I’m worried about what you are feeling.
Please, write to me: ximeavila78@hotmail.com
I speak spanish, but if you write in english, it’s ok.
Greetings, and take care…
Ximena.
Hi there Lisa….I’m sure you feel the positive and good energy people all over the world is sending to you. You have poems, songs, videos, letters….even an idea to paint the ceilings in pink….I mean, I was looking for more info of you on the web ’cause I’ve seen you in a few movies, and the way your eyes talk (speak) just moved me…then I found interviews, strong personality you have, then this blog shows me the huge heart you have girl!!!!….R ya afraid?? who wouldn’t?? but you have all this great energy people is sending to you, you are sharing your fears and that give us the opportunity to help you, a tiny bit to get through all this. You must know that you’ll get well, I’m not crazy (well yes I am but for other reasons LOL), you are an exceptional person, meaning you are making things happen!!! On the 21st we’ll be thinking of you. But now, I don’t have poems or anything of that, I can offer you a list, a list of places you will visit soon, I’ll try to give you all kind of details from them…that way you can see something different from ceilings..;)….so start thinking of the norway’s fjord-indented coastline and its mountains….give you details later 😉
P.D. my english sucks so I’m sorry :$
Yers BobCat is her boyfriend, she has mentioned that facty many times in her blogs.
Lisa
Few days without news,without you and i already miss you……..
Take care
Dearest Lisa,
You May Hear Nothing From Me On How I Appreciate You,
But
Beyond That Silence, You Friendship Creates A Beautiful Sound In My “Heart”
Each Moment in a day has its own value
Morning brings hope
Afternoon brings faith
Evening brings luv
Night brings rest
Wish u find them all today. . .and everyday:)
Keep Smiling 🙂
Missing you
lots of hugs 🙂
Amina
May every hour of everyday
bring sumthing special 4 u.
a thought that makes U smile,
a smile that warms ur heart
& a heart that holds much happiness inside.
Love you lots 🙂
Amina
it must be long joruney ,
but it is good to feel you are doing fine at the end ,.
keep the fight ,and god willing inshallah you always be fine .Best wishes
My Dearest Lisa
I have heard that one white girl somewhere is a budhist . is it true ?
p.s let me know because she is out of place
Oh My God What is WRONG with you? Don’t post this nonsense here. YOU are out of place and offensive.
My Dear ANTonIA
iF iam rude then u must not be that white girl,budhist faith has developed from india into the south west asia,never in the west,it seems incongrous
Hola Corazón ( Liza Rani Ray )
Mi regalo de Navidad pido que sea Tu alivio.
Te quierooooo
Hi Lisa Ray
I’ m sorry that i write this message but i see that someone has some big problems and is attacking everyone…I think is obsessed by you and being like this can makes her so protective around you…I think she doesn’t have her life and she’s living in your shadow…I ‘m sorry that I m writing you this but we all are free to do and to say what we want..ofcourse we are different and we have different thinking and different ways to understand,to give advices and to write you…we are not perfect and this person thinks that is so perfect…but just look around you …you are human too so stop criticize the other people!!!
And of corse LISA RAY will come back when she ll got the time and when she ll feel this…not when you want!!!and if you say that you are her friend why you are here?just write her on her e-mail address…if you really known her how you said it..all of us we disearve to tell what we think with out being attacked by someone…if Lisa Ray did this blog ,then if we disturb her with our message she will tell us,she will write it!!she doesn’t need a lawyer!!!
With love for Lisa Ray and with respect for her fans
Best for21st
veronica
lisa….!!!
take my words …u ‘ll be fine inshallah …so don worry ….it must be long joruney ,
but it is good to feel you are doing fine at the end ,.
My Dearest Lisa
Good Night !!!
p.s why iam hanging around with here is because of MM
Monday Moring would indead be beautiful against multiple myleoma
Our Sunshine lisa,
Wish you have such sweet day
Thinking of you
best wishes
hello Lisa…another day …and what a day it was for me…i dont know for you
People are free to worship however they choose and it doesn’t matter what their race is or what country the religion began in. Again you are very offensive and your remark is ignorant. Lisa’s mother is white, my mother is white. What’s wrong with you?
CALMNESS IN OUR LIVES
I am passing this on because it definitely works and we could all use a little more calmness in our lives. By following simple advice heard on the Oprah show, you too can find inner peace. Dr Oz proclaimed, ” The way to achieve inner peace is to finish all things you have started and never finished.” So, I looked around my house to see all the things I started and hadn’t finished, and before leaving the house this morning, I finished off a bottle of White Zinfandale, a bottle of Tequila, a package of oreos, the remainder of my old Xanax prescription, the rest of the cheesecake, some Doritos,and a box of chocolates. You have NO idea how good I feel right now.
(p.s. this is just a joke)
HAHAHAHA TOO FUNNY Thanks.
Hi Lisa,
I visit your site again and read some responses of your fans. I feel sad Lisa. I think your blog must be where we can share sympathy and our love to you. But some where in here, it becomes a place for someone to debate. Just throw it away Lisa, all I wish is to give you. And I hope this place is a healthy place for you. Feel relax here! You are busy these day huh? Come to the blog just even to say that you are alright and you are committing to your goal: faith, strength to overcome all.
” When there’s a will, there’s a way”
With love,
Thai Binh- Viet nam ,
I don’t know who you are referring to but I assure you that I rarely visit this blog. However I suspect you are here all day, nearly everyday, serveral times a day and to me that seems to be a tad obsessive.
In addition to my job I also have a website where I host news and other important issues concerning Ms. Ray, yes she is aware of my website and she’s even mentioned my website via Twitter.
I do feel a sense of protectiveness towards Lisa Ray because I get the impression that the majority of the readers do not know about the serious nature of the illness Lisa is living with and spend their time giving Lisa Ray ill conceived medical advice instead of support. I KNOW about Catastrophic illness, I am also living with Catastrophic illness, living with a disease that has NO known cure. Lisa knows what she needs to do to treat the Multiple Myeloma she is living with and NONE of Us are qualified to give her medical advice.
Finally through my website I have helped raised funds for the Princess Margaret Hospital where Lisa is receiving her treatment. My readers come from all over the world and have contributed, some have contributed numerous times. So I ask as you pass judgment on others.
What have YOU done to help Lisa?
Jesus Christ is the only way ! He is the truth and He is the life.
And you know what ? He stands at the door and knocks patiently and lovingly waiting for you to let Him into your life and know Him better.
You want your life transformed ? All it takes is one prayer Lisa !
God Bless
HELLO MY EMERALD- EYED !!!!
Yes a new day. What I think, Do you know ?
For all people “the peace”, for their internal reviews. we do not need important biological disease. Did you see? Everyone need to peace for their own internal reviews. Here’s largest largest famine disease. we all need the same. You are very lucky because yours temporary.:-) Let me warn you ! later times, you will more annoyed with all the trivial absurdity..:-)
Unfortunately, human creation…get read, listen, they know. but Never and never can not learn before lived.
Let us think , realy we know love ? Nooo not yet Lisa 😦
What does respect ? What does loyalty ? What is religion ?
What is the mind ? What is empathy ? What is peace ? What Hi ? What is thank you ?
We need to learn before these…..
tiny spark, burns whole forest my darling. The wet gets flame Besides dry…I used this metaphor for people. Who’s “tiny spark” ?, who’s “wet”? Who’s “dry” ? in your life You decide it my friend?
We prefer talking rather than listening. Why we have just 1 mouth ? Why we have 2 ears ? Because we have to listen more than talking. This is just my idea..(mmmm philosophy 😛 sorrry Lisa Ray ) It will occasionally …:-) I can not leave some of my tastes.
my mother says : “There are 9 nodes in the throat”
_ My doughter,be very careful when you talking. First think and then talk…You think where will go your words.
For everything ‘too much’ is harmful Lisa. Love, money, and religious beliefs. very weak, self-obsessed people do this kind of obsession. need professional support.Everyone needs a certain period of professional support. We feel better.
We are all egoist. This is never change 😦 We’re still spider-brained. but I hope that will change. O.K WHEN ?
” deadlock month’s, last Wednesday”. ( like a analogy .It means ‘never’). 🙂
how are you today ? Do you want to make cake. It will be filled with yellow roses and blue roses.:-) I do not forget. We will celebrate 🙂 I’ll only eat. Will be problem for you ? 🙂
Have a nice day my blue rose 🙂 see you later.
Love and kiss…..
LISA=DOĞA
Hey Lisa,
Keep the fight on until you win!
With prayers from Chennai..
Prathap
hi Lisa how u????i miss you so much…i dont have news from you from some good days…miss your writting…your journey…take care and have a good day where evere you are right now
with love ana maria
Hi Lisa,
How are you today? I’ve looking for everywhere about MM cancer & I’ve just found this, you may already knew but if you haven’t seen it yet then please read if you have time,
http://www.cancertutor.com/Cancer/Noni.html
More experience is a good thing, right? Have you ever heard about noni juice treatment? It kills cancer cell, I have a friend who works for TahitianNoni company in Japan, I could help if you would like to. Green tea is also very good for treatment cancer, I’m sure you’ve already knew, I’d love to send Green tea from Japan to you, please count on me if you need it. There are 5 more days you ‘ll have Stem Cell Transplant, I wish you luck & your fan on over the world will pray for you.
Love from Japan.
Hi Lisa
I’m writing to you from Anchorage, Alaska. I’ve been thinking about you a lot every day and sending positive vibes for you as the 21st roars up. Have someone let us know how you are and yourself of course when you can. Sylvia
Welcome back sis!!
Just wanna share send u some …
Love
Cherish
Kisses
and
Hugs
^_^
Miss you much,
Angel
I udnerstand your feeling , and thank you and thanks to everyone who care,.
though it is our duty to do things to a woman who gives us through all her life a love, a smile ,beauty and other meaning to life.so we all thankfull to lisa ray.Thank you very much our lisa.
i understand your feeling and you fear which clear in your words,but lisa lovers are from around all world ,they share by thier diffrent warm taste and diffrent color a love to lisa,so i am sure Lisa will understand that and will excuse them if they say something wrong they didnt mean from it only love, so please lets us see that our diffrences are good ,you ,me ,she ,he , are united and complete each other because we gathered by one love ,Love of lisa .
We Love you lisa
Good morning lisa,
hope that you are fine and in the best of health, just praying lots for you and wishing that it all goes well on the 21st, all your fans are praying for you, never stop fighting..you can do it:)
your beautiful inside and out..in a way that changes things..and makes days brighter and smiles warmer and hearts like mine sooo much happier 🙂
My heart is grateful for you and for all the many ways you make the world a better place:)
We all love you and are thinking of you, and your very close to all our thoughts and prayers 🙂
sending you take care good wishes and hang in there hugs:)
please take extra special care of yourself:)
thinking of you and hoping you feel better and better each day:) keep shining 🙂
Lots of love,
Amina
dear, Lisa
I come from Thailand,reading in your blog and amazing in your opinion.
I like you in everything and I will following you forever.
I’m sorry,for restriction my English language,but I love you so much.
good night
angkana
HELLO MY EMERALD_ EYED !!!!
My dear friend how is your evening ? I hope you are fine.
I am fine…How much you’re good ,I ‘m as good as you…
I do not leave thirsty , my blue rose, and I do not leave loveless you my dream friend 🙂 I am here as long as you want. I am very happy for to be with you like your partner , like your dad and like your real friends. Of course, I’m not lucky like them.
I wish a sweet and peaceful sleep…I kiss you, to smell the smell
LISA=DOĞA
Hey, Lisa
Your writing seems to be a little sad. But we know you are brave enough to conquer everything if you set your will.
So, cheer up, baby!
You can do that!
my dear lisa
Please read it befoe you go to bed!
(using your mirror)
TnAW T2uL I
YA2 OT
THpin boop
A 9VAH bnA
!MA9rb T99W2
best wishes
(*^__^*)
Love !Love !Love !
Ok, I hope your evening was good enough, and this is a starting on the Fjords in Norway, so you can think on going soon…..
So, what’s a Fjord?
A fjord is a deep, narrow and elongated sea or lakedrain, with steep land on three sides. The opening toward the sea is called the mouth of the fjord, and is often shallow. The Fjord’s inner part is called the sea bottom. If the geological formation is wider than it is long, it is not a fjord. Then it is a bay or cove.
The fjords were formed by the giant glacier tongues that through several ice ages have shaped the landscape. A fjord is thus a U-shaped undersea valley, and on the west coast, this valley is often surrounded by dramatic mountain scenery.
In front of the glacier arm, there was deposited a moraine of gravel and sand that formed an underwater barrier, often called “sea thresholds” or “ra”. Places where the fjord is shallow.
This shallow threshold in the mouth of the fjord, is the reason that fjords often are quieter than the open sea. Thus fjords are often natural harbors.
Fjord is one of the few Norwegian words that have become international, especially in English where it is used directly. Fjord comes from the Norse fjǫrðr. This stems, in turn, from the prehistoric Indo-European word * prtús, derived from * por* or * per, meaning “go”, “pass” or “to put over on the other side.”
Fjord in its basic meaning “where one fares through”, then has the same origin that the word “fare” (travel). The verb “fare” and the noun “ferry”, has the same origin.
The longest fjord in the world, is Scoresby Sund in Greenland (350 km), but the Western Norway region boasts the next two spots on the list, with the Sognefjord (203 km), and the Hardanger Fjord (179 km).
Well-known fjords in Western Norway
Sognefjord
Stretching 204 km in to the foot of the national parks Jotunheimen and Jostedalsbreen. Norway’s longest and deepest, and the world’s second longest fjord. 1 308 m at its deepest. Sognefjord has been an important transport source from ancient times. It has made it possible to transport agricultural products, fruits, berries and fish between the villages in Sogn and Bergen. In 2004, Lewis Gordon Pugh, was the first to swim the Sognefjord lengthwise.
Sognefjord is located south of Sogn and Fjordane County.
Geiranger Fjord
15 km long. Inscribed on UNESCO’s World Heritage Sites, in 2005. Along the fjord you will see farms, situated far up in the mountains, where it is hard to believe that anyone could live. Today they are abandoned, but accessible by trail and boat. Geirangerfjord is one of the most visited tourist destinations in Western Norway. At the head of the fjord, Geiranger is located. Midway through, you’ll find “The seven sisters” – a waterfall with an approximate fall height of 300 meters. The name arose because the falls, at a distance, resemble the hair of seven women. On the opposite side of the fjord is the waterfall “Friaren” (suitor). With its bottle-shaped appearance, apparently an unfortunate suitor, (and therefore addicted to the bottle), as he waited for a response to his proposal to the sisters.
Geiranger Fjord is situated in Møre og Romsdal county.
Nærøyfjord
19 km long and constitutes an arm of the Aurland Fjord, which in turn is an arm of the Sognefjord. Extends to the little place Gudvangen. This is a narrow fjord. Only 250 meters at its narrowest point. The mountains in the area are stretching the entire 1 800 meters above sea level. Here, too, abandoned farms can be seen high up in the mountains. Nærøyfjord was in 2005 inscribed on the UNESCO World Heritage Sites.
Nærøyfjord situated in Sogn and Fjordane county.
Hardangerfjord
179 km long. Norway’s second longest fjord, and the third longest in the world. On the deepest, more than 800 meters. The glacier Folgefonni is located on the south side. Density of fish farms for salmon, makes the Hardangerfjord to one of four major farming regions in the world. It is illegal to fish for salmon without a permit in the fjord.
Hardangerfjord is located in Hordaland County in the Hardanger area.
Hjørundfjorden
33 km long. Considered by many as one of the most beautiful in the world, because of the sharp-pointed peaks on both sides. These are the core area of Sunnmørsalpene. Furthest north the fjord is 2.5 kilometers wide, and narrows down towards the bottom of the fjord. At its deepest Hjørundfjord is 441 meters. The name may come from “sword” (hjorr), since the fjord’s shape can be compared with a sword. Around the fjord there are about 70 small One of these is Tusse Lake, which has given name to the power company Tussa.
Hjørundfjorden is situated in Møre og Romsdal county.
Lysefjord
42 km long and almost 500 meters at its deepest. Plateaus known as Pulpit Rock and Kjerag, is situated along the fjord. Because of high mountains and large lakes on the plateaus, Lysefjord is used for hydropower generation. One of the plants has a fall of 740 meters. The mountains are, at their highest, 1 000 meters above sea level.
Lysefjord is located in Ryfylke.
By the way if you have some time, get on the web and listen a Diego Torres song, “color esperanza”, it’s in spanish, but “colour hope” is one of the best lyrics in the gender….;P
Hey Lisa ,
Everything is going to be good again , just get this stupid cancer out of your body once. Be strong \m/
P.S: There is a scrabble application on facebook as well , will love to play with you online.
I do feel for you…even though I really don’t know what you are going through. The only thing I can say is do not stop fighting. I have lost people that I have loved dearly to cancer, of all kinds. Some faught and others did not have a chance because they found out too late (my mother-in-law). My own daughters’ who are 16 and 15 have a friend who is in remission from breast cancer at the age of 16. If they were not awake before when their grandmother passed…well, they are now! You are doing a wonderful and nobel job of sharing your life with others. Keep fighting because you are worth keeping on their earth.
Chaque brin d’herbe a sa part de rosée.
J’espère que ce proverbe chinois te donnera encore plus de courage, de force dont tu fais preuve à chaque instant.
Tendres pensées du sud de la France
Dear Habibti,
This is one of the most beutiful phrase of this theme:
“Saber que se puede…
Querer que se pueda…”
“Know what can be…
Wanting to be able…”
“Tentar al futuro con el corazón…”
“Tempt the future with the heart…”
“Color esperanza” from Diego Torres.
THANKS GERI FOR YOUR MESSAGE!!!!
I really hope that you are fine.
Take care. Be strong. We are behind you pushing toward the cure. I’m sure.
Allways with you. Day and night.
Best wishes, Lisa…
Ximena.
MUCHA PAZ. MUCHA LUZ…
i am sorry !!!
Hi Lisa
Just come across your yellow diaries, keep strong, thinking of you here in England. Hope all goes well on the 21st.
My Dearest Lisa
Hi there,i am back !!!.the nature of pig iron is such that no one can sue
P.S even in 21st century
Fantastic news everyone!
Massive breakthrough in the fight against cancer
http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/health/8414124.stm
Never stop fighting!!!
Gems x
Hi,
Thanks all friends. I hope this is not a serous problem. Ha ha…what most of people here can do is to give, to encourage Lisa to overcome illness by faith and truth…
I ignore your count of what you have done for Lisa, money and encouragement. People do their own way to give what considered the best 4 their idol, not only money expected.
Hope all of you have peace in mind!
Oh, again Antonia, friend, I am not referring to you in words above. Relax!
Hope you can do more and more to help Lisa.
Hi Lisa,
How are to day? Wish all the best your you.
Lat night, I told my friend about you, my loved idol. And then I imagine a kind of magic. Not to tell a lie, but I wish the scientist can make the bone replaced by the other one. I will surely the first who volunteers.
With love,
dear lisa !!
I will help with the lyrics of the song by Diego Torres, it is easier to understand, thanks ximena and geri!
It’s in your eyes with one look
What are you tired of walking and walking
And walking, spinning forever in a place ..
Is that windows can be opened
Change the air depends on you
Help you, it’s worth once again.
Knowing that you can, wanting to be able
Remove to remove them out fears
Paint your face the color of hope
Login to the future with the heart.
It is better than ever ship lost
Best tempted to stop trying
Although you see is not so easy to start.
Is that the impossible can be achieved
That sadness will go someday
And so life changing and will change ..
Feel the soul flies
For sing once more
Knowing that you can, wanting to be able
Remove to remove them out fears
Paint your face the color of hope
Login to the future with the heart.
It is better to shine
That only seek to see the sun
Paint your face the color of hope
Login to the future with the heart
Knowing that you can, wanting to be able
Paint your face the color of hope
Login to the future with the heart
Knowing that you can, wanting to be able
Remove to remove them out fears
Paint your face the color of hope
Login to the future with the heart
Knowing that you may want to be able
Paint your face the color of hope
Login to the future with the heart ..
MUCHA LUZ MUCHA FUERZA EN TU CAMINO!!
love always
YOU ARE THE BEST LISAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YOU’RE BEAUTIFULL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WITH SOOOOO MUCH LOVE
FROM MÉXICOOOO
Words well put
Follow your Bliss Lisa …
(“,)
Kris
http://notesleftbehind.wordpress.com
hi lisa
Hi Lisa,
just hang in there..its been a month since my Best friend went thro stem cell..i have been thro this , its not easy but just hold on u got to believe u going to b fine.;..
never stop fighting
Such a nature I have not seen. I think the planned visit to your country and see all their eyes.
Такой природы я не видела. Я думаю, что запланированный визит в вашу страну и увидеть все их глазами.
hi there !!
“Obama want a popsicle?”
:):)
Haha, Lisa, you are a master of humor.
Next Tuesday is the winter solstice, we here,
Then we’ll go to eat mutton hotpot,
it’s very delicious
You? You will have special food for the the winter solstice?
Good luck to you,dear Lisa:)
Fighting…
Lisa
Keep smile 🙂 when you do it you know that you just change the world a little bit. I love you.
XoXo T ur fan from thailand XoXo
I pray your transplant is a roaring success. It’s so hard..knowing that you have to go through what you have to, and no one can change any bit of it..but just be there with you while you make that journey..even changing their course or putting their journey on hold…just coz they love you and want to be there to see if they can help besides just being around to show the enemy you are not alone…
Well…ALL THE BEST.
I hope to see your Happy New year Blog soon!!!
And warm regards to your Father and Bobcat. Ask your mom to be around. You are her stem..and while You cannot see..she is your root and still holding you up 🙂
Good luck for your transplant.
Dear,Lisa:)
Pray for you,
Sincerely wish transplant success!
Dear Lisa;
You’re probably already in the hospital for your transplant getting prepped. I hope you have a good night and that the procedure is a success. A fairly new but ardent fan. Sylvia in Anchorage
Hello! Lisa
Look! you’ll get through this. Everyone will prayer for you.
Everything’s gonna be OK. Come back as soon as possible.
I will be waiting for you here. Keep an eyes on your blog.
Hang in there, girl
Fan from Thailand (10.18 a.m.)
Howdy sis,
Its now raining cats n dogs here…. wuhuuuu i love it sis!!
I just wanna send you love, kisses, hugs and lots of prayers for you like usual 😀
Many love for you
Recovery soon
Keep smiling
Take care
Kisses n hugs,
Angela
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Dear fans ,for all those of you who follow Lisa,we made a group on facebook based on her blog
The name is Yellow Fellow Diarists
http://www.facebook.com/group.php?gid=278655322641&ref=nf#/group.php?gid=278655322641&ref=nf
we don’t try to copy her blog,for us, the group is an inspiration that made us to be original in our way.
This originality is compose from our love,respect and support for Lisa.
What we make in this group is because we want to show our feelings.
If u have just a second and you hear about Lisa..then…just take a short look.
Thank you
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This is heartbreaking. =( I really do hope you get well. I’m a nurse and I know how painful and frightening it is to undergo these procedures. Please fight and never stop doing so.
Get well soon. God Bless you and your family (specially your dad).
Sienna,
If you are indeed a nurse then you should be familiar with the condition of Multiple Myeloma and how Lisa is probably handling her diagnosis and should know better.
Try to be more positive with your comments because I am quite sure that no one here wants to read how “heartbreaking” this is. I am not going to argue with you either so please don’t look for a fight with me.
Antonia,
I actually don’t know what to say to you, except that I understand how you feel with my post. Just respect other people’s feelings and try to be more accepting next time.
No fighting please or arguments. It’s 2010, and I can feel all the good things are coming. Peace out! =)
Your point is taken however I still believe that if you are indeed in the medical prefession that you would have displayed more discretion and empathy towards a patient with a potentially life threatening illness. You want me to consider your feelings? Then try to consider Lisa’s feelings when she reads your comment. Now if you wish to debate this issue firther then please write directly to me at:
hypervisionvideos@gmail.com
I don’t want to debate you anymore on Lisa’s blog.
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The most important part of any company is the people and relying on people.
Awe-Inspiring.
‘“Anyone can give up, it’s the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that’s true strength.’
Best of Luck.
Forever in My prayers.
All My Love.
Bex-18-Ireland
HOLA LISA:
ES ADMIRABLE SU VALENTIA,CORAJE Y SINCERIDAD.SOLO DESEARLE UNA PRONTA RECUPERACION PARA PODER DISFRUTAR DE LA MIRADA TAN BELLA Y CAUTIVADORA QUE POSEE.UN SALUDO Y UN FAVOR;NUNCA DEJE DE SONREIR
Welcome back……. nice to see you “alive and kicking” if I may say that.
It’s great to hear you are out of it all.
Just consider it a test. Remember the saying, what doesn’t kill you only makes you stronger.
Nice to see you back.
geçmiş olsun. duyunca cok üzüldüm umarım en kısa zamanda iyleşirsin dualarım seninle seni cok seviyorum
Love Lisa from Costa Rica. I love you.
love from Brazil… Nice to see you back…
u idiot why do u comment to a link that is 3 years old.she is in good health and enjoy in pubs as a prostitute.
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